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EMMELINE’S legs shook as the door closed behind Makin. She’d been shaking ever since he’d confronted her in the bathroom with the truth. Shaking with fear.

But now he was gone and she was glad. Glad he’d left her alone. Glad the truth was finally out. She’d hated lying to him. Hated pretending to be his perfect Hannah. And now she didn’t have to lie anymore.

It was better now that he knew the truth. Even if it meant he’d never speak to her again. Better this way. Better to be honest about everything.

And he could say what he wanted about her. He could ridicule her and despise her, but she wouldn’t give him the ability to hurt her anymore. Emmeline left the cool serenity of the white, apricot and gold bedroom for the garden.

She paced the private courtyard with the intensely sweet perfume of antique roses scenting the air as the hot yellow sun beat down, heating her skin. For many this palace would be a kind of paradise. But Emmeline had grown up in palaces surrounded by high stone walls and uniformed soldiers who changed position every four hours. She’d never been the tourist on the outside, admiring the pageantry and elegance. She’d been the captive royal inside the palace walls, locked in for her own protection.

And now, Kasbah Raha was just one more beautiful gilded cage.

One more luxurious but secure building to hold her, confine her, trap her.

And Makin was one more powerful man who thought he could intimidate her. Belittle her. Control her.

But she was done being manipulated and controlled. It was time she grew up. Wised up. Opened her eyes and used her brain. She had a good brain, too, and at twenty-five it was time she owned her life and made decisions for her future.

A future with a baby. Her baby. And how she loved her baby already. Her baby was the most important thing now.

“You look like a tiger in the zoo.”

Emmeline jumped at the sound of Makin’s deep voice and turned to see him inside the doorway, in the cool shadows of the air-conditioned living room. “So much for privacy,” she said, folding her arms across her chest.

He shrugged. “You didn’t answer the door.”

“So you just let yourself in?”

“If I’m concerned about the safety of one of my guests.”

“And so now you’re concerned about me?”

He shrugged again. “I’m responsible for all the guests in my home.”

The edge of her mouth curled up. “Did you forget something? Or have you thought of another way to humiliate me?”

“I don’t have to, Your Highness. You do a great job of humiliating yourself.” He gestured toward a bench in the dappled shade. “But I do have news. Sit.”

She bristled inwardly at his sarcasm but refused to let him see how much he affected her. There was no reason for him to affect her. She told herself she didn’t care for him. Certainly didn’t need him. They were equals. And adversaries. “I’d rather stand.”

“You’re seven weeks pregnant. I’d rather you sit.”

It was clear from the curt tone that he expected her to obey, but he forgot that he had no power over her. “You might, but I’d ask you to remember that I’m not Hannah—”

“Trust me, I do,” he cut her off with a sigh. “So sit. There is something I must tell you, and it’s not easy.”

Emmeline’s stomach fell and her knees went weak. Alarm shot through her. “Alejandro?” she whispered.

“Yes.”

She put a hand to her belly, sixth sense telling her that Makin’s news wasn’t good.

Crossing to the marble bench in the dappled shade, Emmeline sat down, feeling the tug of the lace skirt around her hips and how her ivory silk blouse clung to her damp, warm skin.

“I’m sorry,” he said simply.

Emmeline’s heart sank into the pit of her stomach. “What happened?”

“He went into cardiac arrest a couple of hours ago. And even though they had the best doctors and nurses in all of Miami, they couldn’t get his heart beating again.”

It took her a second to process everything. “He’s gone.”

“Yes.”

She closed her eyes, besieged by wildly different emotions. Shock, grief, regret. But the grief and sorrow weren’t for herself, or Alejandro. They were for Alejandro’s five children. Their lives would now be changed forever.

“Are you feeling faint?” Makin asked.

She shook her head, opened her eyes. “No.”

“This must be quite a blow.”

“Yes.”

“I am sorry.”

She pushed a loose tendril of hair back from her face. “You didn’t like him.”

“He was a father.”

She nodded. “I feel for his children,” she answered, realizing now that her child would never have the chance to know his or her father. “I wonder if they know yet. I wonder if his wife knows.”

“Isn’t that a bit hypocritical?”

“What?”

“To pretend you care about his family …?”

“Why shouldn’t I?”

“You chase Ibanez, sleep with him—”

“I didn’t know he was married until you told me, and I didn’t chase him. He chased me.”

“So that makes it okay to sleep with a married man?”

“No! Heavens, no! I’m horrified, disgusted. I made a terrible mistake.”

“And your engagement? Did you not know about that, either?”

She swallowed around the thick lump filling her throat. No wonder Makin enjoyed ridiculing her. She sounded pathetic. Stupid beyond belief. “I did.”

“That’s a relief, because I’d hate to think that everyone but you knew.”

She winced. Blood rushed to her cheeks again. “He pursued me, not the other way around. Some days he’d call or text over and over, and this went on for years.”

“So you’re saying it is okay to cheat?”

“No. But I wasn’t married to Zale yet, and I was still hoping to marry for love, not money. My parents knew I didn’t want an arranged marriage. I wanted a love match, and I thought since Alejandro loved me, we would have that.”

“If you didn’t want to marry Zale, why didn’t you say no? Why enter the arrangement in the first place?”

Makin Al-Koury was a powerful man, and he understood a great deal about politics and economics. But he didn’t know everything. He didn’t know what it was like to be a woman. Much less a beautiful, sheltered young woman with no vocation, few practical skills and a numbing lack of real world experience. Emmeline’s only purpose and power lay in her marriage ability. “Because I didn’t have a choice.”

“You were forced into the arrangement?”

She shrugged, worn out from trying to make him understand. He’d been raised by different parents, who had a different plan for him than hers had had for her. “There are different kinds of pressure. It’s not always about physical force. Women can be intimidated emotionally, psychologically—” She broke off, shook her head. “But that’s neither here nor there. The fact is, I have known since I was a little girl that my parents would choose my husband for me. They made sure that from a young age I knew my duty.”

“Apparently they didn’t. Because everyone but King Patek knows you’ve been hooking up with Ibanez over the years.”

Emmeline flushed. “That’s not true. We never hooked up.”

“So you’re not pregnant?”

“Yes. Yes, I did sleep with him. But it was only one time, and he was my. first.” Her voice wobbled. “I was a virgin until then.”

Makin snorted with derision.

Emmeline’s flush deepened, heat spreading through her body until she tingled all over. “Believe what you want. I don’t have to answer to you, or impress you, or try to make you like me. You and I will never see eye to eye—” She broke off abruptly and turned away, horrified to discover that she was about to cry.

Thank God he didn’t say anything right away, or laugh. Thank God there was just the bubble and splash of the fountain. But the silence stretched too long. Emmeline glanced at Makin and saw his expression.

Hard. Unforgiving.

She swallowed around the lump in her throat and lifted her chin, refusing to be cowed by his judgment, knowing that others would look at her the exact same way. Including her parents. It would hurt. But it wouldn’t kill her. Over time she’d learn to weather the disapproval without letting it get to her. She’d learn she could stand on her own two feet just fine.

“I know you don’t think much of me,” she said. “But I will be a good mother. I will do what’s right for my child, starting with seeing a doctor as soon as I get back to Europe.”

“Then let’s stop wasting time and get you on a plane for Brabant—”

“I’m not going to Brabant. I’m going to London.”

“Not back to Brabant?”

“No. Never.”

“But that is your home, your country—”

“Not anymore.”

“You can’t change your birthright, Your Highness. You are descended from one of the oldest royal families in all of Europe. Your bloodline ties you to the very country.”

“I will find a new country to call home. Lots of royals do it.”

“Yes, in countries where monarchy has been replaced by democracy or socialism, but Brabant is still a constitutional monarchy and as far as I know, you are the rightful heir to the throne. Why would you give that up?”

“Because I’m not the rightful heir,” she said huskily, walking away from him to approach the pool. “I’m not a true heir at all—”

“That’s ridiculous.”

She shrugged. “But true. And that’s why I won’t be going home, and why I won’t be asking for forgiveness or mercy. I don’t have to tell my parents anything. I’m twenty-five, of majority, and have access to the trust set up for me by my late grandfather. If I am careful, it’s more than enough for me to live on.”

“And your child?” he asked. “If you walk away from them, he or she may never be accepted by your family.”

“I am sure he—or she—won’t be,” she said after a moment.

“Certainly not, if you plan on running away … hiding in the English countryside?”

“I wouldn’t be hiding. I’d be living quietly, raising my child with, I hope, some privacy and dignity—”

“You hope?” His mouth tightened. “Is that your bright plan? To hope to have some privacy and dignity?” He made a rough, low sound of disgust. “Good luck, Your Highness. You’re going to need it.” With another low, derisive snort, he turned around and walked away.

She drew a quick breath, feeling as if he’d slapped her. “I might be running away but you’re great at walking away,” she called after him, hands curling into fists, her voice vibrating with emotion.

“What?”

“You can do it because you have power,” she said as he turned to face her. “Most of us can’t. We have to stand there and take it. But you don’t have to. You’re a man, and one of the world’s richest. Everybody needs you. Everybody wants your approval or your protection. It must feel good.”

He started back toward her. “How dare you speak to me in that tone of voice? You are a guest in my home. You are completely dependent on me—”

“I didn’t ask to be.”

“No, you didn’t ask. You forced yourself on me by impersonating my assistant.”

“Then let me go.”

“I would love you to go.”

She visibly flinched, stung. And yet, why did she care what he thought? Why did he have the power to hurt her? Swallowing hard, she walked around the pool and toward the house. “Great. That makes two of us. If you’ll have a driver take me to the airstrip, I’ll fly out immediately.”

“With what plane?”

She stopped short. “The one you were going to send Hannah on.”

“Oh, my plane. But that was for Hannah. You can send for your own.”

“I don’t have my own plane.”

“I guess you’ll need to ask your parents.”

She clamped her jaw tight. “That’s exactly what I meant when I said you love your power. You want the world to think you’re this good, caring person. You put on conferences and host events and fund research, but you do it to prove you are superior.”

“Someone should teach your some manners.”

“It won’t be you. You have none.”

“Perhaps I should drop you off along the desert highway. see if any of my good Bedouin tribe members happen along and let you hitchhike a ride home. Or they may not. You might end up as desert road kill.”

“What a gentleman.”

“No. Wouldn’t claim that one at all. But then, why do I need to be a gentleman? You’re no lady.”

“Having fun now, are you?”

A hot light flickered in his silver eyes. “No. Not at all. So help me understand what it is you want from me. Do you want pity? Sympathy? Poor Emmeline, poor little princess, she’s been so mistreated—”

“Go to hell,” she gritted, walking past him into the living room. He was so appallingly chauvinistic. So arrogant and self-righteous that she couldn’t even believe this was the same man she’d kissed last night. And last night had been lovely. For a moment last night she’d felt something beautiful and good but all the goodness was gone, leaving her shaken and disillusioned.

“Where are you going?” Sheikh Al-Koury demanded, his sharp voice followed her into the living room.

“To finish packing. Your Bedouin tribesmen sound delightful compared to you.”