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‘I like what you’ve done there,’ Kyle says.

He’s come nearer without me realising. He’s looking over my shoulder at my painting.

‘Kyle, wait,’ I say, sensing him taking a step away.

‘What?’ he asks. ‘What can I get you?’

I pull the envelope out and hold it, my hand closed around it. ‘This is for you,’ I tell him quietly. ‘Just take it and put it in your pocket. Look at it later. OK?’ As I hand it over, I am still full of curiosity about what’s in it. I wonder whether Kyle will tell me, or whether I’ll never know now that I’ve handed it over.

I feel him take it. ‘Put it away,’ I repeat.

‘OK – but . . .’

‘Don’t ask, please! I could do with some brown paint if you don’t mind.’

‘Sure. Mid brown?’

‘Yes, exactly.’

He’s gone. I pick up my brush and dip it in the yellow. As I hold it over the paper, I realise my hand is actually shaking. This is ridiculous. It was just a note. It probably said, Can you lend me twenty quid? or something like that. But Charlie was so secretive about it, and he made it seem so important . . . Anyway, I’ve done it now. My role is over. I feel a little deflated.

‘Here’s the brown. Shall I squeeze some out?’ Kyle’s back.

‘Thanks – just here.’

He squeezes it on to my palette. I keep all the colours in the same order so I can find the one I want. ‘Let me know if you need anything else,’ he tells me.

He’s being very attentive. Is he being kind, or is it because he’s curious about the note? Maybe he thinks I wrote it. I hope he doesn’t think it’s a love note or something.

I hold the photograph I’m painting from close to my eyes. It’s a yellow rose, but it’s amazing how many colours there are in it: shades of yellow, but also greens, whites, creams, browns. I look through the magnifier at what I’ve painted so far.

I love painting. It takes my full focus and there’s something so relaxing about it. I love photography even more – macro photography, because I can look through the lens and see so clearly, every tiny detail. It’s so different from just looking around me at vague blurred shapes. I’m sure people give me funny looks when they see me out with my camera and a guide dog. Sometimes I hear comments, but I don’t let it bother me. So many people think ‘blind’ just means you can’t see. They don’t realise how many variations of visual impairment there are.

I need clean water, and pass Kyle’s table as I go to get it. I realise I have no idea what his project is. I’m suddenly curious about what he’s painting.

‘Can I look?’ I ask him. ‘With my magnifier?’

‘Yes, if you want.’ He sounds surprised – but pleased too. ‘It’s not a patch on yours though.’

‘I’ll just get my water first,’ I tell him.

‘Shall I do it?’ he asks.

‘No – it’s OK.’ I’m touched he is being so sweet, but I like to do things for myself. I keep on a straight path towards the side of the classroom where the sinks are, feel for the edge of the sink and then find the tap. I turn it, listen to water splashing and check with a finger that the pot is not getting too full. I need to be able to carry it back without spilling it.

Kyle’s height is a useful landmark as I work my way back to my table. I’m determined not to make a fool of myself by spilling water everywhere now. I feel for the table edge and put the water down carefully, then find and lift my magnifier, taking it back towards Kyle.

‘Let me help,’ he says, taking it from me and positioning it over his picture.

I look down. Kyle is painting what looks like a fantasy battle scene from a film – monsters with weapons raised, mouths bared with teeth showing.

‘Wow! That’s intense!’ I say, hoping he doesn’t take it as an insult. ‘I mean – the detail is incredible.’

‘I love creating monsters,’ he tells me. ‘I’ve not got the perspective right though.’

‘I can’t tell,’ I say honestly. ‘Thanks for showing me. I’d better get back to mine.’

After art I have French. Madz is doing German, so at the end of the day I walk with Samson towards the cloakrooms where we usually meet.

‘Hey, Libby!’ Someone touches the top of my arm gently. ‘Libby, it’s Kyle.’

‘Samson, stand,’ I tell him. He stops.

‘Listen – that note . . .’ says Kyle. ‘Can I talk to you for a moment?’

I’m instantly curious, but I don’t want to be late.

‘Madz will be waiting for me,’ I tell him.

‘Please, just for a sec,’ he says.

‘OK.’ I tell Samson to turn left and we follow Kyle to a quiet spot round by the old disused lockers.

‘Have you read it?’ I ask him.

‘Yes,’ he says. ‘Did Charlie give it to you himself? I need to know.’

‘Yes,’ I say awkwardly. ‘What . . . what did it say? Or can’t you tell me?’

‘It says he needs help.’

‘What kind of help?’

‘It’s bad, Libby.’ Kyle’s voice is low and serious. ‘He thinks someone’s going to kill him.’

I’m so shocked, I open my mouth, but can’t speak. I feel like I’ve swallowed a stone. I don’t know what I was expecting, but it wasn’t that.

Finally, I manage one word. ‘What?’

‘I know,’ says Kyle. ‘My feelings exactly.’

‘So what does he want you to do?’

‘He wants me to meet him tomorrow. He’s told me where. I don’t know what to do. I mean, what if I don’t go, and then it happens – he gets killed? I’ll have to go, won’t I? I mean – what do you think?’

‘Maybe you should go to the police?’ I suggest.

‘The note says clearly, “no police”,’ says Kyle. ‘I guess it could put him in even more danger if whoever’s after him gets wind that he put the police on to them. If he’s asking me to help, he must think there’s something I can do.’

‘I guess,’ I say.

‘The note says I’m not to tell anyone,’ says Kyle. ‘But he must trust you, as he gave you the note. He must’ve known you’d want to know what was in it.’

I’m not sure that’s true, but I don’t say anything.

‘I think I’ll go,’ Kyle continues, ‘but listen. I want you to memorise the address before I tear it up, so that someone knows where I am. Just in case something happens.’

‘What do you think’s going on?’ I ask him.

‘I’ve no idea. I’m not sure I even want to know,’ says Kyle.

I wonder if this is true. Why has Charlie asked Kyle? Why does he think Kyle can help?

‘Maybe I should come with you?’ I suggest.

‘That’s nice of you, but he asked me,’ says Kyle. ‘And don’t get me wrong, but you and Samson . . . you’re a bit conspicuous. No – I’ll go alone.’

‘I’ll give you my number,’ I suggest. ‘Then you can call me and let me know what happens.’

‘OK,’ he says. ‘Thanks for letting me talk to you about it. See you tomorrow.’

‘Were you talking to Kyle?’ Madz asks, as I approach the cloakroom.

One problem with not being able to see much is that I never know who’s watching me.

‘Were you spying on me?’ I tease.

‘Just came to see where you’d got to,’ she says. ‘Why? Is something going on with you two?’

‘Of course not! We were talking about our art projects.’

‘And you had to go off by yourselves to do that?’ she asks, clearly not believing me.

‘So we could hear each other and so I didn’t get knocked about by everyone getting their stuff,’ I say gruffly.

‘I think he likes you,’ she tells me. ‘I saw the way he was looking at you.’

‘How?’ I ask.

‘All intense, like,’ says Madz.

‘Really? Well he’s going to be disappointed then.’

‘You don’t like him?’

‘It’s not that,’ I tell her.

Madz is so lovestruck that she has a one-track mind, while I know any intense look was because Kyle’s worried about Charlie’s note. But I can’t explain that to Madz.

‘He’s good-looking,’ she comments, ‘but he’s a bit brooding. You never quite know what’s going on in his head.’

‘You never know what’s going on in anyone’s head,’ I point out. ‘Someone can act like they’re really happy when they’re a mess inside.’

‘True,’ says Madz.

‘Kyle’s got a nice voice,’ I comment.

‘So you do like him!’ she exclaims.

‘Can we talk about something else?’ I beg, laughing.