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Yet despite the high, optimistic tone of these exchanges, privately all was not well with the two Pantisocrats. In Bristol, Southey had been ejected from Aunt Tyler’s house because of the scheme, and threatened with disinheritance. He feared for his engagement with Edith Fricker, and even more he feared that Coleridge – now apparently flourishing in Cambridge – was allowing his own commitment to Sara to slide conveniently away.

Coleridge himself was once again in deep family difficulties. His brothers, George and James, had now discovered the emigration plan – worse even than the dragoons – and had written letters of “remonstrance, and Anguish”, suggesting that he was “deranged”, and threatening to cut off his finances. They proposed that he should leave Cambridge, and study law at the Temple.

Worse still, at the beginning of October, an unsigned letter from Mary Evans arrived at Jesus College, also begging him to abandon his “absurd and extravagant” scheme, and repeating the suggestion that his was a noble mind “o’erthrown” (like Hamlet). Brother George may have instigated this appeal as a stratagem, through Mrs Evans; for it held out the tantalising possibility of renewal of their friendship should Coleridge abandon his mad Bristol friends. “There is an Eagerness in your Nature,” Mary wrote gently, “which is ever hurrying you into the sad Extreme…I often reflect on the happy hours we spent together, and regret the loss of your Society. I cannot easily forget those whom I once loved…”⁵³

Coleridge was now in “a waking Night-mare of Spirits”, with his thoughts “floating about in a most Chaotic State”.⁵⁴ Torn between Mary Evans and Sara Fricker, and berated by both Southey and George for disloyalty, it was difficult to know which way to turn. He wrote an agonised sonnet beginning, “Thou bleedest, my poor Heart!…”; but added drily: “When a Man is unhappy, he writes damned bad Poetry, I find.”⁵⁵

In fact his sonnet-writing, if nothing else, continued to flourish and improve under these pressures, and he composed a fine Gothic piece to Schiller, after reading his verse-drama The Robbers at one o’clock in the morning, in a delicious state of terror that brought obvious relief from his own problems. “My God! Southey! Who is this Schiller? This Convulser of the Heart? Did he write his tragedy amid the yelling of Fiends?…I tremble like an Aspen Leaf.”⁵⁶ His desperation also brought excitement and exhilaration.

In November, he did his best to grapple with his affairs, writing long explanatory letters to both Mary Evans and George, and going for a week to London in an attempt to sort out matters. He travelled down stylishly in a friend’s phaeton. To George he insisted that he was neither a mad democrat nor an atheist, but that Pantisocracy was a serious plan. “After a diligent, I may say, an intense study of Locke, Hartley and others who have written most wisely on the Nature of Man – I appear to myself to see the point of possible perfection at which the World may perhaps be destined to arrive.”

He went through the usual gestures of self-recrimination, which were becoming habitual in his relations with George, this time describing himself as a poor fluttering creature escaping from a “birdlimed thorn-bush” of his follies.^57* George does not appear to have been mollified, failing perhaps to acknowledge the Coleridgean spirit of adventure that had taken John and Frank to India. It must have struck Coleridge very painfully that while Southey’s mother and younger brother so actively supported Pantisocracy, his own family simply regarded the whole thing as an aberration.

To Mary Evans he wrote with passionate sincerity, describing his four years of “ardent attachment” to her, asking whether or no she was actually engaged to another suitor, Fryer Todd, and begging her to say outright whether she felt any more than sisterly affection for him. “Restore me to Reality, however gloomy.”⁵⁸ Several other letters and poems seem to have passed between them at this period, but Mary’s final response was to be delayed until the end of December, leaving Coleridge in an agony of indecision. They do not appear to have met face to face, and this uncertainty accounts for much of the confusion in his arrangements with Southey. An immediate plan to make a flying visit to Bath was postponed.

Instead Coleridge used the time in London to follow the Treason Trials of Hardy, Tooke, Thelwall and Holcroft which were then taking place at the Old Bailey. Lovell too was in London, and actually visited Holcroft in Newgate Gaol, where he received a blessing upon the Pantisocratic scheme. Then Coleridge hurried back to Cambridge, where he remained until the end of the academic term in mid-December.

Still determinedly seeking literary publicity, he proposed a whole series of sonnets on “Eminent Contemporaries” to the Morning Chronicle, and these began to appear on 1 December. His twelve subjects were carefully chosen among the distinguished reformers and liberal figures among the arts; they included Joseph Priestley, Lord Stanhope and William Godwin; Thomas Erskine, the lawyer who had defended Hardy and earlier Tom Paine; the politician and philosopher Edmund Burke; the French statesman Lafayette and the Polish nationalist, General Kosciusko; and his poetical master William Bowles. His theatrical interests were represented by the actress, Mrs Siddons, and the playwright R. B. Sheridan; while Southey was also honoured. One last sonnnet daringly attacked the Prime Minister, William Pitt, as eminent “fiend” and warmonger.

These were all essentially ideological pieces, which caused a considerable stir in the city and made Coleridge’s name generally known for the first time. As verse, they were clumsy and laboured, but Coleridge was aware of this, telling Southey: “I cannot write without a body of thought – hence my Poetry is crowded and sweats beneath a heavy burthen of Ideas and Imagery! It has seldom Ease…” But this was soon to come.⁵⁹