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Luke 24:1–12

1 Corinthians 15:19–26

Monday, August 7th, 2017

Opening: Canadian Creed

Our Gospel provides a particular kind of memory, a powerful kind of prayer, and a persistent kind of love as hallmarks of hope. Do they mark your life? Do memory (remember how he told you . . . and they remembered his words), prayer (they bowed their faces to the ground), and love (they went to the tomb, taking the spices which they had prepared) clothe life for you?

On Easter morning, women with courage walked tomb-ward to work through their worst experience. They set forth to do the work of facing grief with grace, failure with faith, hurt with hope, and death with dignity. And thee? Is that work begun, continued, or completed? Easter brings you life, uplifts, a lift for living, even into the teeth of death, so you may face, face down, and live down death.

Death makes us mortal. Facing death makes us human.

God is at work in the world to make and keep human life human.

The Gospel means to uplift you, to fill you with a common hope—listen, hear, trust—from death to life. Seek “the Living One,” he who is more alive than all life, whose life is the marrow of being alive. Why do you seek the Living One (ton zonta)—a title perhaps, a Person, for sure, an announcement of Christ, crucified and risen. All appearances to the contrary notwithstanding:

The marks of the new age are present hidden in the old age. At the juncture of the ages, the marks of the resurrection are hidden and revealed in the cross of the disciple’s daily death, and only there . . . this is what the turn of the ages means, that life is manifested in death.8

We need not over-preach, even at Chautauqua. We still walk by faith, not by sight. We still see in a mirror, dimly. We still have this treasure in earthen vessels. We still hope for what we do not see. The resurrection follows but does not replace the cross.

Paul? “Paul gives no indication that he is familiar with the doctrine of the empty tomb. There is not the remotest reference to it in any of his letters, and his conviction that the resurrection body is not the body of this flesh but a spiritual body waiting for the soul of man in heaven makes it improbable that he would have found it congenial.”9

The Gospel comes with the morning, every morning. So walk with the women and walk with me too. Let us walk together through the Gospel in sermon. And if you get done with the sermon before the sermon gets done—if you are finished with it before I am—have no fear, do not worry. Just wait a bit, and I will catch up with you! And fear not, some of you will arise inspired and some will awake refreshed, and both outcomes are worthy!

Marathon 2013

We do not know what a day will bring. This is true of every day, but truer of some days than others. Focus for a moment on the gravest of days you have known. Someday I would like to hear of it.

For some whom we know well, Patriots’ Day 2013 was such a day, nearly 3 years ago. We learned first-hand in this neighborhood about the visitation of death, tragically known again in Brussels and around the globe this week. Spelled D-E-A-T-H. Not your imaginary friend, but an equally omnipresent invisible enemy.

That Monday began with brunch and celebration, but ended with terror, needless slaughter, and (humanly speaking) unforgivable horror. Our staff opened the chapel later for the throngs walking, T-less, by. Water, refreshment, prayer, counsel, they gave. One runner came very cold and was shrouded with a clergy gown—all we had to offer, a shepherd’s outfit. What a week. Tuesday brought us to the plaza, come evening, in vigil, to honor and reflect. Wednesday, in this chapel, and also at other hours in other settings, gathered us for ordered worship, prayer, music, liturgy, Eucharist, and sermon. Thursday, we heard President Obama, on a familiar theme, “running the race set before us.” Friday, at home, we watched the televised news. Saturday, we listened for the musical succor of Handel’s beautiful Messiah, right here. The next Monday, we gathered again for a memorial service, for our deceased Boston University student, Lu Lingzi.

Death makes us mortal. Facing death makes us human.

You remember death. Your neighbor. Your hourly companion. You spell his or her name D-E-A-T-H. Easter morning is about intimations of life, the Living One outlasting death. Paul: as in Adam, all die, so also in Christ shall all be made alive (1 Cor 15:22). Behold: a glimmer of light in the dark, a rumor of life in death, an angel reclining in the tomb.

Clem: Memory

Memory gives us life. Remember how he told you . . .

If there has been ever an age that needed better memory more than ours, I know not what it would have been. Those who do not remember history are doomed to repeat it.10 The past is not dead; it is not even past.11

During that week, journalists from around the globe contacted us and others across the university. Many, perhaps most, called or wrote from Asia. Some needed commentary for radio news or other newscasts. The main newspapers across the country also sent reporters.

On Wednesday, the office took a call from the Philadelphia Enquirer. Could someone meet their man and his photographer at the steps of the chapel to help convey something of the nightly vigils, services, and informal prayers of the week. We picked a mid-afternoon hour. In the April sunlight, the interview began. Suddenly, the photographer dropped his camera and shouted: “Bob. Bob. Bob!” His name is Clem Murray, a high school classmate and friend. He and his girlfriend Mimi Sinopoli were the “class couple” because they were the most beautiful couple, a truly stunning two-some. I had seen neither of them for forty years. I had heard that they married in college. Somehow, he recognized enough of my former self, hidden behind the current condition of my condition, and recognized my name. He let go of the camera for a hug. We finished the interview and photo. I turned then, as they were going to ask, “So how is Mimi?” You only know the really awkward moments too late. They come up after you, like alligators out of the Florida swamp. Clem said nothing. He didn’t need to. I could see what he was holding back in his face and eyes. He just shook his head and shook. “Two years ago, she died of cancer.” In the midst of life, we are in death, at every moment. All I could see of her was a white graduation gown, a little cap and tassle. Three decades of marriage, three children, all things bright and beautiful, and then a malignancy unto death. Clem waved goodbye. A kairos, not a chronos moment.

We held, together, a memory of life that made life, that gave life, that made alive. In the very presence of death. It was a resurrection memory. A living memory takes you out of the present and into a living past. It was a resurrection memory. And perhaps the most powerful personal conversation I have known.

With his madeleine moment, Marcel Proust teaches us best: “A single minute released from the chronological order of time has re-created in us the human being similarly released . . . situated outside the scope of time, what could one fear from the future . . . (these are) resurrections of the past.”12

Memory gives us life.

Ceremonial Bow: Prayer

Prayer gives us life.

A week after the Marathon, we memorialized our student, Lu Lingzi. This service was held, as had been the memorial for President John Silber the autumn before, in the George Sherman Union. Two thousand attended, with an unknown number around the globe watching and listening by cybercast. The service proceeded, word and music, after careful attention and planning by musicians and clergy. We heard the Gospel of Mark and the Analects of Confucius. We listened to instrumental and choral music. We grieved, remembered, accepted, and affirmed together. The family, eighteen or so, dressed in black and sat in the front row. As the service ended, from the next row, I could see and hear a susurration along the family pew. They were meant to move to the gathering and greeting room, but no one stood. Further conversation moved up and down the row in a language I could of course not understand. I feared: have we forgotten a eulogy, left out a reading, or skipped over an anthem? No. It was something else. After a moment, the family, dressed in black, stood as one, moved as one, turned as one, and faced the congregation and the world. A long quiet ensued. Then, as one, they bowed at the waist and held the bow. To honor the gathering, to honor the moment, to honor the life, to honor Life, they bowed, in silence. It was a resurrection prayer. And it is perhaps the most powerful liturgical moment I have ever known.

“Different are the languages of prayer, but the tears are all the same.”13 We should repeat this three times a day.

Prayer gives us life.

Hold On: Love

Love gives us life. They went to the tomb . . .

The next Sunday, April 28th, turned out to be a nice, warm, early-spring day. As the sun came up, we looked forward to a day of rest and worship and a chance for a return to normal.

About one hour before the Sunday service, Br. Larry came in to the office to say, “We have another one.” It took me some moments to understand and internalize the fact of another death. She had died tragically in a fire, caught in an upper room. Her mother would be coming up from New York City on the bus later that evening. The police would have informed her of her daughter’s death. Our Dean of Students, Kenn Elmore, his associate, John Battaglino, and I planned to meet the bus. That evening, we awaited a delayed Greyhound, talking a bit about the week past. We pondered how best to greet the grieving mom. It was decided I would meet the bus and greet her as she came down the steps, offer our heartfelt condolences, and start the trek over to the hotel. The noise of the terminal, the lateness of the hour, the long weeks of terror and loss, and the approximate presence of death itself settled on us, giving us that quiet of the soul that sometimes overtakes us.

In the bus rolled. The mother came down the steps carrying a beautifully decorated box, holding it with both hands.

“I want to greet you for the University and express our deepest sympathy and heartfelt concern” I said.

“Where is my daughter?” she replied, “What hospital is she in? Please take me to her so I can see her and talk with her. I want to go and see her. Where is she? How is she doing? I brought a rice cake. See. In the box. It is her favorite. Rice cake. I know it will make her feel better.”

Honestly, at every phrase, I tried to say, with honesty and kindness, that her daughter had in fact died the night before, caught in an awful fire. Apparently, she did not understand the police, they did not speak clearly, or someone else in the family took the call. I tried everything. But she could not understand or could not hear, until, at last, she looked up and asked, “You mean . . . she . . . is dead?” Yes.

There is a phrase in the Christmas gospel about Rachel weeping for her children. That Bus Terminal echoed with the chilling, haunting, and painful cries of a mother who rightly could not and would not be consoled, as Rachel could not. The reverberation of her sobbing across that urban nighttime cacophony I can hear still. Nothing I said helped. Nothing I did helped. Nothing I could offer her could she receive. We sat on a bench, the wailing stronger still, the cake and box on the floor, the gathered friends lost in grief. Then, she stiffened, her arm becoming taut and cold in mine. Perhaps she was going into shock. Everything I tried—counsel, prayer, listening, scripture—all was of no avail.

Then, from her other side, Dean Elmore simply surrounded and enfolded her. He put all of his body and arms around her as she wailed and stiffened. He held her. He rocked her. He embraced her. And little by little, sob by sob, she began to relax. And little by little, breath by breath, she began to loosen up. And little by little, held tight, she came through it. Her lament lessened, her limbs loosened. Out up from the tomb she came. A physical, unspoken compassion brought her through, from death to life. It was a resurrection love, compassion, embrace, grace, freedom, care, acceptance, mercy, pardon, peace, inclusion. It was a resurrection love. And it is perhaps the most powerful, public, pastoral ministry I have witnessed.

Unamuno: warmth, warmth, warmth; we are dying of cold not of darkness; it is not the night that kills, it is the frost.14

Six years ago, at the time of our dad’s death, Elie Wiesel sent a note. It was love physical, compassionate, and personal, and, as with all resurrection love, it made a difference. It concluded: we have a saying in our tradition, “may you be spared another further hardship.”

Love gives us life.

Memory. Prayer. Love.

The marks of the new age are present hidden in the old age. At the juncture of the ages, the marks of the resurrection are hidden and revealed in the cross of the disciple’s daily death, and only there . . . this is what the turn of the ages means, that life is manifested in death.15

Hear the Gospel: memory, prayer, love, creation, redemption, sanctification, Father, Son, Spirit, and life in death. Life in death holds out a promise of something grander still, life after death.

Closing: Apostles Creed

8. Martyn, “Epistemology,” 273.

9. Gilmour, Gospel According to St. Luke, 416.

10. Santayana, “Life of Reason,” 629.

11. Wikipedia, “Requiem for a Nun.”

12. Proust, Remembrance of Things Past, 2:992–96.

13. Schulweis, “Two Prophets, One Soul.”

14. See Unamuno, “Tragic Sense of Life,” 631.

15. Martyn, “Epistemology,” 273.