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The next two weeks passed relatively peacefully, if you glossed over Bobbi’s meltdowns and overlooked her unpredictable assaults. There were no further confrontations with Archie and, though he seemed even quieter than usual, he was mostly back to his polite, contained self.

The suspicion of the children’s former foster carer Joan that Bobbi might be an ADHD sufferer gained some ground when I took the children for their LAC medical – the statutory check-up with a paediatrician that all looked-after children are obliged to have when they come into care. Having spoken to Bobbi’s teacher over the telephone, the paediatrician was of the opinion that traits of hyperactive disorder were present, although he told me that a diagnosis was rarely confirmed before the age of seven.

Interestingly, he also explained that many of the symptoms could be alleviated by following a sensory diet. He told me to work half an hour of intense physical exercise into Bobbi’s day, both morning and evening. He also recommended giving her deep-pressure back massages as well as heavy chores to carry out throughout the day, plus tough objects to chew and thick drinks to suck through a thin straw. At the end of the consultation he also suggested that I should buy a spinning egg chair from IKEA. ‘Works better than Ritalin,’ he told me with a wink.

Our weekly attempts at telephone contact with their mother had mostly failed, her answerphone message immediately cutting in. It seemed to me that Tanya Brady was slowly withdrawing from her children. I had little doubt that she would continue to contest their removal through the courts, however. With the availability of legal aid, most parents objected, even those who preferred life without the restrictions that children bring.

I will always remember the look of horror on one birth mother’s face when she received the news that her three young children were being returned to her care. Her jaw dropped, her eyes goggling in panic. She was so gobsmacked that she fled to the nearest pub for a bender. When she turned up to afternoon contact with the children, she could barely stand upright.

Often, the absence of contact with birth parents helps children to settle quicker. I certainly sensed a softening in Bobbi’s outbursts and she rarely asked to see her mum, even at bedtime. I suspected that she had begun grieving for her mother the day she came into the world, never having experienced what it was really like to be loved.

My new ploy of engaging her in helping us to get ready in the mornings was working a treat as well. She and Megan seemed to revel in the challenge of making it to nursery and school with time to spare and loved the new routine of half an hour’s frantic bouncing on the trampoline before washing and dressing for school. Most of the time they hurried me along with an encouraging: ‘Come on, Rosie, come on!’

By the end of their first month with us we had it down pat, arriving at Millfield Primary, on Friday 30 January, more than five minutes before the bell was due to ring. The morning was bright but very cold and I stamped my feet to try and warm them up as we stood in the playground. Bobbi copied me, her heart-shaped face crumpling into a grin when I picked up speed. She struggled to keep pace, giggling as she lost balance.

It was as I reached out to stop her from toppling over that I noticed a couple of mothers looking at us askance. I straightened, Bobbi pulling on my hand and hopping from foot to foot as she tried to get me to copy her. As soon as they caught on that I’d seen them they turned away, but as I joined in Bobbi’s game I was aware of their eyes on us again. I wasn’t sure whether it was the same mothers I had seen last week at the gates, but there was something unfriendly about the jut of their chins, something far more potent than mild curiosity.

When I returned to the school that afternoon no one seemed to pay me any interest, negative or otherwise, but there was a general frostiness amongst the group of mothers waiting outside the Early Years playground. Even an unfettered rendition of ‘Let it Go’ from Megan as she skipped at my side did little to thaw the tight smiles coming my way.

‘Where’s Bobs?’ Megan asked a few minutes later, as the last stragglers emerged from the Reception classroom.

‘I’ve no idea,’ I said, frowning. Bobbi was usually at the front of the queue at the end of the day, though I wasn’t sure whether that was through her own eagerness to leave or by Miss Granville’s design. I reached out for Megan’s hand and was about to go to the Early Years’ gate to enquire, when I heard someone calling my name. The voice was vaguely familiar and I wondered whether it might be Lisa again, eager to have another try at bagging some gossip. I turned to see Clare Barnard hurrying across the emptying playground. ‘Sorry, Rosie,’ she puffed, wrapping her cardigan tightly around herself and folding her arms against the cold. ‘Could I have a quick word?’

I glanced over at the Early Years’ gate where Bobbi’s teacher was standing. Miss Granville gave a tiny shrug and lifted empty hands in an apologetic What can you do? gesture. ‘Bobbi hasn’t come out yet,’ I said, my eyes still resting on Miss Granville.

‘No, that’s what I’ve come to talk to you about. She’s running around the PE hall at the moment with the headmistress.’

I turned sharply to look at Clare. ‘Running around the hall?’ I repeated, frowning. For a second I wondered whether they’d decided to chase her around as a way of releasing some of her pent-up emotions. ‘What, you mean, running around and having fun?’

‘We-ell,’ Clare said slowly, pushing her glasses further up her nose. I noticed a twinkle of amusement creeping into her eyes. ‘Bobbi may well be having fun, but I think it’s safe to say that Mrs Cullum-Coggan isn’t enjoying herself very much.’

I stared at Clare, still not comprehending. ‘Bobbi’s spent the majority of the day in the toilets, I’m afraid,’ she said in explanation, turning towards the school building. I fell into step beside her, Megan’s hand in mine. ‘As you know, we’re not allowed to physically manhandle her out. She emerged a few times of her own free will, but as soon as someone said something she didn’t like she scrambled back in again.’

I grimaced, waiting as Clare punched a code into the keypad beside the door to the main reception. She pulled the door open and gestured me in, but I hesitated. ‘What about Archie?’

‘We’ve sent him to Chess Club. He was happy to go and we thought we could use all hands on deck for now.’

I gave her a grim smile and walked past her into reception. The plump, round-faced receptionist stood up from behind her glass partition as soon as she saw us. ‘Would your daughter like to play with me for a few minutes?’ she asked, smiling at Megan warmly.

I leaned down to speak to Megan, who was already vigorously shaking her head. ‘Do you want to play here for a minute, Meggie?’

She leaned closer to me, regarding the woman shyly. ‘No, thank you,’ she said, with polite firmness. She clutched my hand tight and looked up at me, her bright hazel eyes clouded with concern. ‘I want to stay with you.’

‘Oh, that’s a shame. I have an iPad here,’ the woman said, lifting a thin screen enticingly into sight. ‘I thought you might be able to help Mamma Panda find her babies on Panda Pop.’

Megan bit her lip and looked at me uncertainly. ‘I won’t be long, Meggie,’ I said brightly. ‘I’ll get Bobbi and then come straight back for you, I promise.’ She nodded, unable to resist a request for help and the lure of technology.

The tiny glance she threw over her shoulder as she walked away made my heart constrict. I gave her a reassuring wave through the glass and she smiled and waved back, allowing herself to be lifted onto the swivel chair that the receptionist had just vacated. Clare opened an adjacent door and I followed her into a long corridor, the walls decorated with brightly coloured paintings and Star of the Week charts, photos of smiling children beaming as they held the coveted Champion’s Cup.