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Modern Art

Julia knew of one thing that could make a woman forget about marriage and love and all its associated problems.

Well, two things.

She left the house, walking briskly to Brideswell’s garage. She had money thanks to Zoe. And a list of women whose lives she was about to change.

That was the first thing that was more important than suitors and marriage.

The second?

Her beloved automobile—a brand-new roadster from America with glossy paint and shiny chrome, leather seats, leather-wrapped steering wheel and an engine that roared with power.

She was driving past the house, toward the front gate, when a young footman ran out and stopped her.

Over the rumble of the idling engine, he shouted, “Lady Diana at Worthington Park asked if you might drive over there right away. She says they are in the midst of a disaster and only you can help, milady.”

Julia’s heart plunged. The new Earl of Worthington—Cal—must have told them his plans. “Thank you, George.” She put her motor into gear and pressed on the accelerator. Trixie, her motorcar, roared down the gravel drive and through the open main gates.

When Julia arrived, Diana met her on the drive. “Goodness, you look pale,” Julia gasped. “Are you ill? Is this about Cal’s—?”

“Not here.” Diana dragged her to the music room. Sunlight flooded in on the grand piano, the harp, the cluster of gilt-and-silk chairs. A maid came in with a tray of coffee and before Julia could ask her question, the countess burst in. Her plucked brows flew up in surprise. “Why are you here, Julia—?”

“To see me, Mother,” Diana said. “I asked her to come, since you are so upset. Julia will know what to do.”

“Yes, I suppose Julia will.” Lady Worthington sank into a chair. “Mrs. Feathers has quit! That man went down to the kitchens and questioned everything she did. Even suggested the servants should eat better and there should be less waste in the dining room. Apparently he cast some aspersion on her character—she believed he accused her of theft. She is packing her bags as we speak. He has done this deliberately to spite us, for where can one find a cook at short notice? He fired his valet, a hall boy and a footman this morning and he has driven away our cook.”

Julia stared, dumbfounded. Heavens, Cal had already begun.

“This is wretched,” she said. “How can he fire the staff when work is so hard to find?”

“Servants are hard to find,” Lady Worthington said, holding out her hand gracefully for coffee.

Julia poured and gave the countess a cup, then handed one to Diana, who looked everywhere but at her mother and tapped her foot anxiously.

“The earl declared they should find real work and ‘do better,’” the countess cried. “Do better than work at Worthington Park? Preposterous!”

Cal simply didn’t understand. Many of the servants didn’t want to “do better,” which often meant long hours in gruesome conditions in factories and offices. They took pride in their work running a great house.

The countess tried to set down her cup, but her hand shook so badly the cup overturned, spilling coffee. “Blast!” the countess gasped. Then she began to sob, burying her face in her hands. Diana stared helplessly, in shock.

Julia quickly put her arm across the countess’s shoulders. “I will see about this, I promise. I will stop him.”

“Stop him?” The countess lifted her head from her hands. She had turned a terrible shade of light gray and looked deathly ill. “What do you mean?”

Julia swallowed hard. “Did Cal tell you he intended to do this? Did he speak of any plans he has, now that he is the earl?”

“I do not care what he wants—” Lady Worthington broke off, putting her hands to her mouth. Through them, she cried, “I wish we could be rid of him! But we can’t.” She turned to Diana. “The only way I can see that we might have some protection is to have influence over him. As his wife, you would exert some control. Go and find him.”

“Go and find him and do what with him?” Diana protested.

Lady Worthington had been on the verge of collapse. Now she became commanding and strong once more. “We are desperate, Diana. Go at once and make him fall in love with you. It is the only hope we have.”

“Mummy, one doesn’t just go up to a man, especially a horrible, obstinate, hate-filled man like that, snap her fingers and make him fall in love.”

“You’ve always been a determined flirt, Diana. For heaven’s sake, put it to good use for once!”

Diana burst into tears, turned and ran from the room.

“The girl is being an utter fool! Does she not see what will happen to us if she does not do this? She must marry the new earl.”

Cal’s arrival—and the fear of what he would do—had changed Lady Worthington completely. Julia had never seen her behave cruelly with her daughters. “Diana is just as afraid as you are,” Julia said softly. Probably more, she thought. “Please don’t be harsh with her.”

“I must be harsh, or we’re ruined. I suppose she is balking at her duty. She is behaving like a foolish modern girl who wants to marry for love. I suppose she has fallen in love with someone unsuitable, just to spite me.”

“How—?”

“Aha! I thought as much.” The countess fixed Julia with a penetrating gaze. Julia was astounded at the rapid change in the woman—she had been on the verge of collapse, now she was sharp and angry. This must be what sheer fear did to a person. And it appeared Cal hadn’t told her of his plan. Lady Worthington did not know the worst of what Cal wanted to do.

“Who is she in love with?” the countess demanded.

Julia swallowed hard. She believed in honesty but she had to lie for Diana. “You are wrong. She is willing to marry him. For all your sakes.”

“Do not sound so disapproving with me, Lady Julia Hazelton. I will protect my family at any cost. Remember that.”

“But Cal is in pain, as well,” Julia said. “I do not approve of what he is doing, but it comes from a place of great hurt. Was there a horrible thing that was done to him? If I knew what it was, I could—”

“It is none of your business!” The countess’s voice crackled like ice. “Now go. Please.”

“I will. I will go to see Cal and try to put a stop to this.”

She must do so—just as she had promised Anthony she would look after his family. He couldn’t have known such a disaster would strike, and it now seemed so sad and eerie that he had begged her so passionately to take care of them all.

She marched out of the room, but as she reached the hallway, she heard the countess erupt into violent sobs. Julia hesitated. Did the countess need her?

She paused just outside the door, her hand on the door frame.

“I will lose everything,” the countess gasped, through choking sobs. “John, you wretched fool. I would have protected you. You didn’t have to take your own life.”

Julia was stunned. Lady Worthington had lost her eldest son, Anthony, at the Somme. And her youngest son, John, in a motorcar accident. But surely, John’s accident had not been deliberate? It had been a foggy night. It was assumed John had taken a wrong turn—the gate to the lane leading to the quarry had been left open. In the poor light, he must have mistakenly gone that way, expecting the gate to be closed, as it usually was. He had gone over the edge—

Julia knew she should not go in now. The countess would be appalled to think her words had been overheard. But if she had kept such a painful secret for years—one Julia wasn’t sure how the countess could know—she had suffered greatly in silence. Julia wished to help.

She paused a moment, hoping to cover her eavesdropping, and knocked lightly on the door. Stepping back into the room, she saw Lady Worthington set down her cup. With a frightening calm, the countess said, “The curse is true. There is nothing left for me but tragedy.”

“Lady Worthington, please don’t say such a thing,” Julia began.

“Why should you care about us? You could marry the new earl and become mistress of Worthington after all.”

The woman spoke with such bitterness, Julia recoiled. “No. I don’t want that at all. I want only the happiness that comes from love—”

“Happiness? What utter madness! Who would aspire to happiness? Who would chase such a fleeting and horrible thing? No one is happy, Julia. Life is about perseverance. I have to protect my girls. That is what is left for me. Protecting them. Settling them. Then nothing can touch them. Nothing.”

“Let them find happiness. Please.”

But the countess’s eyes blazed. “I know what is best for them. Now please go. I wish to be alone.”

Julia left, drawing the door closed firmly this time. She was going to leave, but not without confronting Cal over what he was doing.

She knew the countess had spoken the truth in those unhappy moments. The countess believed the crash had been deliberate, not an accident.

But what had driven John to do it?

* * *

“Yes, milady,” the Worthington maid replied, in answer to Julia’s question. “His lordship has gone upstairs, to the attics.”

“The attics? Are you sure?”

“Yes, milady.” The girl tried to maintain a dutiful expression but then it failed, and her eyes were wide with excitement. “We’ve all been talking about it downstairs. Lord Worthington went belowstairs to speak with Mrs. Feathers. Then he wanted to know how to go up to the attics.”

“Is it true he has let go his valet, a footman and a hall boy?” Julia asked.

The girl nodded. “It is true, milady. He said they are to find better employment. He told the valet that having a man button his shirt was demeaning to both of them. Mr. Wiggins was right shocked—oh, I didn’t mean to be speaking out of turn, milady.”

“I will not say a word to the housekeeper, I promise,” Julia said.

As soon as she turned away from the maid, her patient smile died. She’d already heard Mrs. Feathers’s account of events. To ensure the cook stayed, she needed Cal.

Who was in the attic. For what purpose, she couldn’t imagine.

Julia hurried to the stairs that led to the upper story of the house—here were the servants’ rooms and the nurseries. Sunlight spilled out into the hallway floor from a room at the end of the corridor and she smelled a strong odor, like potent alcohol.

Was Cal up here drinking?

Julia reached the doorway of the unused nursery—

And stopped in her tracks. A wooden easel stood in the middle of the room, a table set up beside it. A painting stood on the easel, but all Julia could see was Cal’s back. He wore a white shirt with sleeves rolled up to bare his forearms. She’d never seen arms tanned to a dark copper on any man but a laborer or farmer. Wide shoulders filled out the linen shirt, and the tails hung out of his trousers. His feet were bare.

He balanced a flat board covered in blobs of oil paint and mixed it with a long, black-handled brush.

The muscles of his broad back moved under his shirt.

She was rooted to the spot—warm, breathless and feeling as if everything had fallen away.

Then Cal moved and she saw the picture.

“But that’s me,” she gasped.

It was a painting of the terrace where she had stood last night. The picture was only partly finished. It was sketched with lead pencil and her face was filled in, as was some of the background of the night sky.

It was a wild, modernist painting—the sky was rendered in vivid slashes of black and indigo and violet, with gray layered upon it to show moonlit clouds. The sky truly looked as if the clouds were hurtling past the moon. And against all that darkness, she seemed to glow like a candle’s flame.

Cal turned. “I don’t let anyone look at my unfinished work.”

“The door was open,” she pointed out.

“I was told nobody comes up here in the daytime.”

She looked past him at the intense, vibrant portrait. The woman’s face was definitely hers, but more perfect. Her lips even looked as if moisture glistened on them. The blue eyes seemed to burn with inner fire.

“What do you think of it?” he asked.

“You’ve made me much more vivacious and interesting than I really am.”

“I paint what I see, angel—but tempered with my feelings and my soul. I want to put raw emotion on my canvas. And that’s what I see in you. Raw emotion. Fire and passion.”

No one thought she was fiery or passionate. Everyone thought her cool and controlled. She felt passion, but she almost never showed it. How had he seen that inside her?

“You see something quite different to the person I am, Worthington.”

“I don’t think so.” He mixed colors on his palette, looking at her from under his mussed blond hair. “I think I see the real Lady Julia behind the restrained exterior.”

His gaze moved over her in the most shocking way. She should be outraged. Yet it wasn’t a bold look. It was a raw, appreciative look, given to her by a stunningly handsome man—

She had better put a stop to it at once.

“I am a lady through and through, Worthington. You won’t see anything beyond that.”

He grinned. “It’s too late, doll. I already do. And it’s Cal, remember?”

His soft, deep voice sent a shiver through her. Then she thought of the countess sobbing with shock and terror. Julia crossed her arms over her chest. “Was losing the cook part of your plan to tear Worthington Park to pieces? As well as firing servants who are now out of work, with no place to stay?”

To her shock, he did not respond. He went back to his painting.

“It’s rude to not answer,” she said.

As he worked he said, “It’s true that I would have waited to get rid of the cook. I like to eat. But it made me mad to see so much food thrown away. I know what it’s like to be hungry. Have you ever lived a day on some broth and one piece of bread?”

That startled her. “Was that all you had?”

He slashed paint on the canvas and a stone balustrade began to appear. It looked real, as if she could feel the roughness of stone.

“No, I went without food by choice, Lady Julia, what do you think? My mother would feed my brother and me first and if there was nothing left, she didn’t eat at all.”

“I’m sorry.” Of course, she didn’t know what it was to be truly starving. Even when they had been in financial dire straits at Brideswell, there was always food. Instead, she had been trained to not eat, to do little more than nibble at all the dinner courses to keep her figure. “But I am familiar with hardship. There are many people in the village who are suffering after the War. And surely the food that is not eaten at meals is used.”

“Not much of it.” His voice was a low growl. “Why shouldn’t it go to people who are needy? The dogs get more of the leftover food than people do. The cook didn’t see anything wrong with that so I fired her.”

For all he growled like a tiger, Julia felt hope. He cared about people who did not have enough. Once he understood the importance of Worthington Park to the tenants, he would never tear it apart.

Surely.

“Well, I have soothed Mrs. Feathers’s wounded feelings,” she said. “Cooks are accustomed to being the lords of their kitchens. She could be convinced to stay—if you apologize and tell her she may run her kitchen as she has always done—”

“Apologize? Isn’t the idea of being the earl that I get to make the rules?”

“Large houses don’t run quite that way,” she explained patiently. “Servants work for a house for years—often decades. They outlast the peers. The houses run smoothly because servants know their duties and they take charge of them. Zoe—my sister-in-law—says they run like large American offices.”

“I could hire another cook.”

“A good cook can be difficult to find. All you have to do is tell Mrs. Feathers she can carry on as usual. Charm her. Then a plan must be made to change her to your way of thinking, but cleverly.”

“Uh-huh,” he said. He crossed his arms over his chest. “Have you ever cooked anything, Lady Julia?”

She felt a blush touch her cheeks. “My presence would not have been appreciated in Brideswell’s kitchens. Our cook and kitchen maids would have been thoroughly shocked.”

“So shock them,” he said. “Or would you just starve to death if you were on your own?”

She would not give him the satisfaction of admitting she would be without a clue if she had to make her own meal. “I am sure I would survive. Can you cook?”

“I can. When my mother was sick, I cooked for all of us. When I paint landscapes, I travel out into the wilderness in a canoe. I camp and paint and cook over a campfire.”

“You do?” That sounded so primitive.

He walked over to her. He held out the brush. “Would you like to try your hand at painting?”

“I have painted before in watercolors. And we really should speak to Mrs. Feathers.”

“What if I’m not willing to grovel? After all, with all the food in the larders here, I’m capable of feeding myself.”

He watched her as he spoke. Obviously, he was looking to get a rise out of her. “The servants must eat, as well as the family.”

“I’d be willing to let them look after themselves. Or are you trying to tell me that the countess and her daughters would starve out of pride before they’d condescend to make their own meals?”

“I don’t know about them but the servants would.”

“The servants would what?”

“Starve before they would cook for themselves.”

His brows lifted. “The servants think they’re too good to make their own meals?”

“Exactly.”

He laughed. “Is snobbery bred into all of you?”

“Everyone is aware of their own position. It’s the way we are.”

“So I’d have a mutiny on my hands if the cook leaves and I don’t replace her.” His lazy, sensual grin unfurled. “That could be fun. But I have a better idea. I’ll go and make nice with the cook, if you come here and paint.”

“What about the footman and the boot boy? And your valet?”

“I’ll help the young men find better work. And the valet was glad to leave. He said it was like dressing a performing bear. I told him a bear would be less dangerous, then he ran.” Cal crooked his finger at her. “Come and paint with me, Julia. You’ll like working with oil paint more than watercolors. It’s more sensual.”

That word made another shiver rush down her back.

“It’s thick and tactile and you can build with it, play with it. I bet you were taught to paint timid little pictures. See what you can do with this.” With a palette knife instead of a brush, he scooped up indigo and yellow and layered it thickly on the canvas as if to show her how very much unlike watercolors it was.

“I’m not dressed for painting and you do not have a smock or a coat,” she said.

With infinite slowness, his smile lifted the right side of his mouth. That lopsided smile made her tingle deep inside.

He set down his palette, the knife, the brush. He undid the buttons of his shirt and shrugged it off.

Leaving his chest, his torso, completely bare.

Her jaw dropped.

He came toward her and she simply couldn’t move. A lady shouldn’t look, but she couldn’t tear her gaze away from his beautiful, well-muscled form.

“Slide this on.”

“Your shirt? I can’t possibly.”

He draped it around her. Staring at the shirt, she realized it was finely made. An expensive shirt. But he was supposed to be a poor, bohemian artist. It was like the beautiful dinner clothes he wore last night. Where had they come from?

She breathed in the scent of him on his warm, luxurious shirt. Heat uncoiled in her, like smoke spiraling from a burning candlewick.

He pressed the paintbrush against her hand and she clasped it. Then her good sense came back. “Cal, I can’t wear your shirt. I cannot be in here with you in a state of undress.”

“You’re a grown woman, Julia.” He put his hands on her shoulders, firm and strong. He turned her away from him and toward the canvas. “I’ve painted women in the nude.”

“You were naked? Good heavens.”

He laughed. “They were, not me. And I didn’t sleep with...all of them.”

She knew he was trying to shock her and she calmly said, “That is hardly reassuring.”

“I suspect my honor is safe with you, Julia,” he teased. He lifted her hand so the brush almost touched the canvas.

“What if I ruin it?”

“You won’t. We can paint over anything you don’t like.”

“You can take your hands off my shoulders.” She felt the warmth of his palms through his shirt and her frock.

“Not until you make your mark on your portrait, Julia.” He picked up the palette.

“You are infuriating.” She dipped the paintbrush into a mound of red paint. Then she made a small dab in the corner of the canvas. “There.”

“You’re not afraid to paint a canvas, are you? I thought you were going to be a tough adversary.”

“Fine.” She half turned and took the palette out of his hand. Using the kind of style he’d done—modernist dabs and slashes of paint—she tried to do the skirt of her dress. Tried to mimic the way it shimmered in the light. She all but threw paint at the picture. Then she stopped, her chest heaving. It was rather exciting—

She saw what she’d created. “It’s awful. It isn’t anything like what I wanted to do.”

“But I got to prove I’m right and you’re wrong.” He leaned forward. The warmth of his breath caressed her ear. “You are passionate.”

He moved, so his lips touched her cheek.

The whoosh came again, so startling and swift it almost knocked her back into the picture.

“You want to kiss me,” he said huskily.

“I do not.” But her heartbeat rushed up and down as if it was playing a piano scale.

She thought of Anthony, who she had loved with all her heart. And Dougal, who was so noble and admirable. She had loved those men. She didn’t love this man. She barely knew him. And so far she’d learned he was brash and bold and infuriating.

But the temptation to kiss him was so strong she almost wanted him to just kiss her and take all the responsibility for it away.

No, she was modern. Modern women didn’t act like weak waifs.

She turned, and smacked the paintbrush against his lips. “I do not want to kiss you.” She looked straight into his blue eyes. “Now, if you intend to eat anything today, we had better speak to Mrs. Feathers.”

She pulled away from him, and grabbed a rag from a small wooden table near the portrait. She tossed it to him so he could wipe the blue paint from his mouth. Then she held out his shirt.

* * *

Cal rubbed the rag over his lips, taking off the paint in one swipe. Grinning as he did.

If Julia were one of his models, he would put his now-clean mouth to her neck and kiss her until she melted. Until they ended up hot and sweaty in his bed, making love.

After the War, sex had become a hell of a lot more available. Now women weren’t willing to deny themselves pleasure until they got married. Everyone had seen that life could be a fleeting thing. One moment you were laughing, deep in love with someone, thinking of the future. The next you were in bits and pieces, strewn across some European field.

Could he coax Julia into his bed?

He threw down the rag, took his shirt from her hands and shrugged it on. After he buttoned it, tucked it into his trousers, he said, “Let’s go and see the cook.”

“All right.” Julia walked ahead of him, her trim-fitting skirt swishing efficiently around her hips. It was a modest length, reaching her midcalves. But he liked the way it clung to the curves of her hips and hinted at the sweet voluptuousness of her backside.

He wanted Lady Julia Hazelton. He wanted to break through her ladylike reserve and release her passion.

Before he left Worthington for good, he was going to do it.