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CHAPTER ONE

HE WAS standing at the kerbside waiting to cross the road. It was him! Taylor thought chaotically, battling through the gathering dusk and the sheer volume of rush-hour traffic to catch another glimpse of that proud, dark head, of the striking height and self-assured stance that were unmistakably his.

She heard the rear door of the taxi slam behind her, heard Craig issuing instructions through the driver’s window. But her mind and body were in turmoil, and as the taxi shot forward she swivelled round on her seat, scanning with blood-pumping anticipation, the busy street through the rear window.

The man was nowhere to be seen.

So she had just imagined him there, or been totally mistaken, she realised. As always.

Nervous tension dissipated beneath the familiar disappointment, the desolation that spread through her veins, as chilling as the late-winter afternoon. Beneath the thick grey overcoat she shivered, and was only warmed by the murmur of the infant waking in his car seat beside her, as the little starfish hand curled tightly around the finger that she readily proffered.

‘You’re a scamp,’ she cooed at the appealingly chubby face beaming up at her from its knitted blue bonnet, but her finely drawn features, framed by a bob of gleaming brown, were etched with obvious tension.

She had been so sure it was him. She had even neglected to wave to Craig, she berated herself, still trying to shrug off the unsettling aftermath of mixed emotions fifteen minutes later when the taxi dropped her in the lamp-lit suburbs.

Still clutching her purse, with the baby seat suspended from her other hand, she started walking towards one of the high, Victorian villas.

A shadow fell across her path, large and ominous, and she gasped, dropping her purse, fear for the child she carried tightening her fingers around the handle of the little chair as the tall dark figure loomed from out of the shadows.

‘Jared!’

‘Hello, Taylor.’ With one fluid movement, he stooped to pick up her purse, the long, dark overcoat he hadn’t bothered to fasten spreading to remind her of a raven swooping to its prey, the hair that waved over his collar gleaming ebony beneath the streetlamp.

‘So it was you.’ Jared Steele. A leader in enterprises covering everything from finance to the highest technology. Thirty-eight years old, now, she calculated—twelve years older than she was. Rich, powerful and, as she had found out to her cost, unscrupulous.

Too stunned to thank him, her fingers closed around the rectangle of black leather he had retrieved for her. Her hands were shaking and she had to swallow to try and moisten her uncomfortably dry throat. ‘Outside the studios. Crossing the road…’ But he hadn’t used the crossing. He must have flagged down a taxi… ‘You followed me!’ she breathed, annoyance surfacing with the over-riding excitement that made her pulses race, her legs go weak, which owed more to coming face to face with him like this than her first, initial dread of being mugged.

‘I wanted to see you.’

‘Why?’

He didn’t answer and following his gaze to the little baby seat, she realised suddenly what was going through his mind.

‘You’ve been busy since I saw you last.’

Of course. What other conclusion could he have drawn?

‘When was that?’ she enquired pointedly, ignoring his hard unspoken question. In the eighteen months since that last bitter row he had never come looking for her. She wondered why he had decided to now.

He shrugged and, ignoring her in turn, said, ‘I must confess this was the last thing I expected.’ His mouth appeared chiselled out of granite as he dropped another glance to the sleeping infant. Those deep-set eyes were shielded by his dark and enviably long lashes, eyes that could reduce one to pulp with just one withering look, Taylor remembered, or evoke the most thrilling and dangerous thoughts in any woman under eighty. ‘After all your protestations about having babies. What was it? An accident?’ His voice, which had always had the power to arouse her with its smoky sexuality held a derisive edge and his breath rose in a warm cloud on the frosty air. ‘We both know maternity wasn’t on your agenda. Or perhaps it was just me you weren’t partial to, not having children. That’s one conclusion my ego’s going to have to deal with, isn’t it, Taylor?’

‘Why?’ His comments stabbed at her, opening old and painful wounds. ‘Because I was so obviously instrumental in losing yours!’

His head seemed to jerk back as though she had laid a whip across his face. But if he was recoiling from such frank and blatant words, she thought, pushing angrily past him, perhaps he would know what it was like—how it had felt—when he had used them—and so mercilessly—on her.

‘I must congratulate you. You’ve done well for yourself. Make-up artist—and with a top production company.’ His voice lacked praise, his remarks only serving to let her know that it was no accident—this meeting; that he had actually been checking up on her. ‘But then you always were ambitious, weren’t you?’ he said.

A little shiver ran through her from his chilling tone because, of course, they had argued about that too.

‘And lover boy outside the studios.’ He was right behind her, his deep voice insistent, taunting. ‘Might I hazard a guess that he’d be the child’s father?’

So he had seen her with Craig; noticed that affectionate kiss the man had given her as he had handed her into the taxi. Some deep emotional pain stopped her from immediately putting him straight.

‘How terribly astute of you,’ she breathed, hurting from the memory of the scarring rows that her miscarriage, if not wholly initiating, had only succeeded in exacerbating.

‘Is he living here with you?’ A toss of his chin indicated the three-storey house as he drew level with her along the short driveway.

‘If you mean are we sleeping under the same roof…’ Taylor forced herself to stay calm, keep her clear, mellow voice low as she reached the front door, put her key in the lock ‘… the answer’s “yes.”’

She didn’t get to turn the key, her small gasp of shock the only emotion she allowed herself to show, as hard fingers on her wrist pulled her to face him. Under the stern glare of the security light his angular features looked grim and bloodless.

‘Didn’t it seem to matter to you that you’re still married?’ Eyes, as dark as night, seemed to pierce the depths of hers, boring into her from a mask of anger and disbelief. ‘Didn’t it ever occur to you to ask me for a divorce?’

Almost as tall as he was in her high-heeled boots, she could feel the warmth of his breath on her forehead, feel his anger beating against her like ravaging fire. But his nearness alone seemed to be stripping her of her self-possession, without the heat of his accusations that had she been in his shoes, she had to agree, she would have richly deserved. His accusations, however, only fuelled her own anger. Besides, Josh was growing fretful, sensing the insecurity of the situation, and forcibly she pulled herself free, saying, ‘Why? I seem to remember you had no qualms about having a mistress and a wife!’ She opened the front door now, flicked on a switch just inside.

Light spilled out, illuminating the wide Victorian hallway. It was cluttered with toys, boxes and coats and a baby buggy.

‘Are you going to ask me in?’

For an answer she simply left the door open behind her, her shoulders stiffening beneath the stylish coat when she heard him close it, muting the growl of a car in the suburban road.

Without glancing back, she took the post she had picked up into the long, narrow kitchen, doing her best not to trip over the two yowling Siamese cats that had suddenly besieged her, vying for her attention, brown tails lightly flaying her calves.

Carefully, she set Josh down on the small sofa at one end of the narrow room, tossing aside a cushion, a shopping bag, a pile of folded garments, in need of ironing.

‘Very domesticated.’

The deep drawl from behind her had her turning sharply.

Jared was standing in the doorway, looking, as his name suggested, like a man of steel. But with his hands rammed deep into his pockets, long legs planted firmly apart, he was too fine a male specimen for Taylor’s eyes not to be drawn to the impeccable cut of the dark suit he wore under the long coat. With unsparing cruelty her gaze was dragged over the wide shoulders and the hard lean lines of his waist and hips and, as he stood there surveying the chaos of the cluttered kitchen with marked disdain curling his mouth, all she could think of was how it had felt to sink her nails into that broad, bare back while she had sobbed out his name…

The memory rocked her, threatening her equilibrium and, moving across to the fridge, in a less than steady voice she asked, ‘Why did you want to see me?’

He came in then, every footstep measured, slow, precise.

‘I don’t think that takes too much working out.’

Wary green eyes clashed with darkest brown, her perfectly straight nose and softly tapered chin lifting as she opened the fridge, took out a tin of cat food. What was she supposed to deduce from that? Had the mysterious Alicia decided she had had enough of playing nursemaid to a husband she didn’t love? Was she finally giving him up to be with Jared?

Pain cut deep, but she gritted her teeth.

The cats were going mad, particularly Thai, the male Siamese who was making his demands known now by clawing at her coat and yowling vociferously. On top of that, Josh had started to make his presence felt with small whimpers from the sofa, depriving her of the luxury of any self-pity.

Dumping the opened can of food down on the worktop, Taylor slid off her coat. Then wished she hadn’t when she noticed the way Jared’s gaze skimmed over her, taking in the willowy lines of her body beneath her cream polo-necked sweater and the full, bottle-green skirt that fell in soft folds over the spiked-heeled black boots.

‘You’ve got thinner,’ he observed, making no attempt to hide his blatant appraisal of her figure.

An insidious tension crept through her as she tossed her coat down on one of the high stools near the breakfast bar that Craig had made during one of his more adventurous DIY moments. Opening a drawer, she rummaged for a spoon, reached for the partially used can of cat food.

‘I hardly think my weight’s an issue here.’ She stooped to scoop the contents into the two bowls on the floor beside the breakfast bar. Two ravenous heads dived into them before she had even finished.

‘I think it’s very much an issue.’ Those dark eyes were still assessing her, raking over her flushed features and the chic hair, now unintentionally tousled, as she straightened from her task. ‘But then you were never much more than a reed at the best of times, were you?’ he said, with an almost bored glance towards the cats who were putting on a show of not having eaten in weeks.

‘If you say so.’

Josh’s demands had replaced the cats’ with his sudden persistent crying, and Taylor swung away to free him from the confines of his seat. His little face was red and crumpled. ‘He needs feeding—and changing,’ she noted as she lifted him up, her tone suddenly weary, the shock of this unexpected meeting with the man she had longed, yet half dreaded, to see again, taking its toll on her nerves.

‘And you look as though you could do with some help.’

He was there beside her, too big, too awesome and far, far too close.

‘I’m perfectly capable,’ she returned with her voice cracking, and moved quickly away from him, wondering what he was thinking as he watched her carrying Josh across the kitchen. That the baby’s hair, so close to hers, was almost the same rich brown? That Josh’s wispy curls must have been inherited from his father since hers was so thick and sleek?

‘As capable of wringing a man’s heart?’

Taking the baby bottle out of the fridge, she met those dark eyes with a guarded question in her own. ‘What?’

‘How long was it, Taylor?’

‘How long was what?’ She slammed the fridge closed. Outside, in the hallway, she caught the sudden, unexpected sound of the front door being opened.

‘How long before you jumped into another man’s bed after leaving mine?’

Something flared in her eyes, locking her jaw tight. ‘How dare you even ask that when—’

She bit back her words, her body stiffening from the footsteps moving along the hall, tension warring with anger inside of her. He had come here assuming the worst about her, and through a crazy desire to lash out at him she hadn’t put him straight. Now she was torn between wishing she had and relishing his being taken down a peg when he realised that he had made a total fool of himself.

‘Hello, Tay…’ The young woman who had just come in stopped dead, her greeting curtailed by the sight of the tall man standing there in the kitchen.

‘Jared! Jared Steele!’ A year or two older than Taylor, Charity Lucas had a sparkling smile that seemed as wide now as her mane of short shaggy auburn hair. ‘What on earth are you doing here?’

‘Charity?’ Jared’s greeting was cordial, yet laced with puzzlement.

Though she was inches shorter than Taylor and totally dwarfed by Jared, Charity’s ebullient personality seemed nonetheless to instantly fill the room. ‘Do you two know each other?’ Her words were strung with surprise as she looked from one to the other.

‘You could say that.’ Jared’s tone was dry. ‘And I could be forgiven for asking you the same thing?’

Charity laughed. ‘Taylor rents from us. Upstairs. I’m her landlady.’ She held out her arms to the baby who, ever since she had come in, had been making little noises of recognition and was now straining towards her. ‘How’s he been?’

‘Fine.’ Handing Josh over to the other woman, Taylor couldn’t look at Jared, but she could sense clarity dawning on that sharp brain. ‘Craig told me to tell you he’d be late tonight.’

She was too aware of Jared listening to every word, as conscious, no doubt, of her tense discomfort as he was of the other woman hugging and kissing the happy, gurgling Josh.

‘I can do that now.’ Taylor was disappointed when Charity readily took the baby bottle from her. She would have preferred to deal with the feed herself, desperate, at that moment, for something to do. ‘You didn’t tell me you knew Jared.’

Not sure what to do with her hands, now that she had nothing to hold, Taylor uttered an awkward little laugh, reaching for her coat. ‘No.’ She wondered how Charity knew him, but was too disconcerted to ask.

‘Hardly a reflection on you, Charity.’ Moving towards them with that lithe grace of his, on the surface Jared oozed irresistible charm. ‘It seems she decided to keep us both in the dark,’ he breathed with the flash of a smile. His eyes, though, pierced like rods of steel. There was a flush lying along his cheekbones that hinted at some fervent emotion, but one that vied with something like satisfaction that said he had the upper hand and was enjoying every minute of it.

‘In what capacity do you two know each other?’ Charity asked, balancing Josh on a curvy hip while she started to warm his bottle, adding laughingly, ‘Or is that rather an indelicate question?’

Dark head tilted, Jared’s eyes met Taylor’s in penetrating enquiry. It was strange, she thought swallowing, how he had made all the wrong assumptions, and she was the one left feeling like a fool.

Her small breasts lifted as she caught her breath, wondering what to say. She hadn’t told Charity she was married and she didn’t want to spring the truth on her friend like this. And whether Jared was surprisingly sensitive to that fact, she wasn’t sure, but swiftly he was answering, ‘Let’s just say we go back quite a way.’

‘Really?’ Bustling around the worktop, Charity sent an enquiring glance at each of them over her shoulder, bouncing Josh on her arm as he suddenly started crying again. But then obviously sensing that she was treading on uneven ground, quickly she went on, ‘Jared’s a friend and business associate of Dad’s. I met him first when I came home one hols from university and he was staying with them, and in those days I must admit to having had a glorious crush on him.’ The contentment and security in her marriage gave Charity the freedom to declare it so openly, Taylor realised, although the hint of colour in the woman’s cheeks assured her that where Jared Steele was concerned, even the most fulfilled of women weren’t entirely immune. ‘Will you let me make him some tea? Or are you keen to have him all to yourself? Take him upstairs?’

Exchanging glances with Jared, Taylor clung to her coat as though to a protective shield.

‘Well?’ she asked, hoping he wouldn’t accept Charity’s offer, yet wanting to delay the inevitability of being alone with him again.

‘I think,’ he said, dropping a glance at Thai who, having wolfed down his meal, suddenly shot out of the room as if he’d been startled by some unseen horror, ‘tea would be very nice—some other time. But right now Taylor and I do have things to discuss.’

Do we? she thought, watching the smaller, more subdued Asia delicately picking at her food, and feeling something like cold desolation trickling through her. Surely there could be only one thing he would want to discuss after the tumultuous peaks and troughs that had been their marriage?

‘I’ll look in before I leave,’ he promised Charity, before Taylor guided him back into the hall and up the stairs leading to the top floor.

‘So the cats aren’t yours. The baby isn’t yours. And your lover’s somebody else’s!’ he comprehended as soon as he was in her flat. There was a marked silence about the place after all the domesticity downstairs.

‘I never said anyone was my lover! Unlike you, I do have some respect for other people’s marriages!’ she flung at him, tense from the effort of trying to stay in control.

The hard masculine face was etched with some harsh emotion and anger darkened his eyes to slits of jet, but he said nothing.

‘I work with Craig,’ Taylor continued then, ‘and he took Josh to the studios today because Charity’s mother had a fall and needed her there. You saw us together and just assumed what you wanted to. Like you were so quick to assume that Josh was mine!’ she accused, tossing her coat over the back of one of a pair of matching sofas which, though in immaculate order, she had managed to pick up cheaply at a clearance auction.

‘A natural deduction, in the circumstances,’ Jared muttered, ‘as I think you’ll agree.’ He was standing in the middle of the impeccably furnished room, looking around him, and even its generous proportions couldn’t detract from his magnificence, or that air of innate authority that was as much a part of him as his shadow. ‘I should have known better, shouldn’t I? Somehow that delightfully homely scene downstairs didn’t quite gel with my memory of the girl I knew.’ His gaze was still raking over her carefully chosen belongings; over the sparse but tasteful ornaments and co-ordinating pictures, the flawless rugs and sofas and the low-level bookcases with their immaculate veneer. ‘Now this is more like it,’ he breathed heavily, making her wonder what he was thinking because, after the domestic chaos to which he had just referred below, the flat only seemed to emphasise the ordered isolation of her own existence. ‘This is much more in keeping with the Taylor Steele I knew. Or is it back to Taylor Adams now?’ He didn’t need to ask if she was using her maiden name. If she hadn’t been, then Charity might have guessed the truth. ‘Why didn’t you tell her you were married?’ he demanded with some unfathomable emotion burning like dark fire in his eyes.

She shrugged. ‘The question never came up.’

As she made to move past him, hard fingers closed around her upper arm. ‘It just did.’

He looked so angry that beneath the pale sweater, Taylor shivered. ‘I don’t know.’ Disconcerted, she pulled herself out of his grasp.

In truth, she hadn’t told her friend and landlady—or indeed anyone who didn’t need to know—that she had been married—and certainly not that her marriage had broken up. She didn’t like the sense of personal failure it implied.

She went across to the window, drew the heavy curtains before turning back to him. ‘You said we had things to discuss.’

‘We most certainly have.’

Tension coiled in her stomach. ‘Like what?’

He didn’t answer for a moment. Then in that deep authoritative way of his he advised, ‘Sit down, Taylor.’

An ache seemed to start somewhere in the middle of her chest as she did as he suggested, dropping down onto one of the sofas. It was her flat, yet even here he was the one giving the orders, the one in control, she acknowledged grudgingly, when he remained firmly on his feet.

‘I know we made a hash of our marriage. And I can see you’ve picked yourself up…’ he sent another glance around the room ‘… sorted your life out quite admirably. It almost makes a man feel… superfluous, especially when all the funds paid into your account were returned in full.’

‘What did you think I’d do, Jared? Take it all with undying gratitude? Did you think I wouldn’t be able to manage on my own?’

‘I didn’t think anything. I didn’t want you to have to— manage, as you put it—or to experience any unnecessary difficulty. Not when I could make life easier for you, even if you weren’t living under my roof any more.’

‘Well… as you can see…’ a small gesture indicated the modest comfort of the flat ‘… I’m not exactly living in squalor or abject poverty.’ Returning her gaze to his, she wished she hadn’t when the dark penetration of his eyes sent a weakening torrent of emotion through her. Quietly, through lips that seemed not to want to move, she murmured, ‘Why have you come?’

The broad, masculine chest lifted and stilled as though it were an effort for him to say what he had come to say. Behind him, the large mirror over the Victorian fireplace reflected wide shoulders that were as rigid as iron.

‘I don’t know about you but… well this state of affairs… It’s hardly very satisfactory, is it? I mean… you living here… while I…’ He glanced away from her, his teeth clenched, as though the state of affairs, as he had called it, fuelled his anger. ‘Being separated, yet not being free either. I think we should change things,’ he rasped.

The composure Taylor prided herself on had deserted her somewhere between coming up here and when he had told her to sit down, and now her words left her on a low croak. ‘Change things?’

Again there was hesitation in Jared’s usually arrogant manner. ‘We can’t go on like this,’ he stated with an air of finality. ‘I certainly don’t think it an ideal situation. And I’m sure you can’t think so. This may come as a surprise to you, but I miss the domestic scene. Call me crazy if you like but I’m keen to throw myself right back there into matrimonial bliss—have a second stab at it—but as you can appreciate, I can’t do it without your co-operation.’

What was he saying? That he wanted them to try again? Surprise, shock and an emotion to which she wanted to give no credence surged through her. Was he saying he had missed her? That he still wanted her?

Well of course he did, an inner little voice told her cruelly after the initial shock of his statement began to wear off. Hadn’t he had the best of both worlds while they had been together?

Slamming the lid on a well of anguished memories, she asked tentatively, ‘Are you implying we should get back together?’ But then the ambiguity of his statement suddenly struck her, making her tag on, ‘Or are you asking me for a divorce?’ She was relieved that no emotion crept into her voice, giving away how much he still affected her and, sparing herself the humiliation of a possible rejection, quickly she added, ‘Because if you are, I don’t intend standing in your way.’

Was it relief or surprise, she wondered, that brought him down onto the opposite sofa? That furrowed his brow and kept his voice low and husky when he spoke again? ‘I hadn’t realised you’d agree to one so readily.’

Taylor drew in a breath that was almost too painful to expel. And to think she could so easily have misunderstood!

She gave a careless movement of her shoulder. ‘Why not? We’re living separate lives. You said so yourself.’ So he wanted to get married again. Have a second stab at it, as he had so casually and unthinkingly called it. ‘Who is she?’ she asked caustically. ‘The wonderful Alicia?’

‘What?’ His eyes had narrowed into slits.

‘This woman you’re prepared to sacrifice your freedom to for a second time?’

He was still looking at her as though he were trying to fathom out why she was asking. Or, from the grimness of his mouth, perhaps he thought she had no right to question him on the subject—no right at all.

‘Or have you found someone else?’ Jumping up, bitterly she couldn’t help flinging down at him, ‘Someone else willing to give you the children I couldn’t—no, wouldn’t— agree to?’

Frighteningly swift, Jared was on his feet. ‘You haven’t a clue what you’re saying,’ he rasped in a harshly chiding tone. ‘I was hoping by now you would have grown up a little and come to your senses! You’re still governed by that jealous nature and a far too vivid imagination. As for children—that isn’t important.’

‘No?’ Her thick hair moved sleekly as she tilted her head, her green eyes dark and injured. ‘Funny! It seemed of paramount importance when you were married to me!’

She gave a small cry as he suddenly reached out, dragging her against him, the hands gripping her upper arms, hard and bruising.

‘I still am. Married to you,’ he breathed, his strong white teeth clamping together, his jaw, with that marked cleft at its centre, locked in anger and some other, more primal emotion that excited as much as it unnerved her.

His closeness could have been her undoing. The strength of those arms that held her but a few centimetres from his body, his familiar, elusive scent and the latent power of his sexuality all combined to make her head swim with the longing to throw her arms around him, tilt her lips in shameless invitation to his. But common sense prevailed and beneath the burn of his gaze she taunted in a whisper and with a control she was far from feeling, ‘Do you want both of us, Jared?’

His features were almost feral, nostrils flaring, his eyes glittering with something that for a few heady seconds had Taylor panicking, fearing that he was going to take the decision away from her and plunge them both into a moment’s savage passion of the kind that had ruled them both during the final days of their marriage. A passion that now they would only both regret.

But then suddenly, and with a heavy lifting of his chest, as if it had taken every ounce of will-power he possessed, he released her.

‘I’ll be in touch,’ he muttered breathlessly, and a few seconds later she heard his footsteps thundering down over the stairs.