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Psalm Six
Оглавление1 O God, rebuke me not in thine anger,Neither chasten me in thy hot displeasure.2 Have mercy upon me, O God; for I am withered away:O God, heal me; for my bones are troubled.3 My soul also is sore troubled:And thou, O God, how long?4 Return, O God, deliver my soul:Save me for thy loving kindness’ sake.5 For in death there is no remembrance of thee:In Sheol who shall give thee thanks?6 I am weary with my groaning;Every night make I my bed to swim;I water my couch with my tears.7 Mine eye wasteth away because of grief;It waxeth old because of all mine adversaries.8 Depart from me, all ye workers of iniquity;For God hath heard the voice of my weeping.9 God hath heard my supplication;God will receive my prayer.10 All mine enemies shall be put to shame and sore troubled:They shall turn back, they shall be put to shame suddenly.
Lord, who am I talking to?
I beg you
Do not rebuke me in your anger
I am the one rebuking me
I tell you my bones are in agony
You or someone else not you
Tells me to see the
Orthopedic surgeon
Or maybe a neurologist
Like a wife abused
Beaten, raped, reviled
I have given up waiting on your name
Knowing it’s only a matter of time
Before I too
Am delivered to the flames
My ashes scattered to the winds
Have you given birth to my soul
To let me drown in the dark of the world?
Have you encouraged multiple creeds
So believers can kill and maim
In your name
And drag me into madness
Imprinting on my newborn soul
Tribe as Higher Power?
My analyst takes notes
For the revelation
That I am acting out
With anger
And resentment
And fury
For being alive
Apparently
I no longer wait on a Messiah
Only for the Garden of Eden to return
At least in my imagination
Dancing girls
With incredible legs
And breasts that bounce
To intoxicate me
And mesmerize me
And love me
More than you
Or do I want to be worshipped too?