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When Daddy saw the angel on the grave next to ours he cried, ‘What the devil!’

Mummy just laughed.

I looked and looked until my neck ached. It hung above us, one foot forward, a hand pointing towards heaven. It was wearing a long robe with a square neck, and it had loose hair that flowed onto its wings. It was looking down towards me, but no matter how hard I stared it did not seem to see me.

Mummy and Daddy began to argue. Daddy does not like the angel. I don’t know if Mummy likes it or not – she didn’t say. I think the urn Daddy has had placed on our own grave bothers her more.

I wanted to sit down but didn’t dare. It was very cold, too cold to sit on stone, and besides, the Queen is dead, which I think means no one can sit down, or play, or do anything comfortable.

I heard the bells ringing last night when I was in bed, and when Nanny came in this morning she told me the Queen died yesterday evening. I ate my porridge very slowly, to see if it tasted different from yesterday’s, now that the Queen is gone. But it tasted just the same – too salty. Mrs Baker always makes it that way.

Everyone we saw on our way to the cemetery was dressed in black. I wore a grey wool dress and a white pinafore, which I might have worn anyway but which Nanny said was fine for a girl to wear when someone died. Girls don’t have to wear black. Nanny helped me to dress. She let me wear my black and white plaid coat and matching hat, but she wasn’t sure about my rabbit’s-fur muff, and I had to ask Mummy, who said it didn’t matter what I wore. Mummy wore a blue silk dress and wrap, which did not please Daddy.

While they were arguing about the angel I buried my face in my muff. The fur is very soft. Then I heard a noise, like stone being tapped, and when I raised my head I saw a pair of blue eyes looking at me from over the headstone next to ours. I stared at them, and then the face of a boy appeared from behind the stone. His hair was full of mud, and his cheeks were dirty with it too. He winked at me, then disappeared behind the headstone.

I looked at Mummy and Daddy, who had walked a little way up the path to view the angel from another place. They had not seen the boy. I walked backwards between the graves, my eyes on them. When I was sure they were not looking I ducked behind the stone.

The boy was leaning against it, sitting on his heels.

‘Why do you have mud in your hair?’ I asked.

‘Been down a grave,’ he said.

I looked at him closely. There was mud on him everywhere – on his jacket, on his knees, on his shoes. There were even bits of it in his eyelashes.

‘Can I touch the fur?’ he asked.

‘It’s a muff,’ I said. ‘My muff.’

‘Can I touch it?’

‘No.’ Then I felt bad saying that, so I held out the muff.

The boy spat on his fingers and wiped them on his jacket, then reached out and stroked the fur.

‘What were you doing down a grave?’ I asked.

‘Helping our Pa.’

‘What does your father do?’

‘He digs the graves, of course. I helps him.’

Then we heard a sound, like a kitten mewing. We peeked over the headstone and a girl standing in the path looked straight into my eyes, just as I had with the boy. She was dressed all in black, and was very pretty, with bright brown eyes and long lashes and creamy skin. Her brown hair was long and curly and so much nicer than mine, which hangs flat like laundry and isn’t one colour or another. Grandmother calls mine ditch-water blonde, which may be true but isn’t very kind. Grandmother always speaks her mind.

The girl reminded me of my favourite chocolates, whipped hazelnut creams, and I knew just from looking at her that I wanted her for my best friend. I don’t have a best friend, and have been praying for one. I have often wondered, as I sit in St Anne’s getting colder and colder (why are churches always cold?), if prayers really work, but it seems this time God has answered them.

‘Use your handkerchief, Livy dear, there’s a darling.’ The girl’s mother was coming up the path, holding the hand of a younger girl. A tall man with a ginger beard followed them. The younger girl was not so pretty. Though she looked like the other girl, her chin was not so pointed, her hair not so curly, her lips not so big. Her eyes were hazel rather than brown, and she looked at everything as if nothing surprised her. She spotted the boy and me immediately.

‘Lavinia,’ the older girl said, shrugging her shoulders and tossing her head so that her curls bounced. ‘Mama, I want you and Papa to call me Lavinia, not Livy.’

I decided then and there that I would never call her Livy.

‘Don’t be rude to your mother, Livy,’ the man said. ‘You’re Livy to us and that’s that. Livy is a fine name. When you’re older we’ll call you Lavinia.’

Lavinia frowned at the ground.

‘Now stop all this crying,’ he continued. ‘She was a good queen and she lived a long life, but there’s no need for a girl of five to weep quite so much. Besides, you’ll frighten Ivy May.’ He nodded at the sister.

I looked at Lavinia again. As far as I could see she was not crying at all, though she was twisting a handkerchief around her fingers. I waved at her to come.

Lavinia smiled. When her parents turned their backs she stepped off the path and behind the headstone.

‘I’m five as well,’ I said when she was standing next to us. ‘Though I’ll be six in March.’

‘Is that so?’ Lavinia said. ‘I’ll be six in February.’

‘Why do you call your parents Mama and Papa? I call mine Mummy and Daddy.’

‘Mama and Papa is much more elegant.’ Lavinia stared at the boy, who was kneeling by the headstone. ‘What is your name, please?’

‘Maude,’ I answered before I realised she was speaking to the boy.

‘Simon.’

‘You are a very dirty boy.’

‘Stop,’ I said.

Lavinia looked at me. ‘Stop what?’

‘He’s a gravedigger, that’s why he’s muddy.’

Lavinia took a step backwards.

‘An apprentice gravedigger,’ Simon said. ‘I was a mute for the undertakers first, but our Pa took me on once I could use a spade.’

‘There were three mutes at my grandmother’s funeral,’ Lavinia said. ‘One of them was whipped for laughing.’

‘My mother says there are not so many funerals like that any more,’ I said. ‘She says they are too dear and the money should be spent on the living.’

‘Our family always has mutes at its funerals. I shall have mutes at mine.’

‘Are you dying, then?’ Simon asked.

‘Of course not!’

‘Did you leave your nanny at home as well?’ I asked, thinking we should talk about something else before Lavinia got upset and left.

She flushed. ‘We don’t have a nanny. Mama is perfectly able to look after us herself.’

I didn’t know any children who didn’t have a nanny.

Lavinia was looking at my muff. ‘Do you like my angel, then?’ she asked. ‘My father let me choose it.’

‘My father doesn’t like it,’ I declared, though I knew I shouldn’t repeat what Daddy had said. ‘He called it sentimental nonsense.’

Lavinia frowned. ‘Well, Papa hates your urn. Anyway, what’s wrong with my angel?’

‘I like it,’ the boy said.

‘So do I,’ I lied.

‘I think it’s lovely,’ Lavinia sighed. ‘When I go to heaven I want to be taken up by an angel just like that.’

‘It’s the nicest angel in the cemetery,’ the boy said. ‘And I know ’em all. There’s thirty-one of ’em. D’you want me to show ’em to you?’

‘Thirty-one is a prime number,’ I said. ‘It isn’t divisible by anything except one and itself.’ Daddy had just explained to me about prime numbers, though I hadn’t understood it all.

Simon took a piece of coal from his pocket and began to draw on the back of the headstone. Soon he had drawn a skull and crossbones – round eyesockets, a black triangle for a nose, rows of square teeth, and a shadow scratched on one side of the face.

‘Don’t do that,’ I said. He ignored me. ‘You can’t do that.’

‘I have. Lots. Look at the stones all round us.’

I looked at our family grave. At the very bottom of the plinth that held the urn, a tiny skull and crossbones had been scratched. Daddy would be furious if he knew it were there. I saw then that every stone around us had a skull and crossbones on it. I had never seen them before.

‘I’m going to draw one on every grave in the cemetery,’ he continued.

‘Why do you draw them?’ I asked. ‘Why a skull and crossbones?’

‘Reminds you what’s underneath, don’t it? It’s all bones down there, whatever you may put on the grave.’

‘Naughty boy,’ Lavinia said.

Simon stood up. ‘I’ll draw one for you,’ he said. ‘I’ll draw one on the back of your angel.’

‘Don’t you dare,’ Lavinia said.

Simon immediately dropped the piece of coal.

Lavinia looked around as if she were about to leave.

‘I know a poem,’ Simon said suddenly.

‘What poem? Tennyson?’

‘Dunno whose son. It’s like this:

‘There was a young man at Nunhead

Who awoke in his coffin of lead;

“It is cosy enough,”

He remarked in a huff,

“But I wasn’t aware I was dead.”’

‘Ugh! That’s disgusting!’ Lavinia cried. Simon and I laughed.

‘Our Pa says lots of people’ve been buried alive,’ Simon said. ‘He says he’s heard ’em, scrabbling inside their coffins as he’s tossing dirt on ’em.’

‘Really? Mummy’s afraid of being buried alive,’ I said.

‘I can’t bear to hear this,’ Lavinia cried, covering her ears. ‘I’m going back.’ She went through the graves towards her parents. I wanted to follow her but Simon began talking again.

‘Our Granpa’s buried here in the meadow.’

‘He never was.’

‘He is.’

‘Show me his grave.’

Simon pointed at a row of wooden crosses over the path from us. Paupers’ graves – Mummy had told me about them, explaining that land had been set aside for people who had no money to pay for a proper plot.

‘Which cross is his?’ I asked.

‘He don’t have one. Cross don’t last. We planted a rosebush, there, so we always know where he is. Stole it from one of the gardens down the bottom of the hill.’

I could see a stump of a bush, cut right back for the winter. We live at the bottom of the hill, and we have lots of roses at the front. Perhaps that rosebush was ours.

‘He worked here too,’ Simon said. ‘Same as our Pa and me. Said it’s the nicest cemetery in London. Wouldn’t have wanted to be buried in any of t’others. He had stories to tell about t’others. Piles of bones everywhere. Bodies buried with just a sack of soil over ’em. Phew, the smell!’ Simon waved his hand in front of his nose. ‘And men snatching bodies in the night. Here he were at least safe and sound, with the boundary wall being so high, and the spikes on top.’

‘I have to go now,’ I said. I didn’t want to look scared like Lavinia, but I didn’t like hearing about the smell of bodies.

Simon shrugged. ‘I could show you things.’

‘Maybe another time.’ I ran to catch up with our families, who were walking along together. Lavinia took my hand and squeezed it and I was so pleased I kissed her.

As we walked hand in hand up the hill I could see out of the corner of my eye a figure like a ghost jumping from stone to stone, following us and then running ahead. I wished we had not left him.

I nudged Lavinia. ‘He’s a funny boy, isn’t he?’ I said, nodding at his shadow as he went behind an obelisk.

‘I like him,’ Lavinia said, ‘even if he talks about awful things.’

‘Don’t you wish we could run off the way he does?’

Lavinia smiled at me. ‘Shall we follow him?’

I hadn’t expected her to say that. I glanced at the others – only Lavinia’s sister was looking at us. ‘Let’s,’ I whispered.

She squeezed my hand as we ran off to find him.