Читать книгу The Key to Eternal Life - Траяна Харизанова - Страница 9

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Once my friend Natalie from Poland and I were at the Kelaki Monastery.

While I was praying in front of the miraculous icon, Igor had a vision in which a huge ego of mine appeared – the greatest of all: excessive pride… He told me where I got it from. In the 18th century, I was a noble lady in Moscow. I was very rich, I played piano and everything in my life was wonderful. Then I created the Ego of ARROGANCE.

I asked him:

– Why is this Ego manifesting only now? I thought you had cleared me of the Ego.

I felt that something was wrong with me, that someone was still controlling my body. Igor explained to me that the doors open one after the other, or layer by layer. So the time has come for this Ego to appear as well. I got it. I stood in front of the icon and prayed to God to show me the right way so that I could clear all the negative energy that had accumulated in me over the years. I prayed so much that finally the greatest energy monster appeared, which had settled in my body, ruled it, forced me not to be the real “I” – THE EGO OF THE EXCESSIVE PRIDE AND ARROGANCE.

Igor, my Spiritual Master, not only healed me, but also taught me how to get rid of bad qualities forever in order to become perfect! This is a difficult struggle, and the most serious struggle is the struggle with one’s own Ego. Most people do not have enough ENERGY and WILL to fight it. It is much easier for them to live the old way: with lies, with deception, with hypocrisy, with malice, with greed, and so on. The ego has it in every person. Such is GOD’S PLAN. Our task on Earth is to fight the Ego and our Higher Self to win.

Of course, I apologized to Igor for being so nervous and very offended. In fact, it was not me, but my Ego.

Igor’s ego was long gone, as a SPIRITUAL TEACHER – MASTER, he had long since freed himself from it. He fought it all alone and won.

To my apology, he replied:

– I didn’t want to argue with you – I saw that you were like a zombie from this Ego.

This was also one of the most interesting stages of my treatment. I was sure I could handle it on my own! I had to free myself from pride, from malice, from resentment. On July 31st 2012, on the phone, my mother told me that she almost died three days ago. A piece of bread fell into her trachea, she could not breathe, became all blue and barely survived. I immediately called Igor and asked him why this happened?

He answered me like this:

– Your mother was almost gone, but thanks to you, GOD saved her life. Your faith in GOD, your spiritual development has saved her. Now go to church and thank God for that.

I immediately rushed to the church of St. Elias Profitis and on my knees, I prayed and thanked God for saving my mother’s life. I prayed to Him to forgive me for all the sins and mistakes I had made, willingly or unwillingly. For a long time, every day, I thanked God for saving my mother’s life. I thanked Him with all my heart and soul.

Igor once told me:

– Your soul is constantly purified and that is why you are constantly crying.

I often asked myself questions: why did Igor appear in my life? Who is he? Why does he need to purify me of all this negative energy?

When I asked him, he replied:

– GOD has chosen you. You have a mission on Earth. We have known each other for many millions of years. Many times we have been together in different previous lives.

Of course, everything that happened to me was like a fairy tale, but everything was true. It was predestined, he didn’t tell me anything more, but after this conversation my battle with the Ego began. It is not at all easy to get rid of bad habits and bad qualities in adulthood.

One way is to throw everything away and escape to the mountains, to become a hermit. So, of course, it’s easier. Nobody bothers you. You can, of course, go to a monastery. But the main challenge for me was solved by God – to fight with my Ego by living and working among people.

Our mission in the material world is to deal with our Ego here, where it is full of malice, envy and jealousy, where money dictates everything and everything depends on them.

I admire Igor because he managed to defeat his Ego on his own and get rid of it.