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ОглавлениеCHAPTER THREE
My thoughts were so taken up with Martin and the limousine that I almost didn’t notice the surroundings through which we were walking. Like the house, the grounds were in a terrible state of neglect. The grass was uncut, the hedges untended. A thick forest of trees and brush bordered the house like a horseshoe, the open space being occupied by the sandy beach which, now that I saw it up close, was littered with driftwood and gnat-attracting clumps of slick kelp.
We went up a brick stairway that needed fixing. Weeds had pushed up between the cracks to catch the sun. We skirted a huge swimming pool that had obviously gone unused for many years. It was drained of water, its tiles were cracked and crumbling, dirt and leaves covered its bottom.
Another brick walk in the same state of disrepair took us up onto a wide terrace that ran across the full front of the house. This, at least, looked as if it were used from time to time. Bright multi-striped umbrellas shaded metal tables and chairs. The marble flooring was swept clean—but not scrubbed. The sun chaises were new looking. I wondered briefly if they’d been recently purchased for my benefit. No, I decided, glancing at my famous mother; she wasn’t the type woman who did anything to impress another woman, not even her own daughter.
The mansion towered over us, larger than I had at first thought. Jasmine and purple bougainvillea hung from the tiled roof, and every cornice was unattractively splattered with birds’ droppings. The riotous natural growth that seemed to invade every part of the exterior made it evident that nature was merely waiting to claim its rightful heritage.
I paused on the terrace, looking about, pretending to catch my breath. I thought I saw movement at one of the upstairs windows, and glanced up. A shadow passed across the curved window of the tower at the south corner. The second floor section of the south tower had no outside wall; it was one massive window running completely around the outer curve of the tower. It surprised me somewhat to see so massive a window in such perfect state of repair. Even the tower itself seemed to be better maintained than the whole rest of the house.
“What’s that?” I asked Leland, pointing up to the glass-fronted tower.
Again Leland and Diana exchanged a strange fleeting glance.
“Just an old solarium,” Leland told me. “My grandmother was quite a plant nut, like me.” He chuckled but it was a mirthless chuckle.
“You?”
“Yes, plants are a hobby of mine,” he said. He looked up at the glass front. “The solarium is never used any more. I’m afraid I’m letting the place go to pot.”
I was going to comment on the good condition of the south tower, but instead I said, “Why? It’s such a beautiful place...or at least it could be.”
“The house is too old. It isn’t worth fixing. The repairs would cost more than the property is worth.” He sighed, looking wistful. “Someday the whole place will fall down around our heads and Diana and I will be forced to find a new home, but until that time we like to think of this as home. We like it here, believe it or not.”
Diana turned and went inside. Leland motioned toward the front door. “I believe you’ll find the interior a little less depressing,” he said.
Leland was wrong. The interior was just as depressing as the outside, although I had to admit that it looked better cared for. The main hall was paneled in dark, dull wood. The staircase that led to the upper floors was a strange, square affair, going off at all sorts of crazy angles, like a patchwork quilt.
We were in the center of the house, obviously, I thought as I looked around and saw doorways—all in dark oak panels and all closed—that went off into rooms on both sides. The entrance hall was completely empty except for a marble topped console table that supported a huge burst of pampas grass, dry and dead looking.
“Have you had breakfast, my dear?” Diana asked as she slipped off her hat and gloves and tossed them on the console next to her handbag.
“Yes, on the train,” I told her.
“Then perhaps you’d like to go directly to your room and rest for a while? We’ll have lunch on the terrace in about an hour or so.”
I noticed she did not offer to sit and chat. We hadn’t seen each other in over twenty years and she was treating me like someone she saw every day. Casual little comments, admonitions, small talk. There was no attempt at friendliness, no display of affection, or pleasure at seeing me.
To be truthful, I was rather glad. I knew her attempts would only be artificial and I would not have welcomed any such shows of emotion.
“I am a little tired,” I told her.
“Then come along,” Diana answered, squaring her shoulders and walking toward a small door tucked away under the stairs. She pressed a button and the door slid open. It was a private elevator. I breathed an inward sigh of relief, knowing I wouldn’t have to tackle that crazy staircase.
When the door to the small lift closed and I found myself alone for the first time with my mother, I felt a tinge of uneasiness. She was looking at me, eyeing me from head to foot.
“We will try to make you comfortable while you are here,” she said.
“Thank you,” I answered, hoping I sounded as aloof as she. “I can’t stay very long, you know, I have my job to think about.”
“Oh, yes. They tell me you teach school, or some such thing.”
Her snobbishness was irritating. “Some such thing,” I answered as sarcastically as I could.
Diana jabbed a button. The elevator gave a little jolt and we started upward. “I rather hoped that we could be friends,” she said after a while.
I merely looked at her.
“It has all been very difficult for me,” she went on. “You have no idea how dearly I’ve wanted to have you with me. Of course, you know my career would never permit that.”
“Oh, Mother, please, since when does one’s career take precedence over one’s own flesh and blood?” I could feel the stinging behind my eyes, but I refused to let the tears come. I wouldn’t show her how much I’d missed her during all those long, lonely years. I wouldn’t show her that she’d hurt me terribly—could still hurt me if she chose to.
The elevator thumped to a halt on the second level. The door swooshed open. Diana swept out of the lift, leaving me to manage on my own.
“You can’t possibly understand my position, can you, Alice?” she asked over her shoulder as we walked slowly down the wide hallway. Like the entrance hall, the corridor was paneled in dark, dull wood and was as depressing as what I’d seen of the house so far.
“No, I can’t.”
“It is a great responsibility, being famous. One can’t think of oneself, or do what one most pleases. I lived for those faces out there in the dark—hundreds and hundreds of faces who came to me in order to try and forget their drab, dreary existences. I was only a child when I started in movies during the depression years, and during those dark times I came to realize just how much my face, my pictures meant to millions of starving people.”
She stood before a door—presumably the door to the room assigned to me, but she made no move to open it. She turned and faced me. “I never forgot the letters I received during those years, letters in which untold millions poured out their hearts to me, told me how important I was to them, how much they needed me in order to forget about their bleak reality, if only for a short time. Yes,” she said, nodding her head gravely. “I have always been known as a hard, ruthless woman, but I have had to be hard and ruthless because I had to exist. Not for myself, but for them, my public.”
I stood there staring at her. For a moment I thought she was merely play-acting, but when I looked closely into her face I saw something that told me otherwise. Dedication was written all over her. Her eyes gleamed and sparkled when she said, “...for them, my public.”
She made a humble little gesture with her hands, turned and pushed open the door to my room. She stood back and let me enter before her.
I crossed the room without seeing it and went directly to the windows and looked out over the sea beyond the forest. I could feel her presence at my back. I knew without turning that she was standing in the open doorway, one hand holding on to the knob.
“Alice,” she said softly. “Please try not to hate me too much. I only did what I thought was best for you.”
I whirled around. “Best for me,” I said sharply, feeling the tears begin to form at my lids. “How could you possibly know what was good for me? You don’t know me at all. You never tried to know me. You could have sent for me after Daddy died, but no, you chose to keep me hidden away in private schools.”
She didn’t flinch. “And what kind of a life would you have had if I had sent for you? Your schooling would have been seriously neglected, your life would have been one of constant moving about, losing friends, change, change, change. How would a little girl of six cope with a life like that?” Her voice wasn’t raised, it was calm and well under control. “I know only too well how that type life can harm a little girl. No, Alice. I believe I did the right thing. You may not agree with that, but my conscience is clear. I know I did the right thing.”
“The right thing for you, perhaps,” I said in a choked voice. I turned back to the windows so that she wouldn’t see the tears.
She said nothing for a while. I thought she was going to close the door and leave the discussion right there. She didn’t. “I admit that your life wasn’t all it should have been, but I am convinced that I did what was best for both of us.”
I put my head down and tried to keep my shoulders still.
“Get some rest, Alice. I’m afraid this conversation is only upsetting us both. I shouldn’t have started it, but it was inevitable. It’s best that we both know where we stand.”
I heard the door click shut and the silence of the room overpowered me. The emptiness that engulfed me was awesome. I spun away from the windows and threw myself across the bed. Whether or not Diana heard me crying I didn’t know, and I didn’t care.
How could she expect me to believe her? I asked myself, pounding my fists into the coverlet. Even after our long, unnecessary separation, she still didn’t want me. She still made it clear that I was not welcome to stay on in this house with her. She didn’t want me as a child and she didn’t want me as a woman. She could make all the pretty little speeches she wanted to, but the fact remained that I was not welcome here. She’d send me away, just as she’d sent me away years and years ago.
I wouldn’t think kindly toward her—I wouldn’t, I kept telling myself. Yet there was an ache deep inside me which I couldn’t ignore. Despite all the hurt, all the disappointments I’d suffered at her hands, I still looked upon her as my mother. I still considered myself her daughter and I wanted her to love me as much as I wanted to love her.
What will crying accomplish? I asked myself, purposely brushing away the tears and sitting up on the bed. I’d cried enough.
“At least I’ll have privacy here,” I said as I looked around.
I got up and went back to the windows. I sighed. Outside the sun shimmered on the distant water. I tried not to look down at the thick tangle of woods that was immediately beneath my window. They had put me in the north wing of the house, I noticed, glancing up at the direction of the sun.
I pushed open the window and let the cool sea breezes dry the tears on my cheeks. I heard what I thought was a motorboat and glanced back toward the sea. I was right. A small power launch skimmed across the waters. It was headed toward Falcon Island. It didn’t look like the same boat Martin had taken; this one was painted a bright yellow. It looked like a sunbeam dancing over the waves. I saw it swerve and turn inward toward the beach. It disappeared but I could hear its motor continue to purr in the distance. Then the motor stopped.
The thought of a speedboat—of Martin—brought back my determination to get to the root of my mystery. I pushed Diana out of my head and glanced around the room. A telephone sat on the nightstand next to the bed. I went to it and picked up the receiver.
“May I help you?” an operator asked after I dialed.
“Would you connect me with the Police Department in Gulf Point, please?”
“There is no Police Department there, Miss. Will the Sheriff’s Office do?”
“Yes, thank you.”
My hand felt clammy as I clutched the receiver tight to my ear. I wondered if anyone could possibly know I was using the telephone. I felt guilty about not having asked permission, and yet I didn’t care.
“Sheriff’s Office.”
“Yes. My name is Alice Whelan, I’m Diana Hamilton’s daughter.”
The man on the other end must have smiled. He sounded pleased. “Oh, yes, Miss Whelan. Some of my men were down at the station when you arrived this morning. How’s your mother?”
I scowled. Always the same question. Never once did anyone ask about me. After all, I was the one who was almost killed in that plane crash.
“She’s fine, thank you,” I said, trying hard to keep my voice controlled. “What I’m calling about is something I saw in Gulf Point this morning. It’s been bothering me terribly.”
“And what might that be?” he asked with a chuckle. “Did the local reporters give you a bad time?”
“No, nothing like that.” I screwed up my courage. “I saw a girl knocked unconscious and carried away.”
There was a dead silence on the other end of the line. I just heard him breathing. Then he said, “And just where did you see this happen, Miss Whelan?”
“Just as the train was pulling into the station. I saw it out of my compartment window.”
“I see.” He sounded as though he were making notes. But then he put his hand partially over the mouthpiece and started to talk to someone in the background. “It’s that Whelan girl,” I heard him say. “The one who was in the plane crash.”
I heard someone mutter an answer.
The hand slipped a little from the mouthpiece. “She claims she saw a girl abducted at Gulf Point station.”
Laughter. “Her stepfather was right then,” I heard the voice in the background say, most clearly. “He called and said we might be hearing from her with some cock-and-bull story. Shock from the accident, he said.”
The man came back on the line. “This morning, you say?”
“Please,” I said, losing my control. “I am not imagining it. I saw a chauffeur hit a girl and knock her unconscious. Then he threw her into a limousine and sped away.”
“Yes, I see.”
But I could tell he didn’t see. He was humoring me.
“Well, we’ll look into it, Miss Whelan. Now you just calm yourself and get a lot of rest, you hear?”
My frustration was beginning to grow.
“And tell your mother that Sheriff Anderson conveys his regards.”
He hung up and left me standing there listening to a dead line.
I wanted to scream.