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He did not wear his scarlet coat,

   For blood and wine are red,

And blood and wine were on his hands

   When they found him with the dead,

The poor dead woman whom he loved,

   And murdered in her bed.

He walked amongst the Trial Men

   In a suit of shabby grey;

A cricket cap was on his head,

   And his step seemed light and gay;

But I never saw a man who looked

   So wistfully at the day.

I never saw a man who looked

   With such a wistful eye

Upon that little tent of blue

   Which prisoners call the sky,

And at every drifting cloud that went

   With sails of silver by.

I walked, with other souls in pain,

   Within another ring,

And was wondering if the man had done

   A great or little thing,

When a voice behind me whispered low,

   ‘That fellow’s got to swing.’

Dear Christ! the very prison walls

   Suddenly seemed to reel,

And the sky above my head became

   Like a casque of scorching steel;

And, though I was a soul in pain,

   My pain I could not feel.

I only knew what hunted thought

   Quickened his step, and why

He looked upon the garish day

   With such a wistful eye;

The man had killed the thing he loved,

   And so he had to die.

Yet each man kills the thing he loves,

   By each let this be heard,

Some do it with a bitter look,

   Some with a flattering word,

The coward does it with a kiss,

   The brave man with a sword!

Some kill their love when they are young,

   And some when they are old;

Some strangle with the hands of Lust,

   Some with the hands of Gold:

The kindest use a knife, because

   The dead so soon grow cold.

Some love too little, some too long,

   Some sell, and others buy;

Some do the deed with many tears,

   And some without a sigh:

For each man kills the thing he loves,

   Yet each man does not die.

He does not die a death of shame

   On a day of dark disgrace,

Nor have a noose about his neck,

   Nor a cloth upon his face,

Nor drop feet foremost through the floor

   Into an empty space.

He does not sit with silent men

   Who watch him night and day;

Who watch him when he tries to weep,

   And when he tries to pray;

Who watch him lest himself should rob

   The prison of its prey.

He does not wake at dawn to see

   Dread figures throng his room,

The shivering Chaplain robed in white,

   The Sheriff stern with gloom,

And the Governor all in shiny black,

   With the yellow face of Doom.

He does not rise in piteous haste

   To put on convict-clothes,

While some coarse-mouthed Doctor gloats, and notes

   Each new and nerve-twitched pose,

Fingering a watch whose little ticks

   Are like horrible hammer-blows.

He does not know that sickening thirst

   That sands one’s throat, before

The hangman with his gardener’s gloves

   Slips through the padded door,

And binds one with three leathern thongs,

   That the throat may thirst no more.

He does not bend his head to hear

   The Burial Office read,

Nor, while the terror of his soul

   Tells him he is not dead,

Cross his own coffin, as he moves

   Into the hideous shed.

He does not stare upon the air

   Through a little roof of glass:

He does not pray with lips of clay

   For his agony to pass;

Nor feel upon his shuddering cheek

   The kiss of Caiaphas.

Six weeks our guardsman walked the yard,

   In the suit of shabby grey:

His cricket cap was on his head,

   And his step seemed light and gay,

But I never saw a man who looked

   So wistfully at the day.

I never saw a man who looked

   With such a wistful eye

Upon that little tent of blue

   Which prisoners call the sky,

And at every wandering cloud that trailed

   Its ravelled fleeces by.

He did not wring his hands, as do

   Those witless men who dare

To try to rear the changeling Hope

   In the cave of black Despair:

He only looked upon the sun,

   And drank the morning air.

He did not wring his hands nor weep,

   Nor did he peek or pine,

But he drank the air as though it held

   Some healthful anodyne;

With open mouth he drank the sun

   As though it had been wine!

And I and all the souls in pain,

   Who tramped the other ring,

Forgot if we ourselves had done

   A great or little thing,

And watched with gaze of dull amaze

   The man who had to swing.

And strange it was to see him pass

   With a step so light and gay,

And strange it was to see him look

   So wistfully at the day,

And strange it was to think that he

   Had such a debt to pay.

For oak and elm have pleasant leaves

   That in the springtime shoot:

But grim to see is the gallows-tree,

   With its adder-bitten root,

And, green or dry, a man must die

   Before it bears its fruit!

The loftiest place is that seat of grace

   For which all worldlings try:

But who would stand in hempen band

   Upon a scaffold high,

And through a murderer’s collar take

   His last look at the sky?

It is sweet to dance to violins

   When Love and Life are fair:

To dance to flutes, to dance to lutes

   Is delicate and rare:

But it is not sweet with nimble feet

   To dance upon the air!

So with curious eyes and sick surmise

   We watched him day by day,

And wondered if each one of us

   Would end the self-same way,

For none can tell to what red Hell

   His sightless soul may stray.

At last the dead man walked no more

   Amongst the Trial Men,

And I knew that he was standing up

   In the black dock’s dreadful pen,

And that never would I see his face

   In God’s sweet world again.

Like two doomed ships that pass in storm

   We had crossed each other’s way:

But we made no sign, we said no word,

   We had no word to say;

For we did not meet in the holy night,

   But in the shameful day.

A prison wall was round us both,

   Two outcast men we were:

The world had thrust us from its heart,

   And God from out His care:

And the iron gin that waits for Sin

   Had caught us in its snare.

In Debtors’ Yard the stones are hard,

   And the dripping wall is high,

So it was there he took the air

   Beneath the leaden sky,

And by each side a Warder walked,

   For fear the man might die.

Or else he sat with those who watched

   His anguish night and day;

Who watched him when he rose to weep,

   And when he crouched to pray;

Who watched him lest himself should rob

   Their scaffold of its prey.

The Governor was strong upon

   The Regulations Act:

The Doctor said that Death was but

   A scientific fact:

And twice a day the Chaplain called,

   And left a little tract.

And twice a day he smoked his pipe,

   And drank his quart of beer:

His soul was resolute, and held

   No hiding-place for fear;

He often said that he was glad

   The hangman’s hands were near.

But why he said so strange a thing

   No Warder dared to ask:

For he to whom a watcher’s doom

   Is given as his task,

Must set a lock upon his lips,

   And make his face a mask.

Or else he might be moved, and try

   To comfort or console:

And what should Human Pity do

   Pent up in Murderers’ Hole?

What word of grace in such a place

   Could help a brother’s soul?

With slouch and swing around the ring

   We trod the Fools’ Parade!

We did not care: we knew we were

   The Devil’s Own Brigade:

And shaven head and feet of lead

   Make a merry masquerade.

We tore the tarry rope to shreds

   With blunt and bleeding nails;

We rubbed the doors, and scrubbed the floors,

   And cleaned the shining rails:

And, rank by rank, we soaped the plank,

   And clattered with the pails.

We sewed the sacks, we broke the stones,

   We turned the dusty drill:

We banged the tins, and bawled the hymns,

   And sweated on the mill:

But in the heart of every man

   Terror was lying still.

So still it lay that every day

   Crawled like a weed-clogged wave:

And we forgot the bitter lot

   That waits for fool and knave,

Till once, as we tramped in from work,

   We passed an open grave.

With yawning mouth the yellow hole

   Gaped for a living thing;

The very mud cried out for blood

   To the thirsty asphalte ring:

And we knew that ere one dawn grew fair

   Some prisoner had to swing.

Right in we went, with soul intent

   On Death and Dread and Doom:

The hangman, with his little bag,

   Went shuffling through the gloom:

And each man trembled as he crept

   Into his numbered tomb.

That night the empty corridors

   Were full of forms of Fear,

And up and down the iron town

   Stole feet we could not hear,

And through the bars that hide the stars

   White faces seemed to peer.

He lay as one who lies and dreams

   In a pleasant meadow-land,

The watchers watched him as he slept,

   And could not understand

How one could sleep so sweet a sleep

   With a hangman close at hand.

But there is no sleep when men must weep

   Who never yet have wept:

So we – the fool, the fraud, the knave —

   That endless vigil kept,

And through each brain on hands of pain

   Another’s terror crept.

Alas! it is a fearful thing

   To feel another’s guilt!

For, right within, the sword of Sin

   Pierced to its poisoned hilt,

And as molten lead were the tears we shed

   For the blood we had not spilt.

The Warders with their shoes of felt

   Crept by each padlocked door,

And peeped and saw, with eyes of awe,

   Grey figures on the floor,

And wondered why men knelt to pray

   Who never prayed before.

All through the night we knelt and prayed,

   Mad mourners of a corse!

The troubled plumes of midnight were

   The plumes upon a hearse:

And bitter wine upon a sponge

   Was the savour of Remorse.

The grey cock crew, the red cock crew,

   But never came the day:

And crooked shapes of Terror crouched,

   In the corners where we lay:

And each evil sprite that walks by night

   Before us seemed to play.

They glided past, they glided fast,

   Like travellers through a mist:

They mocked the moon in a rigadoon

   Of delicate turn and twist,

And with formal pace and loathsome grace

   The phantoms kept their tryst.

With mop and mow, we saw them go,

   Slim shadows hand in hand:

About, about, in ghostly rout

   They trod a saraband:

And the damned grotesques made arabesques,

   Like the wind upon the sand!

With the pirouettes of marionettes,

   They tripped on pointed tread:

But with flutes of Fear they filled the ear,

   As their grisly masque they led,

And loud they sang, and long they sang,

   For they sang to wake the dead.

‘Oho!’ they cried, ‘The world is wide,

   But fettered limbs go lame!

And once, or twice, to throw the dice

   Is a gentlemanly game,

But he does not win who plays with Sin

   In the secret House of Shame.’

No things of air these antics were,

   That frolicked with such glee:

To men whose lives were held in gyves,

   And whose feet might not go free,

Ah! wounds of Christ! they were living things,

   Most terrible to see.

Around, around, they waltzed and wound;

   Some wheeled in smirking pairs;

With the mincing step of a demirep

   Some sidled up the stairs:

And with subtle sneer, and fawning leer,

   Each helped us at our prayers.

The morning wind began to moan,

   But still the night went on:

Through its giant loom the web of gloom

   Crept till each thread was spun:

And, as we prayed, we grew afraid

   Of the Justice of the Sun.

The moaning wind went wandering round

   The weeping prison-wall:

Till like a wheel of turning steel

   We felt the minutes crawl:

O moaning wind! what had we done

   To have such a seneschal?

At last I saw the shadowed bars,

   Like a lattice wrought in lead,

Move right across the whitewashed wall

   That faced my three-plank bed,

And I knew that somewhere in the world

   God’s dreadful dawn was red.

At six o’clock we cleaned our cells,

   At seven all was still,

But the sough and swing of a mighty wing

   The prison seemed to fill,

For the Lord of Death with icy breath

   Had entered in to kill.

He did not pass in purple pomp,

   Nor ride a moon-white steed.

Three yards of cord and a sliding board

   Are all the gallows’ need:

So with rope of shame the Herald came

   To do the secret deed.

We were as men who through a fen

   Of filthy darkness grope:

We did not dare to breathe a prayer,

   Or to give our anguish scope:

Something was dead in each of us,

   And what was dead was Hope.

For Man’s grim Justice goes its way,

   And will not swerve aside:

It slays the weak, it slays the strong,

   It has a deadly stride:

With iron heel it slays the strong,

   The monstrous parricide!

We waited for the stroke of eight:

   Each tongue was thick with thirst:

For the stroke of eight is the stroke of Fate

   That makes a man accursed,

And Fate will use a running noose

   For the best man and the worst.

We had no other thing to do,

   Save to wait for the sign to come:

So, like things of stone in a valley lone,

   Quiet we sat and dumb:

But each man’s heart beat thick and quick,

   Like a madman on a drum!

With sudden shock the prison-clock

   Smote on the shivering air,

And from all the gaol rose up a wail

   Of impotent despair,

Like the sound that frightened marshes hear

   From some leper in his lair.

And as one sees most fearful things

   In the crystal of a dream,

We saw the greasy hempen rope

   Hooked to the blackened beam,

And heard the prayer the hangman’s snare

   Strangled into a scream.

And all the woe that moved him so

   That he gave that bitter cry,

And the wild regrets, and the bloody sweats,

   None knew so well as I:

For he who lives more lives than one

   More deaths than one must die.

There is no chapel on the day

   On which they hang a man:

The Chaplain’s heart is far too sick,

   Or his face is far too wan,

Or there is that written in his eyes

   Which none should look upon.

So they kept us close till nigh on noon,

   And then they rang the bell,

And the Warders with their jingling keys

   Opened each listening cell,

And down the iron stair we tramped,

   Each from his separate Hell.

Out into God’s sweet air we went,

   But not in wonted way,

For this man’s face was white with fear,

   And that man’s face was grey,

And I never saw sad men who looked

   So wistfully at the day.

I never saw sad men who looked

   With such a wistful eye

Upon that little tent of blue

   We prisoners called the sky,

And at every careless cloud that passed

   In happy freedom by.

But there were those amongst us all

   Who walked with downcast head,

And knew that, had each got his due,

   They should have died instead:

He had but killed a thing that lived,

   Whilst they had killed the dead.

For he who sins a second time

   Wakes a dead soul to pain,

And draws it from its spotted shroud,

   And makes it bleed again,

And makes it bleed great gouts of blood,

   And makes it bleed in vain!

Like ape or clown, in monstrous garb

   With crooked arrows starred,

Silently we went round and round

   The slippery asphalte yard;

Silently we went round and round,

   And no man spoke a word.

Silently we went round and round,

   And through each hollow mind

The Memory of dreadful things

   Rushed like a dreadful wind,

And Horror stalked before each man,

   And Terror crept behind.

The Warders strutted up and down,

   And kept their herd of brutes,

Their uniforms were spick and span,

   And they wore their Sunday suits,

But we knew the work they had been at,

   By the quicklime on their boots.

For where a grave had opened wide,

   There was no grave at all: