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Luckily for me he doesn’t. When I return from a brisk walk around the block, I find him waiting in one of the meeting rooms with a group of managers. Pointing to the laptop he’s set up in my absence – which I must have left in the hall in my haste to escape, oh, pants – he nods, ‘Charley. Are you ready?’

There’s no chance to tell him I’m sorry. He had a right to express his views, and maybe they didn’t gel with mine, but I made it personal. Out of order. Unprofessional. I was overly sensitive because of my situation. I should have stayed calm and under control. Why can’t I keep my emotions in check around him? I never had these problems at the casino. Is it the pressure of the last few months or is it about Alex himself? No. Focus on work.

I take notes and after everyone leaves I write up a sales strategy and answer email correspondence while Alex dictates to me. I become absorbed, fingers flying over the keyboard with his rapid-fire thoughts. I’m envious of his energy. How he does it, has presumably held the same pace for the last few years, is incredible. I feel like an amateur in comparison, tired after one day.

Rotating my head to ease the kinks from my neck, I feel a crunch and a tension headache starts. Alex has stopped talking, so I look up. He’s standing at the window, shoulders wide and set, hands deep in his trouser pockets.

‘Alex?’ No response. Standing, I step closer. ‘Alex?’ A sharp pain stabs in my forehead, aching discomfort digging in deeper. I need to get to my room and take some painkillers otherwise I’m liable to be laid out with a migraine for the next few hours. Still no response. Muttering in exasperation, I move closer, waving a hand in front of his face. ‘Woo–hoo, Alex?’

He jerks, grabbing my hand and holding it down between us. ‘Yes?’ he frowns.

‘Is there anything else you need me to do?’ I wiggle my fingers, hand tingling against the slide of his skin.

‘The last email’s sent?’

‘Yes, just now.’ A pulse blooms in my right eye socket.

Releasing my hand, ‘Sorry.’ Glancing down at his watch. ‘Good. Yes, that’s all for now. I’ll see you in the lobby at seven thirty for drinks.’

‘Pardon?’

‘Drinks,’ he exclaims, ‘the liquid things before dinner?’

‘Thanks for the explanation,’ I say dryly. ‘I just thought we were done for the day.’

‘No, sorry. You’re expected to come to the party tonight.’

What? I’m knackered, especially after only a few hours’ sleep. Plus this headache is expanding to epic proportions. I also need space from the bright exciting tension sitting in my lower belly and coating my nerve endings when I’m near him.

It’s not good.

This is not romance.

This is business.

‘Party? No one at the agency said anything. When you mentioned one earlier I figured it was for the AGM attendees.’

‘It’s for the employees here and any others who can make it. Stuart usually attends so I’ll expect you to be there. Is there a reason you can’t be?’ He glowers. It’s framed as a question but is an order. But then, he is the boss and I need to be reasonable, especially since I still owe him an apology for earlier.

‘No, there isn’t.’ I put my hands on my hips. ‘But would it kill you to say please?’

‘What? I—’ For a moment I think he’s about to start shouting, but he throws his hands in the air and starts laughing. ‘Unbelievable,’ he mutters under his breath, stepping closer to me. I back up as a wide chest fills my vision. ‘Please Charley,’ he says theatrically, a mock pleading expression on his face, and fun, relaxed Alex is back again. ‘Please, please, please … come to the party.’

I shake my head and grin, then scowl as the motion pulls sharp claws through my head. ‘All right, all right,’ I say, pretending reluctance. ‘But do I get a break?’

‘You’re about to get one, and you proved yourself so efficient at getting ready last night,’ he cocks an eyebrow, ‘that you should have an hour or so to yourself before meeting me.’

I chew the inside of my mouth but say nothing. He doesn’t know I need extra time to let the migraine tablets take effect. ‘Fine. But before I go, I need to talk to you about something and I owe you—’

‘An apology?’ He massages the back of his neck, as if feeling my pain, like conjoined twins. ‘We seem to be having this conversation regularly, don’t we?’

I flush. ‘I’m not usually so argumentative. I shouldn’t have called you cynical. I’m sorry.’

‘Yes, well, I’m sorry if I lost my cool. You’re right. I am cynical – whereas you’re an optimist. We both have strong opinions and we’re not likely to agree on this particular point so I think we should agree to disagree.’ A strange look passes over his face, as if he’s made a decision. ‘Let’s just see the assignment through as quickly as possible.’

The headache intensifies. ‘Sounds good to me.’ It doesn’t. I should be wishing for the weekend to be over with as much as him but the thought he wants rid of me is appalling. Then I’m appalled that I’m appalled.

His phone vibrates inside his trouser pocket and he plucks it out, going pasty white at whatever is on screen.

‘Alex, are you okay?’

‘Pardon?’ He gazes at me blankly, black eyebrows pulling together.

‘You look awful. Maybe you should sit down for a minute.’

‘I’m fine,’ he says swiftly, but sways like a tall tree in a high-force gale. I think of Alex as solid and strong, but right now he’s vulnerable.

‘You’re plainly not.’ Ignoring my headache, I grab his elbow and jerk him towards a chair about seven feet away.

‘What do you think you’re doing?’ He tries to pull his arm free but I hold tight, hooking my fingers into his silky, expensive shirt.

‘Helping. You look like you’re about to fall over.’

‘I don’t need anyone’s help.’ But his deep voice is hoarse. ‘Leave me alone.’

‘Sit down,’ I insist. Spinning around to swap our positions, I shove at his chest lightly, slowly backing him towards the chair. Five feet to go.

‘I said I’m fine!’

‘Did you get bad news?’ I say softy, pushing his chest again, trying not to accidentally grope what feel like glorious pecs. He steps back. Four feet. ‘Is there anything I can do?’

He looks at me oddly. ‘What would you be able to do?’

‘I don’t know.’ But the energy he directs at the question allows me to push him another foot or so backward. Getting there. I shiver. He’s so gorgeous, even more so when he’s off-balance. It’s not fair how attractive he is in his formal shirt and tie, his body so close I swear I feel its core temperature. ‘But I’d try,’ I say desperately to distract myself. ‘I’m just offering—’

He huffs. ‘Well, I don’t need you. Stop offering and go away. Go and get ready or something.’

‘No.’ I press my other hand against his chest and press again. Two feet. Nearly there. ‘Look, I’m not trying to be difficult—’

‘Seriously?’ He rocks out a laugh that does funny things to my knees. ‘You’ve done nothing but present me with difficulties!’

‘Thanks a lot!’ I give him a final shove borne of frustration and, of course, he chooses that minute to cooperate. He lands squarely in the chair and the momentum carries me forward. I stumble and end up sprawled on top of him, bum on his hard lap, hands clinging onto his shoulders for balance.

‘Oh,’ I squeak.

‘Oh,’ he echoes.

We lock eyes, his pupils dilating. His gaze drops down to my mouth. ‘You’re really quite beautiful you know,’ he says huskily.

The rumble of his voice, reverberating through his broad chest and against my breasts, strikes a chord in my misbehaving body. He thinks I’m beautiful!

It’s a mere sparkle of thought, because I squirm on his thighs and his hands clench on my hips … and he jams his mouth down on mine.

The kiss is demanding and rough and he curves an arm around my back to yank me closer. I know he’s taking his frustrations out on me but I’m not scared in the way I would be if it were Tony. The fear goes deeper as warmth spins inside me. It’s not fear about my physical safety; it’s about guarding my heart.

I pull away but really don’t have anywhere to go, lying across his lap with his arms wrapped round me. ‘What are you doing?’ I choke into his mouth.

He lifts his head just enough to hear the words and confusion clouds his face. ‘I’m not sure,’ he admits. I expect him to let me go but he kisses me again and it’s not rough any more. It’s how every girl longs to be kissed for the first time; slow and sweet and sexy. It’s much worse than his misplaced anger. More dangerous. I try to fight it but it’s useless. I hold out for all of two seconds then breathe in his fresh scent and become aware of the smooth texture of his shirt where my hands have moved to his taut upper back. I can feel the hot muscles shift under my palms. The heat of his solid body presses into mine, chest to knee, and the sound of our heavy breathing and the way his thumb rubs along my jaw slays me. I give in. I melt. I can’t think, only feel, gripping onto him to stop from slipping off his lap and flowing into a puddle at his feet. Raging warmth spreads through me. Embarrassingly I let out a kind of half moan, half squeak, and the pressure of his mouth increases. He groans in response and the kiss gets slower and steamier.

Taking out my hair band, he runs gentle fingers through my waves and all traces of a headache fade. Tingles zing along my spine as one of his hands drops to cup my bum. He stands, lifting and putting me on the edge of the meeting table. The glass is cool beneath my thighs through my tights as my skirt hitches up. He crowds closer, flexes his fingers on my bum, prompting an answering tug between my legs. Woah! I gasp and grab fistfuls of his thick dark hair as the kiss goes on and on, gaining energy and spark. His hips press between my thighs and it’s obvious he’s enjoying this as much as I am.

Take me now, I think foggily as he lifts his head. Maybe I say it out loud, I’m not sure. Either that or he’s a mind reader.

‘Here. Now,’ he mutters gruffly into my neck.

In that instant I almost say Oh, yes please. I don’t care as long as this feeling carries on. I don’t give a monkey’s if someone sees us.

Huh? Hang on a second.

I freeze as the extent of my desperation hits, like a bucket of ice cubes has been tipped down my back. This is so wrong. How would it look if I was caught on the table with the boss? More importantly, what will Alex think? If I do this with him, he might believe I did the same with Tony.

What on earth am I thinking? What happened to asking Alex to help me out of a hole? Getting my life back? That’s the problem. I wasn’t thinking.

I wrench my mouth from his, tug my hands from his hair. ‘No,’ I croak and my body, the traitor, is screaming to stop being so stupid, to get back in there, to strip his shirt off and unzip his trousers and enjoy this one mad moment. ‘I said no.’ I’m talking as much to myself as him.

‘No?’ Alex stares at me, luscious mouth damp and red from our kisses, hair standing up in spikes from my passionate tugging.

‘No.’ Pressing his chest, I slide off the table and smooth my skirt down. I swear it’s one of the hardest things I’ve ever done. But necessary. ‘You’re my boss.’ Grabbing the band from his hand, I twist my curls into a bun.

The dazed look in his blue eyes lifts, replaced by something else. Backing away, he stalks across the room and slides his suit jacket on. ‘The fact I’m your boss,’ he coolly does the buttons up, ‘didn’t seem to present a problem when you were hanging on to me and whimpering.’

I gape at him. Arrogant sod. ‘I was not whimpering.’ Was I? ‘You took me by surprise, that’s all.’

‘Did I also take you by surprise this morning by the pool? Is that why you tried to kiss me then?’

Anger ignites from a spark to a raging fire. ‘I told you the reason that happened. Is this what you’re like when you don’t get your own way. You go on the attack?’

He laughs, ‘Attack? You’re giving me too much credit. I’m just pointing out the truth.’

When he moves to his laptop and carelessly starts shutting it down, the dismissal drives me over the edge. Humiliation mixes with fury in a whoosh of adrenalin along with a healthy dose of bitterness and regret. If it wasn’t for one of his employees, I wouldn’t be in the position I’m in now.

‘I can take the truth! So you should be able to as well. The truth is it was inappropriate for you to kiss me. You made,’ a move on me first, is the intended sentence but his head jerks back.

‘That’s enough.’ His eyes are dark, flat like a shark’s, generous lips compressed.

I don’t like the way he’s looking at me. The anger and disappointment, the raw contempt making me shudder. Shit.

He picks up the laptop. ‘I suggest you think carefully before you finish your accusation, if you’re building up to a sexual harassment claim. I shouldn’t have kissed you, you’re right. I wish I hadn’t. But let’s not lie. The heat was mutual. And I won’t let anyone say I’d make any woman do anything she wouldn’t want to. Especially a member of staff.’

Dismay hits. It’s the worst thing he could think. Cringing, ‘I don’t mean that, I’d never—’

‘Save it,’ he interrupts, ‘I’m not interested.’

God, what a mess. He actually thinks I’m trying to build a case when I’m trying to do the opposite. As he sails to the door, I rush after him. ‘No. No way. You’re not just going to walk out. I did not accuse you of sexual harassment and I wasn’t about to. Okay?’ I grab his arm. ‘Alex. Alex! Look at me!’

He glances over his shoulder, hand on the door handle.

‘I want to be completely clear. It was mutual. But I was going to say you made a move on me first. Not that you made me do something I didn’t want to. I just can’t get involved, all right? I can’t.’ I lower my voice, ‘It’s not about you.’

‘It’s not you, it’s me?’ he says sarcastically. ‘How original.’

‘I know it’s a cliché, but yes. Believe it. You said yourself I’m honest with you, tell you what I think, so why I would I lie about this?’

He stares at my face, eyes softening. Blows out a hard, fast breath. ‘Okay, I’m sorry I jumped on you about it. And you’re right, I shouldn’t have ignored my own policy. Truce. Let’s forget it ever happened. I will.’ He yanks open the door, gives me a shadow of a smile. ‘I’ll see you at the party.’

After he leaves, I stand in the middle of the room, recalling his knowing touch, his incredible kissing, his hot, hard body. But it’s his words that keep boomeranging back on me the most. I wish I hadn’t kissed you.

I should be relieved.

Instead I feel lost, when I have absolutely no right to.