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CHAPTER 7

BLACK AND WHITE

COPS ENDED UP BUSTING MICKEY on a gun charge. Later that same night, someone banged hard on our front door. It was Officer O’Riley, a tubby cop in his forties that knew Dad from his repo man days. Sometimes, warrants are needed when repossessing a vehicle, and this one time, a reposessee came out shooting. Dad and O’Riley ducked behind the squad car and took fire. Dad pulls out his .45 Magnum, O’Riley unholsters his .9 millimeter, and they both come up blazing. The reposessee survived, but he was full of holes when they got him to the emergency room.

O’Riley hadn’t come to the house to reminisce about their glory days dodging bullets. I listened from my bedroom. Silent, I strained to hear.

“I’m sorry, Pat,” O’Riley said in a grim voice. “They said they were coming for him tonight, so I told ’em I’d go along, too, just to make sure it went as easy as it could on the family.”

“Well, I just don’t understand. Is he being charged with something?” the old man asked, disgusted.

“No, but we’ve got to bring in all the kids that’ve been running with the Reid boy,” O’Riley replied. “Those boys have gotten themselves quite a reputation around the neighborhood, and I hate to tell you this, Pat, but Junior is no exception.”

“Patrick, get up here!” Dad roared.

I got up and went to Rich’s door. He was just laying on his back in bed, listening.

“What’s going on?” I asked.

“Nothing, Joe. Don’t worry about it. Go back to bed.”

I went to my room and sat on my bed. A few moments later, Lil Pat walked up the basement stairs and down the hall to the front door. There was a sudden, bursting roar and the sounds of a tussle.

“What the fuck you been doing?” Dad yelled.

Lil Pat cried out in pain. The tussle continued, then Officer O’Riley’s voice chimed in. “Now… Now, Pat, we can’t let you do this here!” Then handcuffs crunched. Another smack rang out. “Now that’s enough, Pat, or we’ll be bringing ya in wit’ him!” Officer O’Riley shouted.

“You know what? All three of you get the fuck out of my house!” Dad roared. “And you, you piece of shit. When you get back, your shit’ll be out on the sidewalk!”

The door slammed shut. Dad rumbled downstairs and tore apart Lil Pat’s room. He carried stuff up from the basement and hefted boxes and drawers out the front door, sending them tumbling down the steps. He even lobbed the small black-and-white TV off the porch, and it crashed to the sidewalk and tumbled end-over-end. Glass sprayed the concrete. Ma pleaded with him to stop but he wouldn’t. Finally, the light-blue squad car pulled away.

I laid on my bed and sobbed quietly, staring up at the ceiling. The light from the street bled in and cast an orange haze across it.

“I saw that one coming. Fucking junkie,” Rich sneered. He stood at my doorway. “Go to sleep, Joey. Don’t go crying for that piece of shit.”

They questioned Lil Pat, but they couldn’t get anything to stick on him. He was in his early twenties by then, and he’d sunk more and more by the day. He even wore long-sleeved shirts on hot days. Rumors spread around the neighborhood. China white had loomed over Edgewater for years by then. Heroin is one of those drugs that’s there to stay once it sets in a neighborhood. It was right under our noses. This Greek family, the Genopolises, sold quietly for years before they ever got busted. They lived on Ravenswood Ave. across from the cemetery. Lil Pat could walk less than a block and score. It was too close and too easy. He ended up in the basement apartment across the alley.

I made my walk that Sunday, and Lil Pat pulled up on me just as I finished. He looked sick. He had large, droopy, purplish-brown bags under both eyes, and he trembled incessantly. Ryan was already in the back seat of the Lincoln. He looked ill, too. His face was all pale and awestruck. Not only was his father in prison, but now his only uncle was locked up, too.

“Sorry about Mickey,” I said as we pulled off from the curb.

“It’s OK, man,” Ryan replied. “Thanks.” His eyes glistened.

“Hey, Mickey’ll be out in no time,” Lil Pat said with a low crackle in his voice. I almost didn’t recognize it. “Plus, you got Uncle Patty right here, anyways... OK?” Lil Pat’s bloodshot eyes strained in the rearview mirror.

“OK,” Ryan muttered weakly. He looked out the window.

We went to Montrose Beach. We didn’t feel like skipping rocks too much that day. Lil Pat had a few Old Styles, but he could barely drink ’em because of the tremors in his hands. He gave the last two to us.

“You know I love you boys, right?” Lil Pat asked as he looked out across the lake at the gray horizon. “You don’t ever forget that, OK?”

“OK, Pat,” we said in unison.

“No matter what happens, OK?”

Lil Pat turned and looked at me. I nodded.

Even though I was just ten, I still knew what was happening. He was sick. It didn’t matter what he was sick with. I was losing my brother.

•

BLAKE WAS THE GOOD SON. The smart son. The athlete. The one who was gonna get himself out of the neighborhood, and he did. Got all the way to Des Moines, Iowa—Drake University—on a five thousand dollar athletic scholarship. But all it really was was free room and board. Back then, Drake cost about 15K per year, and my parents almost had to take out a second mortgage to keep him in classes. Ma took on another eight kids babysitting, and Dad worked his way up to Superintendent for McQue Construction. Blake was a good high school wide receiver but nowhere near fast enough to be scouted by a Division I school. Drake was Division I-AA, but at the time, they happened to be on an eight-year suspension due to a recruiting scandal. As part of that suspension, they were ejected from their conference and forced to function as a Division III school. This opened the door for Blake. His giant ego most likely propelled him toward Drake for posterity’s sake, as he’d always be able to say, ‘I played for Drake, a DI-AA school,’ when in reality, he probably couldn’t have been a towel boy for Drake without the suspension in effect. Blake was like that though—hyper-interested in providing a façade rather than substance. And that attitude was contagious. Everyone revered him, myself included. Grandma even started calling him “Blakey the Drakey.”

All was well until the winter break of his junior year when his high school sweetheart and supposed ex-girlfriend, Karen, and her mother showed up at our front door and asked to speak to my parents. They sent us kids upstairs, but we all huddled along the carpeted steps in the dark. There, we listened and peeked in on the conversation in the brightly lit kitchen.

“I’ll pay for the abortion,” Ma said in a matter of fact tone as she stepped slowly to the counter and riffled through her purse. “I’ll cut you a check right now—$500 bucks. Take her over to the place right on Peterson and get it done.” She found the checkbook and a pen and slowly limped back to the kitchen table. She sat down in her yellow-cushioned chair at the foot of the table.

“My daughter’ll have an abortion over my dead body!” Karen’s mom said in a cold, rigid tone with her hands neatly folded over each other atop the oak table.

Dad furiously washed his tall, clear glass in the empty sink. I heard the gush of water and the squeak of his hands and fingers slathering on the dish soap. The suds clapped to the tin sink basin, and his white mustache undulated under his hawkish nose.

Karen cowered beside her mother on the bench, sniffling into a big, fuzzy ball of Kleenex. Her hair was done-up in a giant, blonde perm. Blake paced in and out of the passage between the kitchen and the TV room in his blue-and-white Drake University football letterman’s jacket. His sculpted face and long, narrow nose were crunched in a deep scowl. He passed from the dark TV room to the bright kitchen over and over like a defender masking a blitz.

“He’s got one year left to graduate. How’s he going to do that with a child to raise?” Ma urged.

There was a pop, followed by the sound of glass folding. Dad crushed his cup in his massive paws, and then he softly placed the broken pieces in the sink as not to make any noise.

“He’ll have to drop out and marry her,” Mrs. Kerney snapped, contemptuously.

“That’s not happening,” Dad declared, spinning around from the sink. A spray of soppy droplets whisked from his fingertips and clapped to the linoleum floor.

“Well, he’ll be a father soon,” Mrs. Kerney said as she rose from the oak bench. Karen followed. “He better have a way to provide for the child.”

Mrs. Kerney briskly stepped past Dad with her small button nose jutted toward the ceiling. Her eyes pursed, nearly closed, and Karen scuttled after her, still sniffling into the Kleenex wad. Karen followed her mother’s gray heels as they clicked sharply down the hall to the front door. Us kids scampered back up the adjacent stairs. Mrs. Kerney swung the heavy door open and slammed it shut behind them.

•

I SAT NEAR MY BEDROOM WINDOW one night when Blake and a few of his friends rambled down the front porch stairs.

“She still pregnant?” one said.

“Yeah,” Blake said. “Those things don’t go away on their own, ya know.”

“Just shove her down some stairs,” Blake’s friend Steve said, and the group erupted into laughter. “Hell, I’ll do it!”

“You’d do that for me?” Blake sighed. “Damn, Steve, you’re a real friend.” They blasted into more laughter as they sauntered away down the sidewalk.

It made me sick to my stomach to think of it. I saw the protesters outside the abortion clinic on Peterson sometimes. Ma had had one. The child before me was diagnosed with Down’s Syndrome, and they chose to terminate it. Even today, I don’t know what I’d have done. The quality of life, all the terrible consequences of having a child with serious special needs—it’s tough.

I guess teenage girls get abortions all the time, but with Blake, it was different. He was in a relationship with Karen. They were supposed to love each other. And the baby inside of Karen was going to be my nephew or niece—my family, ya know?

I ended up leaving the house and walked down the street toward Hermitage. Hyacinth was out on her front porch doing her homework. I walked up to her, and she frowned at me. I still felt bad about what I’d done to Angel a couple weeks before.

“Hey, I’m sorry about fighting with Angel.”

She sighed.

“I shouldn’t have.”

“That wasn’t a very nice welcome to the neighborhood, ya know.”

“I know.” I hung my head. “Can I sit with you?”

She scooted over, and I sat beside her. It was a cool night. The wind blew in slowly off the lake.

“Something bothering you?” she asked.

“Yeah, well I, I don’t know.” I dragged my hand through my hair.

“What is it?” She smiled at me.

“My brother, Blake.”

“The football player?”

“Yeah. He got his girlfriend pregnant.”

“Wow, jeez. That’s tough.”

“Yeah, he’s got a year left to graduate college. He’d be the first to do that in my family since, since, a while, I guess.”

“What are they going to do?”

“I think they’re going to get an abortion.”

“They’re gonna kill the baby?”

“Yeah, I think. I think they stick a vacuum inside and suck it out.”

“Oh my God, that’s horrible.” She gripped her stomach.

“My Ma wants to do it, and Blake does, too, I think.”

“That’s really sad.”

“I don’t think Karen wants to. I think she wants to have the baby.”

“That’s so sad.”

“I know. Everybody’s so proud of Blake. Me, too. I’m proud of him. I want to be just like him and go to college.”

“But you’re not so proud anymore?”

“I, I don’t know what to think anymore.”

She patted me softly on the back.

“Maybe it’s better if they do it and don’t have the baby and he finishes college and can get a good job, and then they could have all the babies they want.”

“Maybe. I just think about the baby that’s inside Karen. What about the baby?”

I started to cry a little, and I was embarrassed. I looked away and dug my fists into my eyes to squelch the tears. I started to get up to leave, and she reached out and held my arm with her soft, warm hand. She slowly pulled me close to her, wrapped her arms around me, and hugged me. I slid my arms around her and hugged her back. She kissed me on my cheek, and suddenly, my heart was beating quickly, and I wasn’t sad anymore. My whole body started to throb. Her front door cracked open, and I shot to my feet and said, “Thanks for telling me the homework for today.” Her father scowled down at me from the doorway.

I turned rigidly and walked away quickly. Maybe she really does like me. I was confused, all mixed up. I looked back, and she waved with a sad smile. Maybe she just felt sorry for me. I guess it’s pretty sad. I hope they keep the baby.

•

IT DIDN’T GO WELL FOR BLAKE after that. He’d switched to strong safety from receiver, where he’d been getting less and less reps. He was second string, and by that next camp, he was coming full-bore for the spot. He beat out the starter, and after the first scrimmage game of the season, he ended up at a local college bar. Blake ran into the guy he’d beaten for the position—a black guy from (ironically) the West Side of Chicago. A few choice words exchanged, then Blake made a mistake with his textbook pompous demeanor. He puffed his big chest out, and a wide grin spread on his smug lips. Then, he popped his chin up, turned to one of his pals and said, “Dis guy thinks he can take me.”

The West Side brotha did not hesitate to dig his heavy, dark fist into the base of Blake’s jaw. All before Blake’d even finished his sentence.

One side of the bottom row of Blake’s teeth folded over, and Blake crumbled to the beer-soaked hardwood floor. He missed the first half of the season, and that West Side brotha who’d dropped him got his starting position back. Blake watched from the sidelines with his jaw wired shut and a pair of scissors in his pocket just in case he vomited and started choking to death ’cause there was just nowhere for all that bubbling-hot, mucus-drenched bile to go. Maybe it could erupt from his nostrils, but those two little passages were never gonna be enough.

Blake’s son, John, was born around then. Karen moved out to Des Moines, and the two lived in a rented house with several other students. After the season, Blake, who had barely kept his GPA up high enough to be eligible to play football, just stopped doing the work. By the end of the spring semester, he’d failed out completely. He came home to Chicago and got a job as an assistant at an accounting firm by lying and saying that he’d earned his accounting degree at Drake—a degree that he’d completed about half of the coursework for in his four years there. He wouldn’t complete the degree until little Johnny was in high school.