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Lochlan: I’m having afternoon tea with a client at The Dome when my phone rings. It’s an important meeting – Mr Coyle is interested in setting up a venture capital fund to invest in some new technological companies – and so I pull it out of my pocket and hit ‘cancel’.

‘Sorry about that.’

Mr Coyle arches an eyebrow. ‘Your wife?’

It was, actually. Right before I hit ‘cancel’ I saw her name appear on the screen.

‘No, no. Anyway, what were we saying?’

‘Google glass?’

I pour us both some red. ‘Ah, yes. This company’s creating something similar, only better. It integrates seamlessly with new social media platforms and user trials have rated it at five stars. The first product is scheduled to retail for around five hundred pounds in September.’

My phone rings again. This time Mr Coyle gives a noise of irritation. ‘ELOÏSE’ appears in white letters on the screen. I make to hit ‘cancel’ again, but Mr Coyle gives a shooing gesture with his hand and says, ‘Answer it. Tell her we’re busy.’

I stand up and walk to the nearest window.

‘El, what is it? I’m in a meeting …’

‘Lochlan? Is that you, dear?’

The woman at the other end of the line is not my wife. She continues talking, and it takes a few moments for me to place the voice.

‘Mrs Shahjalal?’

It’s the Yorkshirewoman who lives opposite us.

‘… and I thought I’d best check. So when I opened the door I was surprised to see – are you still there?’

From the corner of my eye I see Mr Coyle hailing a waitress.

‘Mrs Shahjalal, is everything all right? Where’s Eloïse?’

A long pause. ‘That’s what I’m telling you, dear. I don’t know.’

‘What do you mean, you don’t know?’

‘It’s like I said: the man from the UPS van brought the parcel over to me and asked if I’d take it as nobody was in. And I thought that was strange, because I was sure I’d seen little Max’s face at the window only a moment before. So I took the parcel, and then an hour or so later I saw Max again, and I thought I’d best go over and see if everything was all right. Max was able to stand on a chair and let me in.’

I’m struggling to put this all together in my mind. Mr Coyle is rising from his chair, putting on his jacket. I turn and raise a hand to let him know I’ll be just a second, but he grimaces.

‘OK, so Max let you in to our house. What happened when you went inside?’

‘Well, Eloïse still isn’t here. I’ve been here since three o’clock and the little one’s mad for a feed. I found Eloïse’s mobile phone on the coffee table and pressed a button, and luckily enough it dialled your number.’

The rustling and mewling noises in the background grow louder, and I realise Mrs Shahjalal must be holding Cressida, my daughter. She’s twelve weeks old. Eloïse is still breastfeeding her.

‘So … Eloïse isn’t in the house. She’s not there at all?’ It’s a stupid thing to say, but I can’t quite fathom it. Where else would she be?

Mr Coyle glowers from the table. He straightens his tie before turning to walk out, and I lower the phone and call after him.

‘Mr Coyle!’

He doesn’t acknowledge me.

‘I’ll send the fact sheet by email!’

Mrs Shahjalal is still talking. ‘It’s very odd, Lochlan. Max is dreadfully upset and doesn’t seem to know where she’s gone. I don’t know what to do.’

I walk back to the table and gather up my briefcase. The brass clock on the chimneybreast reads quarter past four. I could catch the four thirty to London if I manage to get a taxi on time, but it’s a four-and-a-half-hour train ride from here and then another cab ride from King’s Cross to Twickenham. I’ll not be home until after ten.

‘I’m heading back right now,’ I tell Mrs Shahjalal.

‘Are you in the city, dear?’

‘I’m in Edinburgh.’

‘Edinburgh? Scotland?’

Outside, the street is busy with traffic and people. I’m agitated, trying to think fast, and almost get knocked over by a double-decker bus driving close to the kerb. I jump back, gasping at the narrow escape. A group of school kids on a school trip meander across the pavement in single file. I wave at a black taxi and manage to get him to stop.

‘To Waverley, please.’

I ask Mrs Shahjalal if she can stay with Max and Cressida until I get back. To my relief she says she will, though I can barely hear her now over Cressida’s screams.

‘She needs to be fed, Mrs Shahjalal.’

‘Well, I know that, dear, but my days of being able to nurse a baby are over.’

‘If you go into the fridge, there might be some breast milk in a plastic container on the top shelf. It’ll be labelled. I think Eloïse keeps baby bottles in one of the cupboards near the toaster. Make sure you put the bottle into the steriliser in the microwave for four minutes before you use it. Make sure there’s water in the bottom.’

‘Sterilise the breast milk?’

I can hear Max in the background now, shouting, ‘Is that Daddy? Daddy, is that you?’ I ask Mrs Shahjalal to put him on.

‘Max, Maxie boy?’

‘Hi, Daddy. Can I have some chocolate, please?’

‘I’ll buy you as much chocolate as you can eat if you tell me where Mummy is.’

‘As much chocolate as I can eat? All of it?’

‘Where is Mummy, Max?’

‘Can I have a Kinder egg, please?’

‘Did Mummy go out this morning? Did someone come to the house?’

‘I think she went to the Natural History Museum, Daddy, ’cos she likes the dinosaurs there and the big one that’s very long is called Dippy, he’s called Dippy ’cos he’s a Diplodocus, Daddy.’

I’m getting nowhere. I ask him to put me back on to Mrs Shahjalal, who is still wondering how she is to sterilise the breast milk, and all the while Cressida is drilling holes in my head by screaming down the phone.

Finally, I’m on the train, posting on Facebook.

I don’t usually do this but … anyone know where Eloïse is? She doesn’t seem to be at home …

Night falls like a black sheath. The taxi pulls into Potter’s Lane. We live in a charming Edwardian semi in the quiet suburb of Twickenham, close to all the nice parks and the part of the river inhabited by swans, frogs and ducks, and close enough to London for Saturday-afternoon visits to the National History Museum and Kew Gardens. A few lights are on in the houses near us, but our neighbours are either retired or hard-working professionals, and so nights are placid round here.

I pay the driver and jump out on to the pavement. Eloïse’s white Qashquai is parked in the driveway in front of my Mercedes, and my hearts leaps. I’ve been on and off the phone to Mrs Shahjalal during the train ride from Edinburgh, checking in on the kids and trying to work out what the hell to do about the situation. Mrs Shahjalal is very old and forgetful. More than once El has climbed through the window to open the front door because she locked her keys inside. In all likelihood this is a big mistake; I’ve lost a client while El’s been upstairs having a shower or something. I ran out of battery on my phone some time ago and all the power points on the train were broken. Mrs Shahjalal hasn’t been able to contact me. But the Qashquai’s here. Eloïse must have arrived back already.

I turn my key in the door and step inside to quietness and darkness.

‘El?’

I head into the playroom and see the figure of old Mrs Shahjalal sitting on the edge of the sofa, rocking the Moses basket where Cressida is lying, arms raised at right angles by her tiny head.

‘Hi,’ I whisper. ‘Where is she?’

Mrs Shahjalal shakes her head.

‘But … she’s here,’ I say. ‘Her car is outside. Where is she?’

‘She isn’t here.’

‘But—’

Mrs Shahjalal raises a finger to her lips and looks down at Cressida in a manner that suggests it has taken a long time to settle her to sleep. Cressida gives a little shuddered breath, the kind she gives after a long paroxysm of wailing.

‘Max is upstairs, in his bed,’ Mrs Shahjalal says in a low voice.

‘But what about El’s car? The white one in the driveway?’

‘It’s been here all the time. She didn’t take it.’

I race upstairs and check the bedrooms, the bathrooms, the attic, then switch on all the lights downstairs and sift the rooms for my wife. When that proves fruitless I head out into the garden and stare into the darkness. In that moment a daunting impossibility yawns wide. I barely know Mrs Shahjalal, save a few neighbourly waves across the street, and now she’s in my living room, gently rocking my daughter and telling me that my wife has vanished into thin air.

I take out my phone and begin to dial.