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ОглавлениеEnergy is the language your body speaks.
— Donna Eden
True confession: I am a language geek. When I was twelve, I used to sit for hours listening to foreign radio programs. The rhythms and cadences and sounds would thrill me. The sense that there was a conversation I could almost understand pulled me in. The music of it spoke to me. It filled and satisfied me in ways that the programs in English, talking about boring everyday things, did not.
My mother thought I was crazy. She’d say, “Why are you wasting your time with that? You don’t know what they are saying.” I’d say, “But on some level I do know. I can understand them.” She would shake her head and go back to her housework. And I would dive back into the thrill of the barely understood rivers of sound.
Some years later I studied many of those languages and found I still had that liminal sense of understanding, even when I didn’t know for sure, with my logical brain, what the words all meant. Learning foreign languages felt like I was remembering something I’d known in another life. I wondered if there was some kind of source code underlying the specifics of each tongue that I could understand even if I didn’t know the vocabulary or grammar rules.
It is no wonder that fifty-plus years later I have written a book titled The Language Your Body Speaks. This book is about using the language of energy to take care of yourself, to participate in the conversations between your body, spirit, and mind, and to heal yourself. In the many years since my foreign radio adventures, I’ve had opportunities to track down some of that source code I was feeling, our first language of energy expressing itself, and become more fluent. I’ve spent the last thirty-five years working as a professional energy medicine practitioner and intuitive, helping clients learn to participate more fruitfully in their own body, mind, and spirit conversations.
ENERGY AS A LANGUAGE
Most of us talk about energy in practical terms. We say, “She’s got great energy,” meaning we sense from subtle cues that someone is animated or perhaps particularly comfortable to be around. We say, “I don’t have the energy to argue right now,” meaning that activity is somehow not being funded, emotionally, physically, or even spiritually. We say, “My energy has crashed,” meaning we have run out of fuel. On an intuitive level, learning about the subtle energies that we are composed of and how to positively influence their behaviors makes a lot of sense.
Your body is made up of energies. What appears to be solidly physical — the cells, the bones, the tissue, the organs — is in fact a swirling, moving set of energetic exchanges. Even the chemical processes of your body are energetic at their root: Chemistry is the story of energetic exchanges at the molecular level.
And just under the surface of your awareness, your body, mind, and spirit are using a language of energetic signaling to communicate constantly with one another.
Using a vocabulary of light, sound, vibration, imagery, sensation, and other messaging, your body, mind, and spirit are talking with one another, adjusting your physical self to match your thoughts, influencing your thoughts to recognize the needs of your body, and embodying the urgings of your spirit. There is a grammar to this language: patterns of movement and energetic exchange. Like all languages, the subtle energies that you are made of encode meaning and shape your experience.
Is learning the language of energy really necessary? It is crucial if you want to be able to participate in your own evolving experience and create the life you crave. Imbalance in the body, mind, or spirit communicates through symptoms, feelings, sensations, thoughts, and events. If we miss those communiqués, the body and mind shout louder and discomfort snowballs into illness.
I learned this truth the hard way. My path to becoming a healer included a years-long slide into chronic illness that finally forced me to wake up and listen to what my body, mind, and spirit were trying to teach me.
Chronic health problems showed up early in my life. At first, they took the form of minor ailments, frequent ankle sprains, and stomach upsets. Then my weight ballooned when I skipped third grade and turned to sugar for consolation, after losing my friends. That led to blood sugars careening wildly, leaving me alternately too animated or too crashed out.
Where did all this tumult come from? In part, I was a sensitive kid living in a family rife with unnamed, unacknowledged conflict. My parents were camouflaging difficulties in a marriage that didn’t work. They were just too different. My mother’s core value was “never do anything in excess.” If I got hurt, her response was, “Oh, I’m sure you are fine.” My father, on the other hand, was grandiose and brilliant, though emotionally clueless. His response to my complaints was to brag that he had never had a day of illness in his life. Clearly, he believed that anything true for him should be true for his offspring. Conflicts in style, worldview, and values are common in families. These often give rise to the internal, sometimes invisible existential stress of a soul that feels unrecognized, setting the stage for chronic illness. If Mom was a violin, Dad was a tuba. So how was I to learn to take care of my oboe self and really play my instrument?
As my mom was trying to get me to rosin my bow and tune my nonexistent strings, my father was saying, “We’re both wind instruments, so just go oom-pah, oom-pah, and you’ll get along great.” And there I was, an oboe, filling the tube with phlegm and not knowing enough to shake it out. I was desperately trying to play the music of my soul on an instrument I never learned how to manage properly.
I careened through my early years with weight fluctuations, food obsessions, mild flu-like symptoms, and allergies, and I spent hours under the covers reading and ruining my eyesight. This led to hormone imbalances in adolescence, depression, and chronic dieting and bingeing. And my poor soggy oboe degenerated with bouts of compulsive exercise, rounds of fatigue that might last for months, and behavior that ranged between overanimation and depression. By the time I was nearing thirty, the situation had degenerated into daily migraines and a vulnerability to viruses, parasites, and other beasties that would disrupt my energies’ ability to communicate and function for months at a time. Not a pretty picture!
None of the many physicians I consulted ever found anything medically wrong with me. In fact, most of them implied that it was normal for hormones and moods to swing, or they labeled my issues a function of personality and therefore an emotional problem.
Then finally I ran into a doctor who woke me up with a simple truth. I went to see her with severe digestive discomfort and ongoing exhaustion. She conducted numerous tests, examined me thoroughly, and gave me a diagnosis of blinding clarity: I had “malaise.”
I was furious. Malaise is French for “discomfort.” She charged me eighty dollars to tell me I had discomfort! But like all truths, it wormed its way past my anger to stick in my brain. She said, “Medicine” — meaning allopathic, Western medicine — “has nothing to offer you. I’m going to give you the name and number of a complementary medicine practitioner who might be able to help.”
In retrospect, malaise was exactly what I had. I had no idea how to bring comfort, specific to my particular mind-body, moment by moment, hour by hour, day by day. And my body was registering its objections with louder and louder cries for help.
During all those years of pain and dysfunction, I wish I’d known that the body speaks its truth through symptoms — through sensations, through interruptions of functioning, through energetic blockages, through physical signals that say, Pay attention, I need something here. Those needs might be nourishment, safety, a different pace, compassion, help clearing or tuning the instrument, rest, release, connection, a different environment. And if we don’t get the communication, the body shouts louder.
The communication may start small: a dip in energy that keeps us home from a party, or a somewhat sore throat, or an allergic reaction, or an achy joint, or loss of focus, or a slight miscommunication, mishap, or moment of misbehavior. Yet these messages progress if we don’t really listen and respond. The symptoms get louder and more severe; processes and functioning are disrupted. Digestion, circulation, tissue repair, and/or hormonal communication can falter. And the instrument progresses from malaise to malady (sickness), which also snowballs — sometimes because of the pharmaceuticals we take in lieu of authentic communication; sometimes because the habit of not knowing how to care for our own particular, beautiful, amazing instrument just wears it down over time.
A PATH TO HEALING
Although illness can be extremely complex, a compounding of years of miscommunication, the path to healing can be much simpler and more direct. If you learn the language of energy, learn to let your body, mind, and spirit communicate to you in their wisdom about what your instrument needs, and then provide that moment by moment, you will heal.
In the past thirty-five years, I’ve worked with thousands of clients, some with extremely complex and serious life-threatening medical conditions, and others with less dramatic, life-interrupting chronic symptoms. All of them were seeking ways to find support for their instrument rather than mere management of their symptoms or disease. I have seen, again and again, how powerfully you can activate healing once you participate in the ongoing communications of your body, mind, and spirit.
My path into healing work evolved from necessity. It was also shaped by some outside-the-box experiences that were not in the violin-tuba culture on offer in my home when I was growing up.
In my early twenties, my world cracked open. My beloved, but dead, grandmother, a woman who had been massively obese in her life, showed up in my mind’s eye. She told me not to follow the path she had followed but instead to open to guidance. I was not sure what that meant. But within a day, I was seeing a ticker tape of letters scrolling through my head with a message from my inner teachers, group consciousnesses who called themselves my Councils.
Within a week, I was hearing that guidance in my mind, taking dictation on a rich curriculum of spiritual, perceptual energy training that continues to this day, forty-plus years later. You’d think that with all their wisdom, they could have kept me from getting sick! Instead, they predicted that I’d move to California, grow even sicker, and in the process of healing, become an energy healer.
They said, “We’re going to give you three initial tools.” I took dictation: “A golden sheaf of wheat, freshly cut. A solid earth stone. A pair of silver scissors.” It made me giggle. I had no idea what they were for, and they sounded like props in a fairy tale.
Later that same day, however, there was a knock on my door. It was an acquaintance from school, a woman I barely knew, who said, “Are you a healer? I need some help.”
Telling the story now, I’m not sure why I said, “Yes, come on in.” I had only three tools and no clue what to do with them. But at the time, it seemed natural.
She explained what was going on. Her digestion was off, and she was having shooting pains in her arms and legs. She was in enough discomfort that she couldn’t concentrate to do her schoolwork. She’d been to the doctor, who ran tests and told her nothing was wrong.
My memory of the actual session is a bit vague. I remember using the wheat to stir the air around her intestines and then to repeatedly pull energies out and shake them off. I remember placing the stone on her solar plexus, and she reported that it made her gut feel calm for the first time in months. I used the scissors to cut some lines that I then hooked up to other lines at the suggestion of my Councils. And I remember being on the brink of giggling the whole time. But step by step, my hands just proceeded, and in about thirty minutes, it was done.
She said, “Thank you, that did the trick. I feel much better.” We never discussed it, although she did mention about a month later that the symptoms had never returned.
Looking back, I wonder why the whole experience didn’t leave me shaken or confused. Maybe it was like my experiences of listening to foreign languages. I had the sense that I could almost understand it. And I was willing to listen and learn.
About eight months later, I did end up moving to California, as my Councils had predicted. I soaked up the sunshine and the go-with-theflow culture and thrived for a few months, until I had another energy and nutritional crash, this time so serious I found it difficult to do simple tasks. This led me to the momentous diagnosis of malaise.
The complementary practitioner my doctor (bless her heart) referred me to was a chiropractor, who had studied a newly developed form of healing called Applied Kinesiology.
This chiropractor diagnosed me with a complex of things that have since become almost clichés in the complementary medicine world: candida imbalance in my gut, leaky gut, blood sugar imbalance, adrenal crash, and for the headaches that were starting to show up more frequently, cranial jamming. I was delighted to have names and explanations. But more, I was enchanted with the technique she called muscle testing, a biofeedback tool that allowed her to ask my body what was going on in various energy channels and get responses in the form of muscles holding strong or releasing.
Dialoguing with the body in this way made sense to me. I loved the Chinese medicine charts on her walls and the way she’d use these pathways to figure out what needed to be balanced in my body’s energies. I had always thought of energy as what I didn’t have when I crashed out. I had never thought of it as the fuel that governs the body’s functions in positive ways!
Then something strange started happening to me. First, I found I could predict which meridian pathway would test “weak” with the muscle tests. I could just feel it, see it, or even hear it. My chiropractor used a lot of nutritional supplements and dietary modifications as part of her healing work. I discovered I could see which supplements I’d need. I could point to the bottle on the shelf that contained what I needed, and I could even tell her the ideal dosage. Although I knew so little about anatomy that I didn’t even know where my organs were located, I found I could point to the organs that were out of balance, and the energy testing would confirm it. I could see in my mind’s eye that my chiropractor’s gallbladder was a lovely forest green and mine was puke green, and sure enough, my gallbladder meridian would test weak.
Over the course of the six months we worked together on my health, I learned to feel when an energy would test weak, and I started seeing what might fix it. Some of the fixes were in line with Applied Kinesiology. Others were more off the wall. For example, I might take both hands and push the energy on either side of my head down my body and off into the ground. Then an energy that had tested weak would right itself.
With time, my energies balanced, my gut healed, and my lifelong exploration of energy healing was launched.
SELF-HEALING WITH ENERGY MEDICINE
Energy medicine is, as Donna Eden and David Feinstein have said, a form of healing in which energy is both the patient and the medicine.1 Our bodies communicate using chemical messaging and energetic messaging. By using energy techniques to influence the energetic messaging of the body, mind, and spirit, we can influence the behaviors of the body (including its chemistry) and activate its natural abilities to heal.
In its contemporary form, energy medicine involves using pathways and techniques mapped out within various traditions, such as Chinese medicine, Ayurvedic medicine, yoga, and shamanic healing, among others, in healing practices that date back thousands of years. Contemporary energy medicine also incorporates newer understandings from energy healing pioneers, physics, kinesiology, and body-mind modalities, which give us ways to work practically with our subtle energies to promote well-being.
In this book, I invite you to delve beneath the particulars of formal energy medicine modalities to understand the source codes, the language that underlies them. Too often people with chronic illness are drawn to study complementary modalities or nutritional science in a desperate search for wellness, but they end up learning dietary dictums and prescribed practices, rather than how to actually participate in the communications of their body, mind, and spirit. My goal in presenting this language is for you to be able to create your own, personalized energy medicine, in order to truly participate in your own creation of self. My goal in focusing on self-healing is to encourage you to discover how to take healing into your own hands and, in a very individualized way, support your miraculous, inbuilt capacity to heal.
ENERGY DIALOGUE
Energy dialogue is at the heart of successful energy medicine. It quite simply involves being able to get the messages from your body, spirit, and mind and to respond in their idiom — using movement, gesture, light, sound, vibration, imagery, interaction with energy flows, actions, placement in an environment, and more. This is the vocabulary of the language of energy.
The goal of energy dialogue is to participate moment by moment in the ongoing energy communications within you. It is not something to use just when you are sick. It is a practice that allows you to bring your body’s rhythms and expressions, your conscious understanding, and your behaviors into collaboration, creating your spirit’s truest embodiment.
Once you can participate in energy dialogue, you have the basis for activating and supporting your body’s natural ability to heal.
You use energy dialogue much as you use any language. As you proceed through your day, consider all the ways you use language to think or speak. First, there are the monologues and imagined conversations going on in your head. Perhaps you listen to the radio as you get ready for work. You might have conversations with family members or talk to yourself in the mirror. You might interact with the neighbor on your way out the door, and so on. All of this is natural. You probably don’t have to stop and formulate sentences, look up words in a dictionary, do fifteen minutes of language exercises, or struggle to find the right tone of voice or emphasis as you joke, question, respond, or inform.
The goal in learning the language of energy is to participate in the energetic dialogues that are you and to skillfully navigate among the exchanges with energies that are not you. If you are fluent in the language of energy, it becomes second nature to rebalance your energies, to pull in what is needed, and to recognize when something requires conscious attention.
USING ENERGY DIALOGUE THROUGHOUT THE DAY
The energies that make up your body continuously move and swirl and spiral and flow and block and release and swarm and envelop. They put on quite a show. If you have eyes to see, there are patterns to the movement and colors that represent differing vibrations or kinds of movement. There are shapes created by energies moving in collaborative ways. Some healers refer to this massive dance of energies as the energy body, and it has been mapped in various cultures. What is amazing is that, although you can find common features from one body to the next, each energy dance is also individual and unique.
And if you have ears to hear, it’s a counterpoint of sounds, a symphony of exchanges embodying meaning, intention, and recognition. It is choruses engaged in call and response, expressing our truth. And each of us is set to a different, individualized key. There are harmonies and dissonance, melody lines and chords, and elements (like the heart) that set and keep the beat. It is extremely entertaining to tune in and just listen!
Imagine if, as a child, you learned to tune in to this dimension of being. Today, you would see, hear, feel, know, and smell when the patterns shifted or faltered. It would be no big deal to recognize what is needed and supply it, to recognize what is going awry and right it, to participate in that conversation as it is unfolding.
If you had learned this language as a child, your day might look something like this: You would wake up and spend a few minutes just checking in — helping the energies transition from the more muted circulation during sleep to the more active movement of your day. You would know if it’s time to get up or you need more rest. You would feel what pace and rhythm is needed. You might stretch every which way to allow energies space to flow. You would hook up the main energy arteries that run up the front and back of the spine — like getting Main Street cleared of snow. You might tap or drum various junction points in your energy circulation system to get that system circulating more effectively.
As you get out of bed, you would check in to see if you are truly oriented to the energies around you — including those of the earth and sky. You would make sure that your elements are balanced. You might tune in to your spirit, your mind, and your body to make sure those three aspects of your consciousness are accessible to guide your choices as your day unfolds.
Throughout your day, little conversations and adjustments would happen. As you emerged from your car, you would take a moment to shift your sense of pacing, from the rapid speed of travel to a more leisurely stroll that allows you to tune in to the trees and sunshine and get an energy snack from them. You would naturally notice when your body or mind has needs that do not match the demands of the moment. After half a lifetime of self-care, you would probably know how to automatically and gracefully listen, console, adjust, adapt, and reset your energies.
Because the language of energy is your source code, your first language, it will not take you years to gain fluency. Instead, you will awaken to ways you have already been using this language and build on those.
HOW TO USE THIS BOOK
Just as we learn language situationally, through interacting with native speakers, you can use this book in a number of ways:
First, just read it straight through as an immersion experience. Let the ideas and frameworks and stories filter in. Learn the language of energy the way you first learned language as an infant: taking in all the sounds and gradually making sense of what you are hearing, all the while constructing your own personal understanding of the world.
Second, use the book as an exploration guide, dipping in and out wherever you feel drawn. Many chapters offer a number of explorations, labeled “Play With It,” that guide you in just playing with the concepts. With these, I often offer illustrative examples of my own experiences as I explored these ideas while writing this book.
Third, work your way systematically through the book, applying the concepts and exercises to your own life. The book is full of healing stories that illustrate different people’s health challenges and approaches to wellness. These are coupled with energy exercises and meditations that provide specific tools.
Finally, throughout the book, the structure, syntax, vocabulary, and usage of the language of energy are linked to how we actually acquire language as children. This is not a foreign tongue to be learned by rote memorization and grammar drills. Instead, it is our baseline idiom that governs how we communicate within and with others. The Language Your Body Speaks will help you to evolve your awareness of the language of energy and your native ability to speak and understand it.
