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Chapter 5: Is our ego reality and reality an illusion?

When I think,

That I don't think about you anymore, I still think about you.

So I will try not to think that I no longer think about you.

(Zen-wisdom)

When we try to describe the term »reality«, two options are open to us: firstly, quantum mechanics, which is limited to all moving particles with mass and the forces that act, or a philosophical interpretation of what it could be. According to the general understanding, reality must be understandable with certainty and correspond to truth free of any illusions. Humans are constantly exchanging information with themselves and their environment. Our brain takes in sensory perceptions and interprets them. It controls our body functions and processes all information about what we think and do in our subconscious (which is supposed to be located in the right hemisphere). By reacting to the environment and rejecting or accepting something, we create our own reality and thus our own illusions from an early age. It is very important for most of us to maintain a certain coherent state, a state that confirms our thinking, feeling and acting. A state of affairs that makes us reluctant to think out of the comfort zone and tells us that all things are going as planned and that no changes are desirable. If, on the other hand, we are led from this coherent to an incoherent state by fear or stress, it becomes uncomfortable for us, we come under pressure and try to return to the balanced, coherent state through persistence, discussion, arguments and sometimes violence. One could also say that the actual coherent state of being is happiness. To maintain it, we humans mostly use the ego, also known as the »pseudo-soul«, which sometimes makes use of the most unusual means. The ego delimits and separates us from being one with everything. Like the self, it is a part of ourselves. Reality, on the other hand, describes the truth free of illusions, how something really is, without untruths and appropriately arranged stories. Our own illusions are only self-created perceptions, created by our constant thinking into the future and the past. The ego creates a kind of pseudoreality for us, which in turn makes us believe things that often have little or nothing to do with real reality. We live and experience a subjective world. We all know that: If our life goes differently than planned, we set goals that motivate us and should enable us to get through difficult incoherent states in order to ultimately achieve the desired success - back to coherence, so to speak. Our brain loves this state of happiness and is reluctant to be transferred to another. We want everything to stay the same as we love and know it. However, the coherence in our head is different for every person and does not have to have anything to do with the truth and reality of our world. Every person develops their own reality and it is maximally similar to that of other people. Everyone experiences their own subjective reality, which is only part of the real truth, the whole of objective reality. The truth is free from desires and personal beliefs. So if someone is stingy out of conviction, he will be taken out of his balanced brain state when he is supposed to give something away. We speak of coherence and that does not initially mean that something is »good«, but only that the person feels comfortable in this state and is convinced of its correctness. It marks his personal well-being and is ideally a state of happiness. The individual reality of every human being is illusory, it is something subjective, linked to beliefs of all kinds and assumptions about what could be in the future or how something was, possibly resulting from a certain situation in the past. This also results in the typical »pigeonhole thinking«. Once you've landed in a pigeonhole, you won't get out again anytime soon. We often put things in a context that has absolutely nothing to do with reality, since reality is already filtered through our brain. It is very similar with the truth. Basically, we cannot grasp it because each of us has their own truth and we are only a small part of something very big. Anyone who only sees a few tiny Lego blocks of a huge building, can only speculate about the big picture. If we think about it, we will not get any result, at most an illusory one. Our brain is a master at making a mountain out of a molehill or at immediately deriving several future possibilities from a statement. We often only know partial aspects of our actions and not the overall context of the big agenda. It's like playing our own musical instrument in a band without ever hearing the band as a whole.

A computer game is considered realistic if it comes as close as possible to our usual reality, as we perceive it. What would an extraterrestrial's computer game have to look like in order to describe his reality? Does he see the world differently from us? How much reality can we even perceive if we are only a small part of it? Are there many different realities and is the sum of all realities possibly the truth and reality of God, the ultimate reality of an all-embracing Creator?

»Anyone who believes that things are real is as stupid as a cow.

Anyone who believes that things are not real is even more stupid.«

(Saraha, Indian Mahasidda, 8th century)

God has given us not only a consciousness, but also a self, which consists of an I and an ego, and which we can use as a too, so that we can recognize and experience our human reality. The source of consciousness is the Spirit of God, which moves through the causal, astral and physical world. The pure spirit is immutable and eternal because it corresponds to our true reality. Just as the electrical current is necessary for the operation of technical devices, the spirit of God also unfolds in all beings and can be modulated with additional information. The I (ego), on the other hand, is created through the connection of consciousness, place and time and is strengthened or reduced by our feelings and emotions. It is a tool that helps us to assert ourselves in this world and to achieve our set goals. Applied incorrectly and constantly, it separates us from other people and from God at the same time and becomes independent. If the mind wants to experience itself, a connection is made between a point in time, a place and the consciousness and an I-moment arises or we become aware of it. When mind and consciousness enter the human body, the ego forms as part of our selves.

Ego cogito, ergo sum, »I think, therefore I am« is the first principle of René Descartes, who describes our self as the centre of our personality. But this I is transient and dies with our body or dissolves again. The ego wishes and the pure spirit wants - so the spirit demands from our inner observer a determination of the position of this world, which we then experience as light moments or as awareness. We pause for a moment to ask ourselves: where am I? How and what am I experiencing right now? What am I doing? All of this happens so quickly that the result is usually just a feeling of awareness. Through the cycle of thinking and feeling, our mind conditions an emotion in our memory, which in turn becomes a habit as soon as the body can implement the wishes of the mind at any time. The subconscious controls this task together with the mind and decides whether it is necessary to induce awareness or not. In this way we can carry out work in which we lose ourselves completely and forget the time, but also difficult tasks such as the emergency landing of a passenger aircraft, in which we react clearly and consciously every tenth of a second and act according to certain emergency regulations in order to be able to make the right decision immediately. When the mind instructs the inner observer, i.e. the consciousness, to determine the time and place, the conditions for becoming aware are created through this connection of information. It is precisely at this point in time, when consciousness converts the waves of possibility into an actual event, that we experience our reality. If René Descartes claims: »I think therefore I am«, then it should be possible the other way around. »If I don't think, then I am not,« at least not me. When we are in a relaxed state like meditation, we find that the ego tends to dissolve. If the parametres for a necessary link between place and time are deactivated through focused »not thinking«, the ego dissolves more and more. But that doesn't mean we're dead. We only perceive without connecting to an I and are in our original state of being. We become observers. The consciousness and the spirit rest in deep immersion, the ego in this case is greatly reduced or abolished. When the meditation is over, the mind and the inner observer report back and we become aware of ourselves again. We feel our body, orient ourselves and return to the world to look astonished at the clock and determine how much time has already passed. When we take a deep breath afterwards, we feel our identity in the here and now. Consciousness and ego are reunited in the body. When our consciousness leaves the body at physical death and thus frees itself from place and time, the body-ego first dissolves and forms again where the consciousness as an observer creates a new experience with the spirit. Accordingly, there must be innumerable illusory realities in our universe, as each part of mind / consciousness of the universal mind (which we represent as a single human individual) creates its own. Here begins the work of a mediator who is able to distinguish between self-made truths and illusions as well as the reality and truth of God. In the Bible this is already described as the Holy Spirit. He recognizes what we cannot recognize as human beings, and he is able to lead us to the truth of our Creator. In the end there can only be one truth. However, since billions and billions of these »portions of the divine spirit« exist and communicate with one another, there are superordinate sets of rules and laws in both the subtle and material world, which allow us all to experience a common world. It is a collective consciousness that is able to act on an individual consciousness. The reality of each remains individual and unique, at least until we are restricted in our development by other levels of consciousness within the causal order (of cause and effect), similar to two waves that spread out on the water, meet and thereby form an interference. This causality is cause and effect, puts events and conditions in a higher order and shows us the world in which we live as it is when we open our eyes, including all the laws and ideas that make up our cultures.

Imagine a shaman in Bolivia who lives in his own world and that of his tribe, the Conibo. Here he has been embedded in a very special environment from the day he was born. He received a completely different upbringing than western children and has different beliefs. As a shaman he moves in his tribe in the material world and when he heals in the so-called hereafter in the lower and upper world, which he can reach through trance. Everyone in his village has their duties and lives according to the rules of the tribe in a causal order. Now we're bringing this shaman to New York City for a couple of years. At first, he will not understand the language, the rules of conduct, everything that is going on around him. He will perceive technology as magic. A completely different reality will come over him and he will have to completely rethink his experience of reality. There are two causal orders that meet here: that of the Conibo and that of the New Yorkers. It is possible that over time our shaman will integrate more and more into this new order and its rule networks and in a certain way forget his tribe. He may even forget that he has the free choice to return there or to get to know completely different, new cities and peoples. However, when he actually returns to his tribal family after a few years, his reality has changed significantly. It will never be the same again. It is no longer the reality that he experienced before his trip to New York. It is very similar in the life of each and every one of us: We are so integrated into our »little world« between work, leisure and other obligations that we forget that we are actually free to go wherever we want to. When we are stuck deep in problems, it often does not occur to us to let go, to take a step back and look at the whole thing from a new perspective in which we can deal a new hand. When we leave our body one day, we can plan new experiences on the soul level and explore new realities that are tied into other causal orders. We are free to choose Heaven or Hell and go where we want. Feelings, emotions and motivations prove to be the mainspring for the fulfillment of wishes and for the interaction with the interworld. Realizing that »we are what we think« is critical to anything we want to achieve in our lives. Everything that we perceive in a certain situation and at any moment, everything that we experience with our five senses, what the mind uses from the world of ideas, is processed in our subconscious and made available again to the interworld. The more emotions are involved, the more effectively we will achieve our goals and wishes. We are the creators of our own reality, beings who express God. With our conscious mind we shape our own life, it is a constant, never-ending process of becoming and being. When we stir up negative thoughts and fears in us, for example by receiving the media news indiscriminately and uncensored, when we do not attach importance to mental hygiene and distance ourselves, do not isolate ourselves with an internal firewall like a computer to ward off viruses we will become whatever information we randomly absorb and we live our own and the illusions of others. We become the plaything for those who can easily manipulate us and whose beliefs we subconsciously submit. Our world today consists of hierarchies that dictate how other people should be and how they should live. If hundreds of people can simply be »gunned down« in very realistic computer games, as long as you get »high scores and points« for killing, one should not be surprised that people also implement this into reality and unconsciously feel encouraged to do so. Every week we hear of atrocities and the murder of dozens of people in the mass media. The subconscious makes no distinction between what is only thought and what is actually experienced, according to the motto: »You are what you think.« So basically we all have the free choice to decide how we ourselves react to our environment and what experiences we want to make. It is our decision which reality we choose, and we should bear this in mind and be aware of it.

Is this reality worrying for us or is it challenging? Is our world full of problems or is it full of new, wonderful surprises and enrichments every day? If we put the subconscious on »autopilot«, we run the risk of becoming what film, television, media, friends, acquaintances and colleagues tell us every day. Then we let ourselves be driven by the mainstream and finally arrive where many arrive. That doesn't have to be bad if it fits your own reality and your own soul path. But the adage »Strength lies in tranquillity« reminds us to swim out of the flow of the mainstream to the bank, to think for ourselves and to look at everything around us from a different perspective. It is crucial for a balanced life and a healthy mind that we let the positive in us predominate, which leads to God and to the truth and reality of our Creator. We create a little bit of ourselves anew every day, we live our own reality and we get better and better from moment to moment.

»Everyone thinks that his reality is the real reality.“

(Paul Watzlawick)