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Proserpina

HE STOOD looking down at the casket with its blue velvet casing, its inner lining of puffed white satin, and its rows of silver handles.

“Haven’t you anything more–ah–more dignified? A little plainer and more dignified?” he said.

His coat was unbuttoned, showing the vest and the gold watch chain with its dangling seals and trophies. His hands were in his trousers pockets, and his straw hat was shoved far back on his head. He glanced at the mortician with an oddly worried, humorous look; and the mortician, a young man with a red, freckled face, wearing a brown-and-white checked suit of an unbecoming shade, led him to the other side of the room and indicated a simpler casket finished in gray velvet.

“This is real dignified,” said the mortician. “Its quite a bit cheaper, too; as a matter of fact, seventy-five bucks less. We sell a good many of this model,” he added.

“Can’t say it appeals to me awfully,” said the customer.

“Well, now, you don’t expect any of ’em to do that exactly, do you?” said the mortician with a macabre grin.

“Don’t get funny,” said the customer.

“Well, now, Johnnie,” said the mortician, “I’ll show you everything we’ve got, but I bet you take the gray one in the end.”

They continued their tour of the big room, Johnnie whistling softly, as the mortician, tapping with his pencil, explained the virtues and values of his various models. Johnnie’s eyes retained their expression of semihumorous concern, but by and by he stopped whistling and said with resignation, “You win. Gimme the gray one and I’ll write you a check for it.”

They went into the next room, which was the reception room, their feet making no sound on the heavily carpeted floor. Johnnie sat down in an upholstered mahogany chair and began to write out a check, holding the book on his knee.

A diluted sunshine fell through the tan silk curtains. A fern in a wicker flower stand in the corner of the room was growing quietly, exhaling the freshness of its slight breath upon the air; and on the walls were small pictures in narrow gold frames, depicting spring woods at evening, heathery hills, a thatched cottage, sheep coming home along a country road, the colors and the compositions all properly subdued and quiet. The mortician took the check which Johnnie held out to him and waved it slowly up and down to dry it.

“Thanks,” he said. “I’ll hold it for you. But say, what’s struck you, pickin’ it out so young? You look as if you’d last forever. You’re not contemplating self-destruction by any chance?”

“I should say not,” said Johnnie. He leaned back in the chair and crossed his legs, his right ankle resting on his left knee. “I was around to see my doctor, just for a general look-over before I get settled at the island for the winter. And he says to me, ‘Johnnie, my boy, how often do I have to tell you that you’d better get your affairs fixed up while there’s time? You may last twenty years,’ he says, or you may pop off tonight. Go and get your affairs straightened out, and then amuse yourself in peace.’ ”

“Heart?” interpolated the mortician.

“Yeah. So I overhauled my will and what not, and then, seein’ as there’s nobody else to do this little job for me, I thought I’d better do it myself. Selah. I never felt spryer.”

He got up and, buttoning his coat, made for the door. The mortician opened it for him.

“So long, Johnnie,” he said innocently. “See you again.”

“Probably,” said Johnnie dryly, “but not too soon, my boy, not too soon.”

The street was bright but empty. Johnnie drew a deep breath, feeling as if he had emerged from underground. What fine brisk air! He took his hat off, put it on straight, thrust his hands into his coat pockets, and proceeded past the small clean residences, each with its mowed green lawn, to the end of the block. Here he turned into a business street where there were people, autos, an occasional streetcar, and store windows. Autumnal clarity was over everything, enriched by the noonday sunshine. Above the rattle of a streetcar, when it passed, he heard the deep tooting of a freighter drawing up to the locks and shriller tootings from the tugs which convoyed it. He liked the noises of the Soo. He passed an Indian leaning against a barbershop window, and a candy kitchen from which issued a group of high school girls in short, sleeveless dresses, tight little tams on their heads. A little farther down the street he stopped at a restaurant, and, entering, hung his hat on a peg and sat down at a table near the window. A girl offered him the menu, written with indelible pencil on a piece of white paper, and he said without reading it, “Broiled whitefish and blueberry pie. And coffee.”

A white muslin curtain, very clean and fresh, protected the lower part of the window from the inspection of the street. Above that, on the glass, in letters now backward, he deciphered FOUNTAIN LUNCH AND RESTAURANT. He looked about the room and watched with amusement, for a few minutes, a boy hunched over the counter at the Fountain Lunch ogling the girl who waited on him. The recent transaction at the mortician’s had given Johnnie a queer, uneasy feeling. He shook his head slightly and drummed on the table with his finger tips. He was a short, plump man with blue eyes and white hair, which was parted down the middle of his head and cut close at the sides. His nose was blunt and his upper lip long and smooth-shaven. The stubble of his beard, unless he had just shaved, gave his pink cheeks a frosty, rimy look.

The whitefish was very good, and so was the blueberry pie. He ate slowly, enjoying himself deliberately, but the idea of the mortician and of his purchase persisted.

“I shouldn’t have done that,” he said to himself. “No sir, it was a mistake—too much like asking for something that you don’t want.” He took a sip of coffee and said, “Well, it’s the last time I do anything like that. Next time I’ll leave it to the other fellow.” He chuckled at his joke.

The girl who came to clear the table paused a minute.

“How’s everything down at the island, Mr. Plows?”

“Fine,” he said, “just fine.”

He had more than enough time in which to walk down to the Johnstone Slip and catch the Neon, which would take him home. He went around to the stationer’s and bought himself some magazines. The boy who waited on him said, “Nice day, Mr. Plows. How’s everything down at the island?”

“Fine and dandy,” said Johnnie.

A couple of young men were standing before a hardware store window inspecting the hunting apparatus on view there. Johnnie stood with them for a few minutes, but the stuffed head of a moose regarded him with a glassy eye above the Winchesters and game bags, and he wandered on. He stopped in front of a jeweler’s, a little place with only one show window. An array of gaily enameled cigarette lighters pleased him, and he said to himself, “Why don’t you get one, Johnnie? Be a sport, you’re only young once. Treat yourself.”

He bought a blue one and then walked down to the river. The Neon lay in the slip along with a small fast boat of the United States Coast Guard service. She was a fairly large launch with a closed-in engine room and a covered deck at the stern. Her owner, who was also chief mate and engineer, was sitting on a barrel on the wharf in the shade of the warehouses. He hopped off as Johnnie approached and greeted him.

“Have a nice day?” he said.

“First rate,” said Johnnie. “When do we go?”

“Oh, any time the mail comes. I guess there’s nobody else coming down with us.”

“Well, let’s climb on board and have a smoke,” said Johnnie. “I brought you some funny pictures.”

A coolness rose from the water, sharply pleasant in the warmth of the air. The surface of the water was sprinkled with a sooty dust, with chips and straws, and undulated slightly. The young man seated himself in a camp chair, leaning against the cabin wall and bracing his feet against the railing. He was lean and dark, a French-Canadian type. He took the magazines which Johnnie offered him and spread them out lazily on his knee, meanwhile looking up the green hill toward the road, or at the blackened wooden walls of the slip, or at the sunlight on the deck.

Johnnie got out his lighter and lit his cigar with ostentation.

The boy said, “Pretty swell you’re getting, Johnnie.”

Johnnie smirked, capped the tiny flame, and put the instrument back in his pocket with a great air of ownership. The boy laughed. The mail came, and they started the engine and chugged out into the Straits.

The air freshened immediately. There was a good icy nip to it in spite of the sun. Freighters were coming upstream, some with a tow, and freighters were starting downstream. The low, deep throbbing of their engines sounded across the water. A ferryboat was crossing from the Canadian Sault, and the Laurentians were blue. It was very beautiful, this scene of distant busyness, and as Johnnie looked at it, it drew him into a reverie in which it seemed that he would never again see these boats, this water, and that he should look at them well. When he awoke from this reverie his light had gone out. They were well down in Hay Lake, and the boy stood at the door of the cabin, propped inside the frame of it, where he could keep one hand on the tiller rope.

Johnnie looked ruefully at the end of his cigar, then, seeing his companion watching him, smiled, and drew the blue lighter from his pocket. The little flame blazed up, the rolled leaves of tobacco caught, and Johnnie smirked again as he put out the light. The boy grinned.

“That sure is swell, Johnnie. When you die, leave it to me, will you?”

“Take it now,” said Johnnie imperatively. “Great snakes, I bought it for you anyway. It’s a present. You’re a friend of mine. Can’t I buy you a present?”

The boy was pleased but apologetic. He took the blue lighter and fingered it lovingly from time to time, through the rest of the afternoon.

They reached Encampment at dark. The Neon let Johnnie off at the store, his store, and went on downriver to the post office. There was a light in the store, and another in the small kitchen behind it. As he approached the back door he caught a glimpse of Martha Waley, the woman who helped him with the store and kept house for him. She smiled at him over her shoulder as he came in.

“Hello, Johnnie,” she said. “Have a nice day?” and, without waiting for an answer, “Sue Tolliver just came into the store. Go on and ask her what she wants. I got supper on the stove and I don’t want to spoil it.”

He put his hat and bundle of magazines on the kitchen table and went into the front room. Behind the counter stood the little Tolliver girl, her sweater buttoned high about her neck and her straight pale hair straggling down into her eyes.

Johnnie said, “Well, little lady, what can I give you?”

She consulted a small piece of crumpled paper and said, “Matches, soap, bacon.”

“What kind of soap?” said Johnnie, setting a box of matches on the counter. It was cozy in the store with all the rows of breakfast foods, oatmeal, canned goods. A shelf of jams and pickles in glass jars behind Johnnie’s back was particularly enticing. The oil lamp stood on the glass top of the candy counter. The child shook her head at the question.

“Kitchen soap,” she suggested.

“I’ll make it Lily White,” said Johnnie. “That’s the kind your ma generally gets. Here, now, don’t go putting them things in your pockets. I’m going to wrap ’em up for you.” The child put them back on the counter sheepishly.

“Lookit,” he said. He stacked them deftly on the slab of bacon, unrolled a fair sheet of brown paper, wrapped everything, mitered the corners neatly, tied the package, spinning the string out of a wire cocoon hung overhead. “There,” he said, shoving it toward her, “ain’t that an elegant package? Anything else, little lady?”

She shook her head, smiling and mute, and edged out the door. Johnnie, also smiling, entered the purchases in a charge book and went back into the kitchen.

He did a pretty fair business in the summer, supplying the summer colony with canned goods and, now and then, fresh vegetables and fruit. In the winter there were only three other households. He dined out regularly every Sunday with one or the other of them, played endless games of solitaire, and enjoyed the hermitage. He was proud of the store. It was little and bright; and built onto the kitchen in the rear he had a little glassed-in sun parlor with cretonne curtains and wicker chairs. It was so little that the kitchen stove heated it thoroughly even in the coldest weather. From the windows he could see the river, both upstream and down, for the store was on a point.

Beside the store, in a small thicket of Indian plum, stood a guesthouse, where his housekeeper lived. Johnnie himself bunked over the store. The guesthouse was hardly bigger than a sandwich wagon. It had been a Builders’ and Roofers’ float in a trade pageant at the Soo, and was such a good job that Johnnie had bought it, cheap, and set it up on a log foundation next to the store. He built a stairway of three steps leading up to the door, and there you were.

Martha Waley was in a good mood tonight. They had a pleasant supper, and after the dishes were washed he invited her to play a game of two-handed bridge with him. But she said she was tired and wanted to go to bed. She took the lamp from the store, and he saw its light moving over the leaves and low bushes. Then she entered the house, shut the door, and the light disappeared.

He read for a while and then got out the cards for a game of solitaire. The vague feeling of misfortune which he had downed successfully from the moment when he had parted from the blue lighter returned now, rather more potent than before.

“It was a damn fool thing to do,” he argued. “Ask for trouble and you’ll get it sure enough.”

The cards were firm and smooth in his hands, and the little accurate flip and shuffle consoled him somewhat. He played the game through, his uneasiness deepening momently, but when he had gathered up the cards again, he sighed in disgust and gave himself up entirely to his gloom.

He thought of the coffin, thought of it minutely, thought of himself in it, he, Johnnie Plows, in his best suit, but without a hat, of course, lying in white satin. The image depressed him terribly, and there is no knowing how long he might have remained sunk in misery had not a grain of common sense come to his help.

“Shucks,” he said, “this is all the wrong way to go about it, planning my material hereafter instead of my spiritual.” He repeated it, “My spiritual hereafter.” Then he sighed. “Yeah,” he said, “but how do you work it?”

Phrases like “the remission of sins,” “examine your conscience,” “the way of the transgressor,” “through the eye of a needle,” came into his mind. His sins, as he remembered them, were all so long ago, when he was on the road, and “only the usual sins, anyway,” he said, finding it hard to be interested in them. The face of his wife appeared to him dimly, patient and faintly lined, a face seen through a mist, one that he might encounter in his spiritual hereafter. As for Martha Waley, he’d had nothing to do with Martha Waley. People could talk if they wanted to; it didn’t concern the problem in hand.

A clergyman, now, would know better how to go about it. But the last clergyman he remembered having talked with had been the circuit preacher, and they hadn’t talked about sin or redemption either. Or death. He had stayed for a couple of weeks in the guesthouse be fore the days of Martha Waley, and they had gone fishing.

The face of the circuit preacher grew before his eyes, a long brown face with only a few wrinkles, but those deeply incised; his eyes gray and deep-set, his eyebrows gray and tufted.

“Looked like a Rail Splitter if there ever was one,” said Johnnie.

They got up one morning at four o’clock in order to catch some bass for the judge. The judge had gone down to Chicago several weeks before, but his wife had stayed at the island with their little boy, who suffered from hay fever. It was the morning she was leaving, to rejoin the judge. They were going to send them down by her.

At four o’clock it was dark, and the river was the most curious cold expanse he’d ever laid eyes on. “That was when hot coffee tasted good,” he said. As they pulled out from the dock they saw the Great Dipper stooping over Rains’s barn. “Lookit,” said Johnnie. “By golly, you could pitch hay into it.”

The preacher smiled. “You’ve got a fancy, Johnnie,” he said. “A fancy.” They got the fish all right, a fine stringerful, but they barely made it back to the dock in time for the boat. That was before the Elva was taken off the run. There she lay, as they rowed up to the store. They were taking in the gangplank as Johnnie rushed out on the dock, waving his hands. The judge’s wife looked aghast.

“But how can I travel with a stringerful of fish!”

“Oh,” said Johnnie, “you just let the porter take care of them. Think of it! Black bass for breakfast in Chicago. I bet it tickles the judge. Here today and there tomorrow. No, I ain’t quoting Scripture.”

Captain Stewart leaned over the railing on the top deck.

“What’s this I hear, Johnnie? Sending fish out of the state without a permit?”

“Just a snack for breakfast, Captain,” said Johnnie.

The preacher hurried up with the fish then, and the last Johnnie had seen of the judge’s wife that year she was standing on the lower deck of the Elva in her city clothes, wiping her eyes with one hand and holding a string of wet fish with the other.

He missed the preacher after he left.

Then, for no reason, he remembered a very hot spring day when he was going for green onions and lettuce to Miss Hallie Rains’s. On the American side of the river the woods were wet and cold, drifts of snow still lying underneath the bushes, but on the sandy road which skirted the Canadian shore the sun was hot as if through a burning glass. He walked along the road carrying his coat, taking off his hat now and again to mop his forehead. The sunlight entered his bones, making them feel awake and limber. A fat old man, he was, feeling limber. He said to himself, “If I was a seed I’d sprout.”

On the gate to the Rains farm it said “Sea Gull Ontario Post Office.” He went around to the back yard without meeting anyone. Half a dozen white ducks with orange feet were walking about in front of the milk shed.

He heard the voices of men farther up the hill in the fields, and the voice of a woman in the kitchen, probably that of Miss Hallie. He crossed the kitchen porch that was low, almost on a level with the ground, and tapped at the screen door, his basket on his arm.

Miss Hallie made him go into the front room, while she set his basket on the kitchen table. She had been talking with her sister, Mrs. Eddie Smith, who nodded at him pleasantly and went outdoors, humming. The front room was papered with a green satin stripe, light green, dark green, and hung with crayon portraits of the family. There was a small organ. The portiere between it and the next room was made of strings of wooden beads all hanging straight and parallel to the floor, and giving the illusion of a material. Miss Hallie came in with a glass of dandelion wine and a piece of cake, warm from the oven, on a white dish. She was glad to see him. He told her all the news from the other shore as he sipped his wine. It was fine, delicately fine, and cold. A breeze from the kitchen swung the bead portiere, which rattled lightly. And there was Miss Hallie looking at him, her eyes brown and kind behind the thick lenses of her spectacles. There she was.