Читать книгу The Angel and His Witch - JR Martens - Страница 11

One evening after a rather exhausting day of looking for wedding dresses Rissy was in tears and when Johann asked her what was wrong she led him up to her room and began to undress. This was not that unusual except she generally made sure the room was dark and then slipped off her clothes and crawled under the sheets very quickly, but not this time. As always was the case when Rissy was in his life, she was highly moral and never allowed sex prior to marriage, well not intercourse. She felt that was something sacred and though she almost gave in on more than one occasion, she would stop herself and find other ways to release her sexual tension, this time she had gone further than any other time that they had been together and made sure to relieve Johann’s frustration in a myriad of ways, so though it wasn’t her norm there was nothing really thought about her undressing in the light of the room before him. He just chalked it up to her being a bit more open with him since they were now officially engaged.

Rissy lay upon the bed and looked at him, “Johann, do you think I’m fat? I’m serious. Take a good look and let me know honestly.” Johann tried to compose himself because he thought she had always been perfect and he wondered how she could think that he was not taking a good look. This was the first time he had truly seen her naked and he was becoming very visibly aroused. “Rissy, why in the world would you think you are fat? Please don’t tease me darling because I am not sure how much I can take.” Then something came out that would have shocked time immemorial, “Rissy, please put your clothes back on. I’m serious, put them back on now!” She looked at him as though he had completely lost his mind and began crying. “Johann what have I done that is so bad? I just wanted your opinion and I wanted you to look at me.” “Rissy you don’t know how difficult it is for me not to climb on top of you and take you now. I’m sorry to frighten you but I have to leave. I can’t deal with this. You are even lovelier than you felt. Apparently you are too naïve to understand how difficult it can be for a man to see you lying there and asking him to really look at you.” She hadn’t thought of that, or had she deep down? Did she secretly desire for him to lose control and take her passionately? She even wondered why she did such as undress in front of him and almost begged him to look at every inch of her. She felt bad and looked at him. “Rissy what has happened?” “Charlotte and I have been looking at wedding dresses for three months now and I can’t find one I like or it is too tight or looks like a tent.” She could not continue due to her sobbing. Johann walked over to her and picked her up and carried her to his room, over to the lounge chair and sat with her in his lap. He draped a throw over her and did nothing but hold her until she fell asleep. He then placed her in his bed and went out on the balcony with a glass of wine that he had just poured. The air was cooler that normal and he noticed that a storm was rolling in. He thought that storm would be easier to weather than the one inside his love. He looked over and she seemed to be sleeping peacefully at the moment. Johann loved sitting on the balcony and watching the people pass by below and the wind on this night made it a particularly nice experience. It gave him some time to think about what needed to be done to help Rissy find her dress. He did not understand the importance of this dress but did understand its importance to Rissy.

He never saw her get up due to being lost in his thoughts. She was standing in the doorway to the balcony with just the sheet wrapped around her and Johann was at a loss for words. “Cat got your tongue, my dear?” “You just caught me off guard, my love. I’ve been thinking about the problem with the wedding dress and think that we may need to go somewhere for awhile, relax and then start looking again. What are your thoughts?” Rissy thought for a moment. “Yes. Oh it sounds wonderful to get away and regroup. When are we going? Where are we going?” “Rissy we will be going to my home in Europe as soon as you get a passport.” “I already got one because we were talking about going to England or France for our honeymoon.” Rissy was excited. She had wanted to see where Johann had come from. Johann smiled at her. “Then we shall go tomorrow.” “Tomorrow, I haven’t even packed!” She exclaimed. “I am sure that you can pack a few items and of course Svelta and Charlotte can help you. I thought we’d make a stop on our way so that you can buy clothes over there.” “Oh Johann, that sounds so wonderful.” “I need to start packing what I need.” About that time Svelta knocked at the door. Johann gave her permission to enter. “Johann we have packed the necessary items.” He had sent Svelta a telepathic message while he and Rissy had been talking. “Svelta please let me see if you have packed what I need.” Rissy said as she headed down to her room to make sure it was done properly. As soon as Rissy left, Svelta turned to Johann. “I know it’s not really any of my business but are you sure she is ready? I mean she doesn’t remember anything.” “I’m sure it is time Svelta. She is growing restless and is upset that she cannot find what she is looking for and I know why. It’s because it’s not here, but at home.” “But Johann every bride is nervous, you ought to know that by now.” “Svelta I am well aware that she is nervous but great changes need to be made. She remembers almost nothing and for her to truly accept she needs to remember everything.” “What if she does not want the union after learning after remembering your lives together?” “Of all people you should know that I try to hide nothing, Svelta.” “I guess you’re right Johann. Randolf, Charlotte and I will make sure the house here is taken care of before we come, and I’ve already notified the staff at Mottauer Höhen to be ready for you and Rissy.” “Good. Thank you all for your assistance.” “The funny thing is Charlotte had already started getting things ready. Did you say something to her?” “No, I did not but she and Rissy have been spending a lot of time together. Maybe she saw what needed to happen; she is a smart girl.” “I do not care to debate your observations, Johann. Good night.” “Good night Svelta.” Svelta was almost knocked over by a red haired whirlwind. “Thank you Svelta and tell Charlotte thank you as well. Everything is in order.” An excited Rissy said. Svelta left and Rissy was now wide awake. “Johann, what is it like where you’re from? Can we go to Berlin?” She danced around the room not giving Johann any time to respond. He finally managed a yes to Berlin but that was all he could get in with Rissy’s ramblings. Finally she settled down a little.

“Johann you may make love to me if you desire. I will not resist.” She secretly hoped that he would but she knew that he wouldn’t. “No Rissy, I want you to be fully wanting it to happen not just because you realize that you are tempting me. You are still so innocent in many ways.”

He turned to leave and she jumped off the bed and stopped him pressing herself against him. “Johann, come lie down in the bed, I want to please you and relieve your tension and I want you to release mine. Please Johann; I want you to touch me, to kiss me like you did so many years ago. I want to feel you under me on top of me.” She waved her hand and he flew onto the bed before he could say a word. She climbed on top of him and ground her herself on his lap, not allowing entry but rubbing herself along him. She smiled and leaned down to kiss him. “Do you like this Johann? I do and if were not against my beliefs I would allow you to enter me now. How I want that, but my love I have to feel you between my legs. I want you to kiss me there. Remember how you once did without the bite. I want that.” With that said she climbed upon his face and leaned down kissing him encouraging him to kiss her where she wanted. Johann complied with her wish and she satisfied him with her kisses as well. Once she had finished she curled up to him. “I just want you to know that I feel your frustration myself and I think I secretly wanted you to take me. Thank you for putting up with my nonsense, but my love there are other ways we can relieve some of the frustration.” She winked at him and smiled. He kissed her and pulled her closer. “Rissy it took all that I had not to ravage you.” “I know darling, and I really appreciate that you were still willing to wait until I am completely ready. Only a man who truly loves me would do that I believe. Well Johann to be honest with you, others have tried and were stopped. I’m not sure I would have even tried to stop you. Please do not think ill of me.” “Rissy even if you had truly been willing and we had consummated our relationship, I would never have thought ill of you.” She sighed somehow feeling comforted by his statement and angry with herself for not giving into her desires with him. She thought of rubbing her behind against him to arouse him and then slide down on him, but decided against it and enjoyed the tingle between her legs as she fantasized about it.

Johann lay there with her for quite some time before he went to take a shower, a very cold one. She was putting out energy and he could not deal with his frustration. A tear fell out of Rissy’s eye knowing why he left and knowing that he would rather be there with her than leave but feeling that he had no choice without compromising her morals. She loved him even more for that, but she hated seeing him so frustrated. She couldn’t understand why she couldn’t let go and give in to her desires. Memories came back to her from a time when she would sneak into a tavern and up to his room wanting him, but then not being able to follow through and then to a house that she seemed to know so well and doing what she had just done a little more than an hour ago, though knowing that she was not a virgin at that time. He had still been patient with her and she wondered when she could just allow herself to give as much back to him. She wasn’t sure how she knew his feelings and responses but she was not about to question them.

She climbed out of bed dressed and went to him. “Johann, may a girl speak privately with you?” There it was again; speech that just seemed to roll off her tongue and yet foreign to her. He asked her to sit and offered her some wine which she accepted. “I just want you to know that I love you. I don’t know what to do. I feel so conflicted.” Johann rose and picked her up. Sitting down again he placed her gently in his lap. “I love you Rissy; you love me, and that’s all that matters.” He just held her close because that was more important than anything else at this time. He would have loved the physical, but to have her love was more important and he would wait a lifetime if need be. Somehow she knew this as well. If the urge hit him she would allow and not because of feeling that she had been coaxing him, but because she was ready. She hoped that they would wait, but was willing now. She did not tease but just curled up against him and whispered. “You have no idea how much I love and respect you.” She heard a whisper, “Nor do you understand how deep my love and respect for you is.” She was not going to debate him but knew it was a very deep love and respect.