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The role of intuition in my life.

A case study.

In addition to relationships with other people and our field of activity, one of the great teachers of life is our health. The human body is a marvel of evolution, but it is subject to the laws of nature: it can fall out of balance, become vulnerable and sick, and it is ephemeral.

My health has given me many lessons. I am fortunate that intuition, coupled with deep basic trust, has helped me to accept, internalize and ultimately master the lessons learned so far.

In waiting rooms and hospitals, one encounters countless people who have come there of their own accord, driven by a pressing feeling that they cannot explain to themselves. During my visits to cancer wards, I have repeatedly met people who have told me how they came to their diagnosis. Most of these conversations started with, “I just had a weird feeling there … Something just wasn’t right …”

In my case it was quite similar. Early on, I learned that even those who are in deep connection with a higher power can be fragile of health. But just how humans exploit nature, they tend to exploit themselves. I was often on a tightrope between overextending myself and spreading myself thin on the one hand and the desire to give everything of myself on the other. Nonetheless, I did take my regular checkups seriously, aware that the body is a great gift that needs to be protected.

In that context, I was supposed to have yet another endoscopy done in December 2014. Following an intuitive impulse, I postponed the appointment to mid-January 2015. During the procedure, the specialist did not see anything conspicuous; but I asked him – again following my gut feeling – whether he was able to see the stomach wall between all the skin layers. Due to my probing, the doctor then performed several different biopsies, and although I earnestly wished for a different result, I was diagnosed as having esophageal and stomach cancer.

It was a tiny tumor, the proverbial needle in a haystack. The subsequent examination revealed that the tumor was highly aggressive and therefore fast-growing. Had I gone to my checkup in December, the initial date of the appointment, the tumor would have been too small to be identified. Moreover, had I not postponed the initial appointment, the tumor would have gone unnoticed and continued to grow and spread for some time. And then it would have been too late. Now, however, it was still time, and high time, to do something. I put myself in the hands of specialists. After a twelve-hour operation, I had to be given artificial respiration while fully conscious. I stood on the threshold between death and life, between primal fear and basic trust – and opted for basic trust. In the many hours after the operation, I let go of my fear and my will. I was ready to die, yet I was also ready to live, to be needed, to give of myself. I trusted that whatever was to come would be right.

When the tube that kept me alive was removed, my primal life force seemed to have come to a standstill for a fraction of a second. Then I took a breath, and that first breath was like the beginning of a new life. At this point, I would like to express my heartfelt thanks to modern medicine and its specialists.

Yet it is also thanks to my intuition that I was able to survive the cancer: it intervened at the right time and gave me a vitally important impulse for taking action. Basically, this should not come as a surprise. The will to live or to survive is a drive that we are born with. And who, if not our own body, would be in a better place to assess the state of our own health? The body has innumerable nerve cells that can perceive the minutest change – changes that are registered by the unconscious and that seek to penetrate our consciousness. The question, then, is whether we are able and willing to perceive these impulses.

Trusting our intuition may require a lot of courage. It can save our life, even if the path to recovery is extremely difficult. Our intuition can also save the life of another human being, for example, when we, in the right place at the right time, reach out to protect a child who is lost in play from running into the street, or hold back an elderly person who is about to fall. The point is to be there when we are needed and able to give something: our strength, our love, our compassion.

As my personal history shows, intuition and trust are highly interconnected. Rather than undergoing the examination on the initially planned date, I let my inner feeling dictate the course of events.

Being able to dare something is also a part of intuition, in other words, the ability to dare to stand up to one’s own perception and to admit uncomfortable truths. This allows us to act with full trust in the universe and to regain a harmony of body, mind and soul.

With this rediscovered harmony, we can conquer new horizons, grow inwardly and be inspired by spiritual planes and divine messengers in order to act and to unfold towards our human potential in harmony with all that is.

Light in the shade – a hundred-voice chorus

of branches and twigs stretch out in search

of new heights

Extraterrestrial infinity.

Trees of enlightenment

lay the transient earthly path

for the mindful.

Gods from mystical worlds

guide the inspired

to their peace.

Heaven and earth connect

in harmony between dream and reality,

in order to be.

Linda Vera