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Pedagogy and Performance

Whatever the lesson was, it wasn’t

taking. We awaited the information

in kind of a corporate way

and I kept wanting to go up

to the whiteboard and write

FEMININE MARVELOUS AND TOUGH

and ask, Is that what you’re trying

to do.

Sometimes it’s hard to figure

out how to move. When cardinals

move, they’re as imposing as cows.

They pull pornography

from abstraction.

But let’s also look

at us a few weeks ago: a scale

model of Seattle with its gleaming

library protruding like a jewel

from a navel—

this was our best

self, not the contraption of drawers

and cranks that made our work;

not the surprisingly delicate bones

of Boba Fett, painted the same

colors as his armor; not the three

towheaded delinquents who

used the contraption in their

performance, then went home

after disparaging the audience

and showered together; not the cast

of my life filing into a wooden

amphitheater as my favorite band

started soundcheck in another

country.

How would I get there

on time, even with half my friends

rooting for me, how do I get anything

done when as late as last night

someone started yelling CARDINAL

at the sight of blood soaking my sleeve.