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“Nope.”

“Just like that—no?” Luke Tucker set down his early-morning coffee, fresh from the pot of Kat’s Kitchen. “This town needs a new police chief, Jon. Pat Willard’s let the department corrode for years. You going to sit there and take the chance one of his prodigies,” the word edged on acidic, “will slide into his shoes in September?”

Jon paused, knife and fork hovering over his open Denver sandwich, Kat’s dawn-riser special, and looked across the booth at his eldest brother. “Police work and I don’t mix.”

“Aren’t you taking this a little out of context?”

“Not as I see it.”

Luke’s mouth relaxed. “You’ve got to let go, man.”

Jon stared at his plate. The hunger grumbling in his gut dissipated. Damn. He looked forward to eating breakfast with Luke and Seth. Since he’d moved back, this was one ritual he relished, meeting with his brothers every Wednesday—hump day—for an early bite. It had started because Jon’s kitchen was a shambles. The second week they’d come because he’d needed their company. All those years away…he’d missed his brothers.

And today… Today, Seth couldn’t make the six-fifteen meet because of a job. Or, had it been a setup? Luke charming Jon into taking up the feeble torch Pat Willard would pass on?

No, Seth had too soft a heart. Especially when it involved his brothers or their alcoholic mother who still lived in the same 1920s house on the outskirts of town where they had grown up. Seth wouldn’t know an ulterior motive if it knocked him in the nose.

Nor would his little brother interfere in how Jon handled his pain.

Not like Luke. Who never wasted words or time. Good lawyer.

Jon swallowed the bite he’d been chewing before taking a sip of coffee. “I don’t need you giving me a quickie psych review on how to deal with my kid.”

“If you’re talking about your daughter, I wouldn’t dream of it. If you mean Nicky… That’s another story.”

“And none of your business.”

Hurt flickered in Luke’s eyes before he concentrated on scraping up the last of his scrambled eggs.

Jon set down his utensils with a clatter. “Look, I know what you’re trying to do, and I appreciate it. But I’ve got to find my own way with this.”

“You need to talk to somebody.” Luke held up a hand. “I know. I haven’t forgotten Seth and those school counselors. But this thing… You’re not responsible for what happened to your son, J.T.”

“Yes, I am, dammit.” At the rise of Jon’s voice, several nearby customers glanced their way. He gave them a hard look. Facing his brother, he said quietly, “Bottom line? I wasn’t there for my family. Colleen had to handle Nick’s rebelliousness alone. When I realized there were problems, I should’ve gotten off Drug Squad. But I didn’t. I liked busting down doors and grabbing bad guys too much. I wanted the rush too damn much.” He shook his head, miserable. Should’ve been there for you, Nicky.

“More coffee, boys?” a grandmotherly waitress asked. Kat, owner of the café, held a steaming carafe.

Jon shook his head, caught up in his brother’s inquisition. Caught up in memories of Nicky.

“Thanks, Kat,” Luke said and held out his cup.

Jon studied his brother. Eleven months older, he had the same rangy build as his siblings—a feature they’d inherited from their father. While Jon stood tallest at six-five, Luke didn’t seem any shorter at six-two. The man had shoulders wider than a toolshed and arms that could put a wood-framer to test. While all three brothers had received a variation of their father’s dark coloring, Luke was the only one who’d been blessed with their mother’s aesthetic, straight nose and gray eyes.

Those same eyes settled on Jon. “What?”

“How come you never married again?”

Luke looked away. “Never found the right woman.”

Ginny Keegan had been the right woman. Once. She and Luke had married in college. And divorced eight years later. Three Tuckers, three divorces. Not good odds.

“Okay,” Jon said. “Here’s the deal. I don’t ask you questions, and you butt out of my problems.”

“Circumstances are entirely different. I didn’t lose a son and blame it on my job.”

“Your job wouldn’t lose you a son,” Jon said testily.

“You think defense lawyers don’t work long hours? However, if I’d had a son—” Luke stared into his cup “—he might’ve rebelled just as well to make a point against what I stand for.”

Touché. Teenagers of men in Luke’s position were known to buckle under peer pressure. Hell, teenagers in general were considered a rebellious lot. Hadn’t he, Luke and Seth done the same once? Done whatever it took to be accepted by their pals, despite their deplorable home life?

“Look. You were a good cop, J.T.,” Luke went on. “The best. I’ve checked. You can be again.”

Jon set down his half-finished coffee, dug out some bills and tossed them on the table. “Not gonna happen. I’m setting up to make furniture for the next thirty years.”

Luke’s mouth tightened and Jon quelled a chuckle. No mistaking they were brothers. Both were face pullers when the chips toppled.

He shoved out of the booth. His house waited. “Same time next week?”

“Yeah, sure.”

He gave his brother’s shoulder an affectionate squeeze. “Take care, bud.”

Outside, he took a long breath of warm, sunny air. Living in Misty River felt damn good. It had to. Where else could he go?

Rianne turned the ignition of her Toyota again. Click.

Of course. The old thing would have the nerve to die when she was running late for the first day of work this week. Well, bemoaning the fact wouldn’t start the car either. Thank goodness Sam had gone ahead on his bike.

“What’s the matter with the car, Mom?”

Emily wasn’t so lucky. Wednesday, Thursday and Friday, the three days Rianne taught in Chinook Elementary’s library, they rode to school together. A comforting ritual after they’d moved to Misty River a year ago, when her children hadn’t established friendships yet. Then Sam met Joey Fraser who lived up the street and, for her son, going with Mom became “uncool.” But Emily still rode with Rianne.

“The battery’s probably dead, Em.” Rianne sighed. Darned old car. There goes another chunk of budget. Laughing yet, Duane?

“I thought gas made the car go,” Emily said.

Rianne patted the child’s hand, hoping to ease the disquiet she knew churned inside her daughter when things went slightly off kilter. “They both do, pooch.”

“Can you get a new one?”

“Yes, but I need to go to the Garage Center for that.”

Emily followed Rianne out of the vehicle, dark eyes big behind her glasses. “Are we gonna be late? Can I take my bike? Please? I don’t want to be late, Mom.”

“Hang on, honey.” Rianne popped the hood. “Maybe it’s something else.” Something simpler. She could hope.

Other than caked-on grime and grease, the engine appeared the same as the last time she’d seen it. Were the battery terminals more corroded? She couldn’t remember. The car was thirteen years old and, during their marriage, Duane had looked after its mechanics. How long did a battery last? Five years? Ten? The life of the car?

Why hadn’t she asked the mechanic when she’d bought new rear tires last fall?

Because you didn’t want to admit a lack of car sense to a man. Now, look where it’s got you. Late for work and Emily late for school.

She checked her watch. Eight-forty. Fifteen minutes before first bell. If they walked fast they’d make it just in time. “Get our lunches out of the car, Em. We’re walking.”

“But Mo-om, we’ll be way late.”

Rianne surveyed the engine again. “I’ll call Mrs. Sheers and tell her our problem.” Cleo Sheers was the secretary. She’d pass the message on to the principal and Beth Baker, Em’s teacher.

Emily tugged Rianne’s sleeve. “Mom,” she whispered.

“Hmm?” Looking at this mess, she knew she needed a whole new car.

“Troubles?” a low, rusty voice said.

Rianne jackknifed up, almost batting her head on the hood.

He stood by the driver’s door, hands jammed in hip pockets. She should have guessed by Em’s behavior that her big, moody neighbor hovered nearby. What did he do, keep her under surveillance?

“Good morning.” Ungrateful thoughts weren’t her style, although hot stuff appeared to be his in those worn black jeans and that snowy T-shirt. She couldn’t take her eyes off his damp hair caught in a loose tail. Like a settler, traveling the Oregon Trail in a prairie schooner.

Clipping a nod, he stepped forward and closed the hood with a flick of the wrist.

“What are you doing?”

“Driving you and your daughter to school. The battery’s done for.” He pointed his chin at the front seat. “Why don’t you get your things and I’ll start the truck.”

Not a question, a subtle command. Cops, she knew, issued directives to maintain order and stability. She, however, was not a felon nor an obnoxious bystander nor, for that matter, a wife whose independence and self-worth had been boxed into the dirt.

She was a woman standing securely on her own two feet.

About to say as much, she opened her mouth—except he was already striding for the black truck in his driveway.

“Are we going with him, Mommy?” Emily asked, pinky disappearing into the corner of her mouth.

Rianne squelched the urge to raise a fist to her dead husband. “It’s okay, sweets.” Carefully, she adjusted the girl’s glasses on her freckled nose. “We won’t be late now. Come on.” Hand in hand they stepped between the barren rose bushes and headed for the grumbling diesel truck.

Jon leaned across the seat and shoved open the door. “Give me your bag, Bo Peep.”

A timid smile crept along Emily’s mouth. In that instant, Rianne forgot her woman’s right to independence. A warmth spread from her heart outward. Jon Tucker, man of few words, had baited a smile from her little girl.

A precious, rare smile.

Emily climbed onto the high seat. While Jon strapped her in, Rianne climbed beside her. Why hadn’t she chosen slacks today or one of her loose, ankle-length skirts? No, silly woman that she was, she’d selected her favorite: black, slim and short.

The truck smelled of tools. And Jon. Over Emily’s head, Rianne caught his regard—flame-blue and intense. Her heart pinged. She faced the windshield and worked on her seat belt.

Calm down.

Five minutes of speed and silence got them to Chinook Elementary. He parked near the entrance. Children hung in clusters up and down the sidewalk. Across the playground smaller ones dashed between older students, chasing balls, playing tag. A group of boys, a few years younger than Sam, rough-housed near the gym exit.

Rianne climbed from the cab. Emily slid to the ground with a “’Bye, Mom” and drifted toward some girls skipping rope.

Jon rounded the nose of the idling truck. “Got a minute?” His gaze lingered on the skin below her hemline.

She looked toward the school doors. “If it’s quick.”

“What time are you finished?”

“I’ll get one of my colleagues to drive us home.”

“What time?”

Another take-charge man.

He’s different.

How so?

She relented. “Three, but I usually don’t get out of here until four.”

“Your daughter stays with you?”

“Yes.”

“I’ll be here at four.” He started for the driver’s side.

She went after him. “It’s not necessary. We can get home on our own.”

He stepped from the curb. Even with the added height of the sidewalk, she still had to tilt her head.

“It’s not a contest, Rianne. I’d like to pick you up after school, okay?”

His quiet “like” did it, had her tongue powerless. “Fine.”

A softness she hadn’t seen before touched his eyes. “See you then,” he said.

Without another word she walked into the school. She would not watch him drive away. Not with this warmth in her cheeks.

The day crawled. Although four different classes came into the library throughout the morning, the clock was glued to one spot for endless, interminable minutes at a time.

Midmorning she made a call to the Garage Center and requested an attendant put a new battery in her car. The house call would be an added expense but she’d manage it.

Shortly after one she received a call that her battery had been looked after—not by the attendant. By a neighbor.

She didn’t need to ask which neighbor.

The rest of the afternoon Rianne fumed.

At quarter to four, she looked through the library’s tall, wide windows. Luckily, the room took up the better portion of one corner facing the street, where she could watch who entered the grounds and who parked along the curb.

Jon arrived at five to the hour, stopping the pickup exactly where he’d dropped her off. Rianne held her breath. Would he come into the building?

He elected to wait outside his truck, leaning against it the way he had for Seth over at the high school twenty-two years ago. Long, strong legs braced, hiney affixed to the front fender, arms folded over that chest. Dark glasses masking those blue, blue eyes.

Tingles clustered deep in her belly.

Pull yourself together. The last thing you need is another man in your life—especially one who’s used to taking charge.

But he’s a good man, one you’ve never forgotten.

He’s also changed.

She didn’t know if she liked the change. Unfortunately, no matter what she told herself while she typed up a staff memo about new book arrivals, her breathing quickened and her palms dampened. Finished, she stuck the memo in tomorrow’s agenda and rose from her chair.

“Ready?” she called to Emily who was seated at a work center.

Pushing at her glasses, her daughter tossed several pencil crayons into a shoe box. “Are we riding with that guy again?”

“Mr. Tucker, Em. He does have a name.”

No comment. Emily set the shoe box on a shelf Rianne had designated specifically for student accessories. “Do you like my science title page?” her daughter asked.

Beth Baker, Em’s third-grade teacher, was doing a unit on the water cycle. Studying Emily’s work—a wreathed shape of earth, water and sky in various co-existing forms—Rianne smiled. “Great stuff, Em. Did you think this—” she traced the circle “—up yourself?”

“Uh-huh. I still have to color the rivers and lakes. See?”

“Yes, I see, and the sky, too. And the border. Don’t want any white space left.”

“No, and Mrs. Baker said we can hand it in soon’s we’re all done with the unit.” The picture went carefully into a Duotang.

Rianne shut off the library’s lights. “Let’s go home, love.”

The moment they stepped through the entrance doors, Jon came away from the truck in an expeditious move.

“Hi,” he said, voice low, quiet. The sunglasses went into a shirt pocket.

Catching his look, Rianne had the odd feeling that, conditions permitting, he might have set an intimate hand at the back of her waist. But then, he was opening the door, taking Emily’s bag. “Hey, Bo Peep. How was your day?”

“Fine.”

“No nasty ole boys snitchin’ a kiss or two?”

A tiny giggle erupted. “No-ooo! That’s yucky.”

“Good,” he said. He took Rianne’s bag as well and set both on the floorboard of the crew cab. “Wouldn’t want you running off and getting married.”

“Mr. Tucker!” Emily covered her mouth in shock, but her eyes danced behind the round-rimmed glasses.

Oh, Jon, Rianne thought. She was blindsided by his kindness, his goodness. Do you know what you’ve done?

In less than eight hours big, beard-shadowed Jon Tucker had Emily smiling. Giggling. Laughing. Emily who never tittered with a grown man. Duane had seen to that. “Can’t you read yet, Emily Rose? Can’t you add? Come on, get with the program.”

Rianne shuddered. Why hadn’t she left years ago? Because you were afraid. Afraid you’d lose custody of the kids.

No matter. She should have found the fortitude, the courage. For Em and Sam she should have—

Jon cupped her elbow with a work-roughened palm. “Rianne?”

“I can manage the step, thank you.”

“Hurry, Mom. I’m starving.”

“Hang on, short stuff. Your mom doesn’t want to rip her stockings getting in.”

“I can manage,” Rianne repeated and held his gaze until he stepped back.

Another quick, silent trip home. Jon pulled in behind her Toyota. Rianne and Emily climbed from the truck.

“’Bye, Mr. Tucker.” Her daughter ambled toward the backyard, book pack swinging from her skinny little arm.

“See you, Bo Peep.” Shoving the sunglasses onto his head, he slammed the truck’s door, then came around to Rianne, scowling.

Now what? His moods changed quick as the weather.

She said, “Bill Martins at the Garage Center said you were responsible for fixing my battery. Thank you. And for the rides.”

“That why you were ticked at the school? Because I fixed your car?”

“No.” She wasn’t about to explain Duane. “It’s been a long day, that’s all.” She dug into her purse, began writing out a check on the hood of the truck.

“What’re you doing?”

“Paying you what I would’ve paid Bill.”

Her heart fluttered when he snatched the pen out of her hand. “Forget the damned money. I didn’t do it for a reward. The battery was one I had lying around.”

Slowly, carefully, Rianne turned. “If you won’t take payment for the battery I still owe you the cost of installing it.”

“I don’t want your money, Rianne.”

For a long moment his eyes pinned her. Her heart thumped like a drum. She took back the pen. “How much?”

“Two hundred dollars.”

She choked. “Two hundred—”

Not a muscle moved in his hard face. “Take it or leave it.”

She studied her car. A used base model, bought the year she married Duane, the year she’d had Sam. Dented, decrepit, dying.

Jon remained motionless, thumbs hooked in his front pockets, feet planted. Let your eyes warm a little. Just a tad, like they did with Emily. They continued their cool scrutiny.

“Fine,” she snapped. “Two hundred.”

Where she’d get the money, she didn’t know. But she would. As sure as God made apples and pears, she would prove to Jon Tucker and every man like him that she could navigate life’s bites with the best of them.

Finished, she held out the check.

Without a glance, he stashed it in a pocket. Tilting up her chin with a knuckle, he said, “There’s nothing wrong with being a woman, Rianne. Remember that next time a man wants to help you into a vehicle.”

They’d never been this close, inches close. Black rings surrounded his irises, pools of wishes and dreams and fantasies into which she could dip her heart.

Her mouth moved, as if to speak, as if to—

He strode to the driver’s door and leapt into the cab. Full-throttle, the truck backed out of the lane. He didn’t go home. Instead, he gunned it all the way down the street.

She didn’t move. Couldn’t.

Around her silence dropped like a shackle.