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[14.10.201* 20:57:43] Amir: Hi can we talk here?

Natalie: yes, what the difference?

Amir: nothing… so you were interested in Adnan???

Natalie: oh, dońt want to touch the topic… we were so close for many months… but he every time tries to hurt me… dońt know why, it́s difficult to me to understand

Amir: hmmmmmm right

Natalie: I am not so cruel to ppl, i hope

Amir: well you are not, it’s just a part of life so leave the past and move towards future

Natalie: it is not right to speak with you about him now, so I wońt

Amir: okkkkkk as you wish… so what were you doing later? staying online right?.. can i see you?

Natalie: well, if you want, but I have wept, so dońt know how I look now :)

Amir: no problem, you always look beautiful to me

Natalie: i dońt like you to see me crying

Amir: start a video call, comeon don’t cry, i am here for you, i am with you

Natalie: a bit later, I cańt stop now

Amir: Natalie… please now… Natalie comeon… start a video call

Natalie: a bit later

Amir: please now Natalie… are you there?…

Она отправилась в ванную умыть лицо – нос и глаза были красными, припухшими от долгих слёз. Вернулась через несколько минут, уже успокоенная.

Natalie: no, I was not here

Amir: ok start video call

Natalie: a bit later, my eyes are red and nose too :)))

Amir: :( well i am crying too

Natalie: what your friends are doing now?

Amir: they are talking, i am separate here, some are going to sleep

Natalie: I also will go to sleep soon

Amir: but i wana see you so please don’t make me wait

Natalie: why dońt make you wait? wait, Íll do before I leave

Amir: :(

Natalie: didńt you listen to the Rasmus?

Amir: yes, i did, at your profile, it’s nice, and I love it, infact I will add some more videos after searching from you tube… Natalie i wana see you

Natalie: I cańt hear from here all my favorite, it́s blocked, it’s more strict here than in Estonia, I like «HOST OF LOVE», «SHOT» and «LOST and LONELY»… some others which are in my profile… like their lyrics

*** Call to Amir, duration 00:23. ***

Amir: awesome

*** Call ended ***

Amir:???????? why you stop cam?

Natalie: i am not a picture, Amir! for how long do you want to see me? :)

Amir: i love to watch you and i want to see you all time so please i wana see you

Natalie: when camera is working my music stops. When you microphone works, we can speak with web as I did with son and my parents

Amir: please please please Natalie please

Natalie: ok, what will I do? just sit? I cańt just sit and wait while you’re looking at me :) it‘s silly!

Amir: yes, i am crazy about you

Natalie: but yoúve told we are friends! :))

Amir: yes, we are friends and you are more than a friend for me, just for me and we both are friends, so now please start you webcam please

Natalie: for how long?

Amir: start, i will tell you

Natalie: tell now

Amir: till you are here, on skype, can’t wait, please

*** Call to Amir, duration 00:49. ***

Amir: i can’t breathe till i saw you… can we be more than friends, can we at least try

*** Call ended ***

Amir: i will take care of you… again

Amir: are you there???

Natalie: Amir, let́s stop for today! thank you. I cańt tell what we can and what we can’t! you see just my face, I mean, we dońt know each other really.

Amir: so let’s know each other, let’s spend some time together, let’s meet, let’s try once

Natalie: I told you already it is possible, if you can come here

Amir: ok cool, let me schedule my tour to Germany, it will take some time but not long because i can’t lose you

Natalie: you ask me too, I work here, by the way!

Amir: now please open your webcam… yes, i will not disturb your work, we can be together after your work

Natalie: I mean if you really want to come we need to discuss the time together…

Amir: sure… i wana see you and please don’t close your webcam please please please

Natalie: ok, for the last time, i will go to sleep!

*** Call to Amir, duration 00:41. ***

Amir: so tell me when can i come?

*** Call ended ***

Amir: why closed? Natalie

Natalie: I cańt type when it is open!

Amir: ok speak, don’t type but let me see you please i beg you, please

Natalie: Amir, I am going to sleep, I am tired! I am not sad anymore, thank you!

Amir: no, i need you here, with me

Natalie: at first the woman, Mary, told me I would here for three months, then another person for 3 months, then me again

Amir: well i can’t say anything about anyone, i am responsible for me, just give me a chance, i want to spend my rest of life with you

Natalie: but I would like to stay for 6 months and go to home in April. Before that we could meet… but it is all not for sure, I am here just for 3 weeks… dońt know yet the matter myself

Amir: if you are not in Germany, you will be in ESTONIA, i will come there, i can do anything, at least i will try, we can make a great and happy family – you, me and your son, a happy life

Natalie: Amir, you are in hurry again! if we meet, then we will see. Dońt tell too many words now! I dońt like it! Think: I have a son a bit younger than you! :)))

Amir: i don’t care

Natalie: but I do

Amir: why? does age matters for me? NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO, i like you and i want to spend my life with you, these words matter a lot for me… ok then i am coming

Natalie: well, let us be and stay just friends now, if it happens we meet then we will see. I dońt like to be in hurry… but in fact I want to have a baby! :)

Amir: sure, i will try to come at the end of this month

Natalie: no! not now! then we cańt spend time together! I will tell tomorrow! I feel tired now. Go to sleep! good night!

Amir: i wana see you once before leaving, just wana see your beautiful face once so i could spend my night without you

*** Call to Amir, duration 00:41. ***

Amir: good night

*** Call ended ***

Amir: you are a part of my life now, tomorrow just tell me when we can meet and i am coming

Natalie: thanks! :)

Amir: i don’t want to know anything about your past, just want to make a beautiful future with you, a happy family, our kids and a happy life.

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