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By Definition

Disentangle: To find your self when you are lost in someone else. To create enough emotional space between your self and another person so you are better able to see the realities of your situation and make healthier decisions about it. To not necessarily leave/divorce/end a relationship but rather create enough space and establish a stronger self so you can then decide what to do about the relationship in which you are entangled.

When we are emotionally overinvolved with another person, we lose our self and our way. Our thoughts become focused on that other person whether we want them to be or not. Sometimes we may justify those thoughts, believing that if we don’t worry about the other person, fix things for him or her, plan his or her life, or do what he or she asks of us, then things will just be terrible. Sometimes those thoughts become paralyzing. We feel that we can think of nothing else, that we must immediately do something to be in contact with that other person to impact his or her life (and our life, of course, though we do not necessarily see that at first). We feel awful. We are nervous, anxious, agitated. We set aside important work. We set aside important people. We set aside our self.

As the entanglements progress, we lose our way out. Our interactions with the other person become more complicated, more confusing, more frustrating, more angry. We believe that more of this same behavior on our part of trying to explain and resolve a given problem will produce the results we desire. So we continue on and on. And things get worse for all. Everyone is upset and no one is getting what they think they want. We are entangled.

Entanglements can happen in various relationships. We may be entangled with our spouse, our parents, our children, our bosses. We can become entangled with clerks in stores and telephone operators for insurance companies and other businesses. An entanglement occurs with anyone with whom we lose our centeredness in our interactions with him or her. We don’t have to be related to the person, or even know his or her name, to all of a sudden be emotionally attached to making our point, to defending our self, or to getting him or her to do something we think he or she should do. And often we can’t seem to let go of these thoughts and feelings. Our focus narrows and our blood pressure rises.

This book is about ideas on how to stop this self-destructive process of entanglement, how to retrieve our self when we are sliding into an interpersonal tangle or, worse yet, are already quite caught in its web. It describes a process for people who want to break free emotionally from relationships that are unhealthy for them. The roots of this process are based on what we have learned about people living with addiction, and I will be mentioning this relationship with addiction, one manifestation of which is alcoholism, throughout the book.

The issues that are present in relationships in which there is addiction are, however, often the same for those living in other unhealthy relationships, whether addiction is an overt factor or not. This includes people who

* are dealing with codependency;

* are adult children of people with addiction;

* love too much;

* are being emotionally or physically hurt in their relationships;

* want to fix others;

* want to get out of a relationship and can’t;

* feel they have to be in full control of everything;

* take care of others more than themselves;

* mold themselves according to how they think others want them to be;

* focus more on the external than the internal;

* are unable to say “no.”

The evolution of this book is itself a product of my own work to disentangle. It has developed as I have. What I write of in this book comes from my personal history and from my work as a psychotherapist. My personal journey brought me to these issues first, and the substance of this book would be sorely impoverished and somewhat dishonest if I did not share that history first.