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Margaret had been discovering all her life that grown-ups were disappointing conversationalists. So now that she was ten she was quite prepared to carry on a conversation by herself. That January afternoon as she walked – or sometimes, forgetting it was a crime – skipped home beside Hannah, she argued about boots.

‘I know you say and Miss Sylvia and Miss Selina say that boots are economical because they last longer but I don’t think that’s true. All the other girls at school wear shoes and they say they don’t wear out quickly and they ought to know. And what nobody understands is what wearing boots does to me – they humiliate my legs. If I wasn’t me but a different person they would humiliate me all over, but not even boots can do that. I am Margaret Thursday and unhumiliatable.’

Hannah, her mind worrying round like a squirrel in a cage, had not been listening to a word Margaret said. Now she pulled her to a halt in a shop doorway.

‘Let’s have a look at you, dear. You are to have tea with the rector.’

Hannah was a bony woman, made bonier by wearing long stiff all-embracing corsets which creaked. She had worked for Miss Sylvia and Miss Selina Cameron most of her life, having first come to the house when she was thirteen as a between maid. She had sobbed herself sick before she went, much to her mother’s annoyance.

‘Give over, do,’ she had said. ‘What have you to cry about with everything so nice?’

The ‘everything’ had been packed in Hannah’s wicker basket, material provided by Mrs Cameron but sewn by Hannah and her mother. Such riches! Print dresses, black dresses for the afternoon, aprons, caps and, of course, an outfit for church on Sundays.

The Camerons had been kind to her, which was why Hannah had stayed with the family. There had been periods when she had got so far as walking out with one or other of the menservants, but things had happened. First, Mr Cameron had died. Mrs Cameron was the helpless type and she had clung to Hannah, who had by then risen to being parlourmaid, as though to a rock. For some reason, which Hannah had never understood, after Mr Cameron’s death there was less and less money. Slowly, changes had to be made. Not at once but over the years. First the menservants, then the cook and her assistants were given notice, until finally – except for a man once a week for the garden – there was only Hannah.

When Hannah had first come to work for the Camerons, Miss Sylvia had been twenty and Miss Selina eighteen. In those days they had been known as ‘Those pretty Cameron girls’. Now Hannah was over sixty, so Miss Sylvia was over seventy and Miss Selina rising seventy, and they were known as ‘The old Cameron ladies’.

Hannah had, almost since she was a baby, carefully taught Margaret how to be a good housewife. Her efforts had little effect for Margaret loathed dusting, polishing and sweeping, and as for laundry she just would not try. But Hannah’s efforts were not altogether a failure for she had taught Margaret to cook. Often Hannah found herself so tired at the end of the day she could scarcely drag herself up to bed, but it had never crossed her mind to give in her notice. Miss Sylvia, always the delicate one, was getting very frail, and poor Miss Selina ever so hazy in her mind. Anyway, Saltmarsh House, where they lived, was her home. She could not imagine living anywhere else.

Now Hannah’s bony, work-roughened fingers attempted to tidy Margaret’s hair. This was chestnut-coloured and very curly, so not at all easy to control.

Margaret tried to wriggle out of Hannah’s reach. She loved the rector but was surprised to be going to tea with him, for he was not the sort of man to give sudden invitations.

‘Why am I going to tea with the rector?’ she asked, still trying to pull away from Hannah. ‘Please leave my hair alone, you know the rector isn’t the sort of person who cares how people look.’

‘Tidiness shows respect,’ said Hannah. She stood away from Margaret to see the whole effect. Margaret was dressed as simply-brought-up children were dressed in the winter at the beginning of the century. A blue pleated skirt, a darker blue jersey and a red coat. On her head was a red tam-o’-shanter. On her legs black woollen stockings and the boots.

Hannah sighed, conscious that all Margaret’s clothes were darned and could do with a sponge.

‘I suppose you’ll have to do, but if only we’d had warning you could have worn your Sunday green.’

‘Thank goodness you didn’t know,’ said Margaret, ‘because I hate wearing my green for you’ve patched the elbows with stuff that doesn’t match.’

Hannah gave her a sad smile.

‘Beggars can’t be choosers. Come on or I’ll be late getting my ladies’ tea.’

Margaret liked going to the rectory for Mr Hanslow, the rector, was, excluding Hannah, her greatest friend. The rectory could have been a beautiful house, but the rector was very poor so both it and his garden were neglected. He was looked after by a Mr and Mrs Price who lived in a cottage down the road. Mr Price was really the verger, but he managed to combine his church work with a bit of gardening and cutting wood for the rector. Mrs Price cooked abominably and did what little housework was done.

Margaret never rang the rectory bell, she just opened the front door and shouted.

‘Can I come in? It’s me – Margaret.’

The study door opened and the rector came smiling into the passage. He gave Margaret a kiss.

‘There you are, my pet. Come in. Mrs Price has made toast for our tea.’

Over burnt toast and stewed tea, Margaret chattered away as usual, bringing the rector up to date with home and school news. Then, when Mrs Price had cleared away the tea things, she stuck out her legs.

‘Do you think you could speak to Miss Sylvia about these boots? Truly nobody wears boots any more. All the girls at school have laced-up shoes.’

Mr Hanslow did not look at the boots but straight into Margaret’s eyes.

‘I have always thought you were a sensible child, which is why I have asked you here today to discuss your future.’

Margaret was surprised. What future? Nothing ever changed in Saltmarsh House. It must, she decided, be something to do with the little school for the daughters of gentlemen which she attended.

‘Is it about school?’

‘That is one of the things we have to talk about,’ said the rector. ‘You remember, of course, the details of how you came to live here.’

Margaret was proud of her history.

‘Of course I do. One Thursday you found me on the steps of the church when I was a teeny-weeny baby. And with me in my basket there were three of everything, all of the very best quality.’

‘And a note,’ the rector reminded her.

‘Oh yes. Printed so no one would know who had written it. It said: THIS IS MARGARET WHOM I ENTRUST TO YOUR CARE. EACH YEAR FIFTY-TWO POUNDS WILL BE SENT FOR HER KEEP AND SCHOOLING. SHE HAS NOT YET BEEN CHRISTENED.’

The rector nodded, smiling at the memory.

‘You were a beautiful baby and if screams were anything to go by you certainly got the devil out of you at your christening. I would have dearly loved to take you in, but Mrs Price could not sleep in and an old bachelor did not seem a suitable guardian for you, so …’

‘So,’ Margaret prompted him, for she thought he was being rather slow telling the well-known story, ‘you asked the Miss Camerons to have me as they were the only people hereabouts with a big enough house and they said “yes”.’

‘God bless them,’ said the rector, ‘for there was no one else in the parish suitable and it did work out very nicely, but now things have gone wrong. This Christmas no money arrived for your keep.’

‘No money!’ Margaret gasped, for always the money had arrived with the utmost regularity. It came each year between Christmas Eve and New Year’s Day. It was put in a bag somewhere in the church – fifty-two golden sovereigns. The bag was never found in the same place twice and no one had ever seen the money arrive. ‘Do you think it came and someone stole it?’

The rector took a card out of his breast pocket and passed it to Margaret.

‘This was found in the font.’

Like the card which had come with her when she was a baby, this one was printed. It said ‘NO MORE MONEY FOR MARGARET’.

Margaret was shocked.

‘How very mean! You would think a mother would manage something. Have you told Miss Sylvia and Miss Selina?’

The rector hesitated.

‘Really this card has hastened something which had got to happen sooner or later. Miss Selina is getting very old.’

Margaret giggled.

‘She’s getting more and more like a baby every day. Now Hannah has to dress her and undress her.’

‘Very sad,’ said the rector, ‘but it is also very worrying. You see, with the old ladies needing so much attention, Hannah has too much to do. It has broken her heart to admit this but it is true. So even before Christmas I had agreed to find you a new home.’

Margaret felt like Alice must have felt as she fell down the rabbit hole. A new home! But Saltmarsh House was her home, her only home. How could she be going to a new one – children never did that.

‘I suppose you didn’t know,’ she said, ‘but I help Hannah. Often and often I cook the supper and I do lots of other things – not as well as I cook, but I do them.’

The rector took one of Margaret’s hands.

‘It is not a question of helping in the house, it’s everything. The two old ladies are all Hannah can manage. She admitted this before Christmas and we discussed plans, thinking you still had an income of fifty-two pounds a year. But now the situation has changed. The Miss Camerons are, as you know, very far from rich, and now you have no money …’ The rector broke off, looking at Margaret with great love but also with a childlike confusion.

The rector’s worried face pulled Margaret together.

‘If I still had fifty-two pounds a year where were you going to send me?’

‘Nothing was decided, but we had thought of a boarding school.’

‘Well, I’m glad I haven’t got the money for that for I’d hate it. Couldn’t I live with you? I could do all the things Mrs Price does and I’d work in the garden as well as I’d eat very little.’

The rector looked more worried than ever.

‘I thought of that, but Mrs Price refused to consider it. She is a great sufferer with bad legs and …’

Margaret had her own opinion about Mrs Price’s bad legs, which she thought were used as an excuse not to work.

‘Well, send her away. I can look after both of us – truly I can.’

The rector gave a little groan.

‘It can’t be done, pet. You see, there’s Mr Price. He doesn’t really charge me, as you know, he throws me in, as it were, with his position of verger. But I did speak to the archdeacon about you, asking his opinion as to whether you could possibly live here. But he said he thought an old bachelor like myself was a most unsuitable guardian for a little girl.’

Margaret made a face.

‘How silly of the archdeacon. Well, if I’m not staying at Saltmarsh House and I’m not staying here, where am I going?’

The rector had spent many hours on his knees asking God for advice and help in handling this interview. He was convinced help and advice would be given to him if only he was spiritually able to receive it. Now, with Margaret’s brown eyes gazing up at him, he felt painfully inadequate and ashamed. Why was he so ineffectual a man that he had not risen in the world so that he had the wherewithal to succour children such as Margaret?

‘I’m afraid, pet, you are not going to care for either of the two solutions I have to offer. You are, I know, a brave child, but now you will need all your fortitude.’

Margaret stiffened to take what was coming.

‘Whatever it is,’ she said, ‘I’m still me – Margaret Thursday. Go on, tell me.’

Since Margaret had no surname it was the rector who had chosen Thursday, the day on which he had found her. He thought it touching that she was so proud of it.

‘I have, of course, tried everywhere to find you a home in this parish. I have succeeded in only one case. Your school. I know you do not much care for your teacher, but though perhaps she has a difficult nature she is a good Christian woman.’

‘I have never seen anything very Christian about her,’ said Margaret. ‘I think she’s hateful.’

The rector shook his head.

‘You must not make such harsh judgements, pet, especially now that she is trying to help. She has offered you a home in the school. Her suggestion is that you should do schoolwork in the mornings and housework in the afternoons and …’

But there the rector stopped for Margaret, her eyes flashing, had jumped to her feet.

‘I’d never live there, I’d rather die. You should see that poor Martha who works there now. I think she beats her and there are black beetles in the kitchen. Anyway, do you think I’d be a maid in my own school where, whatever anybody else thinks, I know I’m not just as good as anybody else but a lot better? Remember I came with three of everything and of the very best quality.’

The rector screwed himself up to tell Margaret his alternative suggestion.

‘The archdeacon has told me of an institution of which his brother is a governor. It is an orphanage, but an exceptionally pleasant place, I understand. He has offered to speak to his brother about you.’

Margaret swallowed hard, determined not to cry.

‘Where is it?’

‘Staffordshire.’

Margaret tried to recall the globe in the school classroom. She was now in Essex, surely Staffordshire was miles away.

‘Near Scotland?’ she suggested.

‘Oh, not so far as that. The orphanage is near a town called Wolverhampton. I do not know it myself.’

Margaret was so dispirited her voice was a whisper.

‘Would they take me for nothing?’

‘Yes.’

‘And I would be treated like all the other girls?’

‘Girls and boys – orphanages take both.’

Margaret gulped hard but she would not cry.

‘Then that’s where I’ll go. If I can’t stay here I’d rather go to a place where I am treated as a proper person.’