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Sobriety often brings us effects we never expected, like becoming the person we used to resent. ~The Pocket Sponsor

Yes, many of us probably resented those people who lived decent lives. Sometimes we pretended we were living decent lives ourselves, but almost certainly we felt deep down inside that we were fakes. Other times we thought of ourselves as rebels or eccentrics, and we laughed at the straight world. But again, “me thinks he doth protest too much” because our higher self knew we were only acting the part, and we did a darn poor job of acting, as well. There always was an element in us that wanted to be reputable, creditable, and respectable. We may come into recovery to stop using mind-affecting chemicals, but we gain much more than that. We become the person we said we resented.

If I don’t change, I will use.

If I don’t use, I will change.

A change has taken place, one so fundamental that it will not yield to pain, doubt, or denial. Whether one likes it or not, the change in self is here to stay.

∼Chemically Dependent Anonymous P 79