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“Son, we want to see a grandkid!”, “dear, I want a baby!”. Heard it yet? Tell them to chill off. Right now! Fatherhood is the only one thing in your life that will have no “undo” button. Everything else can be fixed and rebuilt (even from a scratch if needed). Having a kid is the only thing that is a solid before-after split of your life. And at the same time, it is a huge boost of everything: you have happiness – it will be multiplied tenfold, but if you have some unsolved issues – those will be multiplied hundred times as well. Allow someone or something to rush you into fatherhood ahead of your own time – you will open Pandora’s box that no one including yourself will be able to close.

I can’t stress enough the message – if you’re in a slightest doubt, don’t even think about becoming a father. Important to note that a showstopper “doubt” is not the one about your readiness or skills (we all have those and clearing them one by one just by going through them), but the doubt in your wish to be a father and some key elements. I will clarify those “key elements” later in a separate chapter (and suggest some not-a-rocket-science checklist to verify your doubts might be valid), but for now let me just show you what can and will go wrong if you won’t listen to yourself.

There is quantifiable number of “went bad” type of scenarios and even smaller number of those, where everyone is happy ever after. I am going to list only those I saw really close in my family as well is in many alternative yet similar variations among my friends.

Scenario/story 1. I love my older brother. He is from the 1st marriage of my dad. My brother is awesome – smart, handsome and super-sporty. The only difference between myself and him (except moms) is the fact our dad was there for me in my childhood and was not there for him. And that was the thing that set our lives on completely separate trajectories. But what is important here – is my dad’s perspective though. He regrets and will regret till the end of his life that he could not do for my brother everything than he has done for me. He made a hard choice to build a new life and a new family but remember there is no “undo” button. My father is living with this now. And it is hard.

Scenario/story 2. Another relative from an older generation and his two kids. His marriage turned into living hell for reasons I really do not know. What I do know is that he, driven by the same absence of “undo” button, stayed in the family and made sure he lived for the kids. The result is arguably worse than in case of my dad. What he got is regrets of life went by, while he tolerated rather enjoyed it. Worst part is that the kids absorbed the model as “normal”. They had nothing better to absorb. That father made a hard choice to stay and lives with this now. And it is hard.

Scenario 3 (and hopefully the story for you and me). The only viable way to be a good father – is to be a happy father. It becomes possible if you ensure and prove it to yourself that you are happy and content before you take a no-undo step into fatherhood.

I was planning to write this book for a long time. With the idea to give a chance to my own kids to not repeat mistakes I did. Noble cause, isn’t it? But when I came to writing it hit me again: a) how the hell I tell the story if my very own (very smart!) dad was trying to convey the very same message to me and failed? b) how I can make it less emotional, but rational? c) where do I even start?

So, I let my mathematics and technical background to take over: define few things upfront, bring a hypothesis that I believe in (and currently testing), build a step-by-step evidence. You are more than welcome to find a flaw in every piece of the content below, disagree with me and suggest a better way – I am more than keen to listen and to improve both – the book and my own life.

Brief overview what is coming:

1. Father’s mission: in Darwin’s view and contemporary situation;

2. Growing up to it: what are the things should be in place to start addressing the mission;

3. Perfect match: minimum and required conditions to predict if your spouse is the one;

4. Keeping your freedom: building loosely coupled plan for what comes after.