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Have patience with everything unresolved in your heart and try to love the questions themselves as if they were locked rooms or books written in a very foreign language. Don’t search for the answers, which could not be given to you now, because you would not be able to live them. And the point is, to live everything. Live the questions now. Perhaps then, someday far in the future, you will gradually, without even noticing it, live your way into the answer.

—Ranier Maria Rilke, Letters to a Young Poet, July 16, 1903

I feel tied to this life. Bound by decisions I never made, decided by people I have never met. Greeted with an outcome, beginning with an end, I am struggling to free myself of an upbringing I did not choose. Instead of looking at the world through the privileged eyes of an American, I want to broaden my vision and see life through a non-Western perspective. I want to discover for myself and break free from a worldview that I don’t believe. I want to be cut down, sliced up, bashed and thrown this way and that . . . then rebuild myself into a shape that I dictate on my own terms, incorporating new meanings into my world. Until then, I am living someone else’s decisions, thoughts and beliefs. I am ready to start living on my own.

—Journal entry, November 2001