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Every woman fears that moment of the dreaded tears when having a difficult conversation. I would say to myself, Please don’t cry, please don’t cry, as I headed into a meeting. At the highest level of my career, I was working around men almost exclusively. I was the only woman at the boardroom table, and all the executives around me were men. I’d go into a meeting knowing that I had to have a difficult conversation. I was always trying to figure out how to express it in ways that I felt would be acceptable to others. Then I would cry!

The men would look at me with puzzled faces. They didn’t know what to do. Some would offer tissue and say, “It’s okay, it’s okay.” But you could see on their faces that they were judging me in exactly the ways I feared. You could read the judgment on their faces: She’s too emotional. She can’t control herself.

But the reason why you are crying has nothing to do with being too emotional or not being able to control your emotions. The problem is that you’re not living within your full sense of worthiness. And when you do not feel fully worthy, you do not speak out for what you want or stand up for what you deserve. When you continue to hold this below the surface, your emotions bubble up and run over, not because of what is happening in the moment but from not standing up for yourself over a long period of time.