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FEBRUARY 8

GRIEF

EMOTIONAL BALANCE

“Waste not fresh tears on old griefs.”

Alexander the Great

Grief can be frustrating, sad, draining, and painful. At times it feels as though I don’t even know myself when I’m in grief. Pain recovery requires walking through all sorts of feelings, the most severe of which is grief. I grieve the loss of my medications. I grieve the loss of my pain as an excuse for my behavior. Being in recovery, and in grief, I may not even recognize my behavior as a reaction to feelings I may never have had to feel before, when they were masked with drugs.

Grief over the loss of a person may be a little easier to identify than grief over a lost behavior, place, or manner of being, but each may be equally painful. Grief may be mixed with many other feelings—anger, sadness, fear, self-pity…all of these feelings may cycle and repeat until finally, I begin to feel forgiveness, and that’s when I think I can love again.

I have learned that experiencing my feelings and accepting them has allowed me to move through them. I don’t need to waste “fresh tears on old griefs.” I feel my feelings and accept them as they are today.