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FEBRUARY 15

FORGIVENESS

EMOTIONAL BALANCE

“To hold on to resentments or grudges without forgiveness hurts only the one who holds them.”

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Sometimes it’s hard to accept my chronic pain. Sometimes I actually blame myself for my pain; I need to forgive myself for feeling the pain I sometimes feel.

It’s as if, in my dreams, I envisioned having a child who would play ball, run, and climb, but instead I have one who cannot do such things. Would I judge such a child harshly for what he or she couldn’t do, or would I celebrate and praise him or her for the things that he or she could accomplish? Part of physical forgiveness is finding, creating, and maintaining habits that are within the bounds of what my body can do, and doing those things as a way to show forgiveness toward myself. If the things I can do today are not the things I was able to do in the past, so be it. I forgive myself for my disabilities today, and celebrate my abilities with gratitude.

I love myself enough today, the way I would a small child. I forgive my broken body and ask it to forgive me for all the times I haven’t taken care of it as well as I could have. Today, I do what I can, and I am grateful. I take care of my body today, as I would a small child.