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I am a very simple man, with no formal education or fortune on which to fall back.

However, I am lucky, I know I am incredibly lucky.

I was a toddler when my beloved paternal grandmother took me in, right after my parents got a very acrimonious divorce following my little brother’s death in tragic circumstances at the age of two.

The few short years that I was blessed to live with my Nanna were to be essential in the formation of my character.

Staying with her, I could learn the basics of discipline and commitment from someone that could practice them, against all odds, on a daily basis.

Nevertheless, staying with my Granny was the good part of this saga and it only lasted about three or four years.

Once my dad remarried, he took me away from my safe haven and, not long after, things got really difficult for me as my relationship with his new wife was far from ideal. A few years later I ended up departing and going to live on the streets for quite some time, stealing to get whatever food I could and sleeping rough.

Although the streets were tough, and I was sexually abused at the age of nine and having been exposed to crime, drugs and the like, I was blessed to, somehow, walk away from it all. And the deep scars of my difficult childhood are slowly but surely finally being healed.

Looking back at my early life, I can see now that I always felt as if I was searching for someone, although I did not know whom that someone was.

The feeling that I was going to meet with somebody that would change the rules of the game was always with me, but the elusive person I was meant to encounter was nowhere to be found at that stage.

Eventually, after a very difficult period living on the streets of Montevideo, I was sent by my dad to Buenos Aires, the capital of Argentina, where my mum lived with her new husband and their children.

Because everything was new, and I was lucky to have a home for the first time in a long while, I felt alright for a period of time, but changing countries did not alleviated the pain I experienced by missing my Nanna, my little brother and the environment I was used to from birth.

However, after a long search, one blessed day I found Cristina, when I was fifteen and she was thirteen, and my good fortune was sealed forever.

Together we have been to the gates of hell a few times, and together, always holding each other’s hand, we were able to walk away every time.

“Get old by my side,” she proposed to me once. And here we are, getting old and holding each other when things get a bit too much.

Our first encounter was a magic meet made in Heaven, and from the very beginning we were told, in many different ways, that we had something to do and that one day we would know what it was.

To say that our life together has been complicated would be a severe understatement, but it has been a wonderful path that we have walked jointly.

Our love for each other has never wavered or diminished, even when things got really tough, especially when our little daughter Mercedes became severely ill and then died when she was only four years old.

Much later we were able to understand that all of the pain that we went through was a learning curve that we had to tread in order to be able to do what we do today.

However, that peculiar feeling of still being unable to find that special being that I felt I was meant to meet, never left me.

For me, the encounters with Celestial Beings started happening from an early age and, thankfully, they have never stopped.

I always had a natural tendency towards the quieter side of life, and a timely encounter with Lord Krishna, when I was about seventeen, gave me a much-needed direction in life and brought meditation and yoga into my existence.

That was a new beginning for me, as it introduced me into the magical world of Angels and other Heavenly Presences.

But again, I was still searching for someone.

All of the above happened while Cristina and I were getting to know each other and learning about a hidden world that most people thought it was a fantasy.

But it wasn’t a fantasy for us. It was quite real.

We got married and moved to Australia and kept making plans for our future together, one day, somewhere in Europe.

Our beautiful son Nicolas was born in 1991 and his arrival, soon after Cristina’s dad passed away, gave us the strength we needed to carry on, as at that time we encountered many difficulties in our daily life.

It was clear that we could not participate in society the way most people do it.

We did try, time and again, to be part of the new reality we were facing, but it just wasn’t to be.

I mean, we tried to fit into a world that made no sense to us, but we kept trying until it became clear that the world and us did not harmonize.

Our beautiful little daughter Mercedes was born in 1994, and then we felt that a cosmic circle had closed, and that everything would be alright.

We didn’t have a religious upbringing as such. However, we knew, deep in our hearts, that God was real, although, for us, He was still a man sitting in Heaven, patting down His long white beard while watching and judging our every move.

And then one day, society made its move into our lives and Mercedes, at the early age of three months, was given a vaccine that made her sick, very sick.

I was not in favour of vaccines or any other medical treatment for that matter, but we lived in a culture that said that if you did not have your shots when the health experts said you should, you were a menace to society and your life was going to get complicated.

So, we accepted for her to be vaccinated.

The deal with the social order is that, as long as you do what you are told without questioning it, you pay your taxes and keep quiet, in time, that very society, through the wisdom of the ruling classes, supported by a group of spineless politicians and other obedient servants, would take care of your wellbeing.

However, it does not always work out that way.

You see, the whole of civilization bases its wisdom on something that someone has concluded after having read a lot, many books, written by someone that also read it, whatever it might be, in a book.

But life is not like that.

In Australia, when you take your child to a hospital, doctors will tell you that you are the one that knows them best, because you are their parent, and that makes you feel secure, as you are now in good hands and you would be sheltered from any harm.

However, if things get complicated and your child becomes ill because one of the doctors has made a “silly mistake”, automatically, as per a magic spell, everything changes, and out of nowhere you become just an ignorant carpenter, or whatever you might have chosen to do to make a living, and your child has turn out to be sick because he or she have not responded to the medical treatment, plain and simple.

So, whatever the “ailment” might be, it is the child’s fault for not doing what they were told.

Well, that is what happened to us, and I am the ignorant carpenter of the tale.

Hospitals and medicine in general are very important, and Australia has, through the years, become a significant part of that reality.

The doctors I am referring to are, I am sure, good professionals, and they get to help a lot of people; but they are human, and we should not brand them superhumans just because they went to medical school and they are now able to pronounce difficult words and to have a funny way of writing unreadable prescriptions.

They can make mistakes like anyone else, and they do, from time to time.

Well, in our case, they made a big mistake, and they could not handle their blunder with the dignity the matter deserved.

Cristina and I went through some very hard times watching our darling little daughter going into a coma more than once, but at the same time, even when we could not see it clearly back then, we were receiving a great opportunity to learn a few lessons in life, and now we can see that the doctors and their mistakes took us directly to the Lotus Feet of the Great Avatar.

So, we are really grateful for that. But at first it was confusing, and very painful.

At the same time, we never lost hope that someone, somewhere, was doing all of this, and it was done for our benefit.

Because, throughout all of this, I was still looking for that special being and, although I could not find them, I was able to feel their presence at every turn.

It was Mercedes, and her short and complicated life, who took us to India to finally meet face to face that elusive Being I had waited, who knows how long, to meet.

As soon as we got really desperate, because the answers we were getting from the system we still trusted would not satisfy our needs, we were able to realize that the real answers were inside us, hidden behind the subtle veil of our egos. However, going into one’s inner being can be compared to walking into the unknown, and that is something we have been told we should never do.

At the same time, my meditations were giving me the assurance that, if I were to let go of any fear, we would be able to find the answers we were looking for.

I started to have some wonderful dreams in which I was given very profound teachings that, bit by bit, began to help me rid myself of some deep-rooted dreads that had gotten into me, many generations ago.

Very slowly, I began to see that without letting go of those fears, I was not going to be able to see the Light.

The whole process took many years to establish itself, but at least I was starting to remove the veil of illusion from my eyes.

Once I could free myself from so much unconscious distress, the new information could find its place within my conscious mind and I would be able, together with Cristina, to start investigating a seemingly new truth.

Years later, I could see that what I thought was a new reality, wasn’t new at all.

The ancient teachings of the Great Masters are not new.

The fact that our minds have been occupied with so much rubbish, for so long, was causing the confusion. And because we were so perplexed, we couldn’t see the Light that was our very nature.

I am sure what I am describing has happened to many people, and that is one of the reasons why I am writing about it.

Our main aim by living the way we live is to come to the rescue of those souls that might be feeling something similar to what we were feeling back then, and they do not know what to do, the same way we didn’t.

Opening our hearts to something seemingly so far beyond the limits that society had imposed to simple people like us was a difficult task at first. But as soon as we decided to jump with both feet into the unknown, we started to get help from many different sources, starting with Sri Sathya Sai Baba Himself.

And this is then, how we started to walk the walk.

The road ahead can be very scary at first, but once we understand that we would never walk alone, things get a lot easier.

So, to illustrate a bit what I am referring to, I will now relate a few real stories and dreams I had through the years.

What I’m going to reveal first to you is a dream given to me by my Beloved Guru a few years ago.

I have been blessed with dozens of dreams, but this is one of the most important ones I have ever received.

In the dream, my Swami, Sri Sathya Sai Baba, appeared as He always does in my visions, young, vital and so beautiful that it is impossible to describe him.

He spoked to me thus;

“TODAY WE’RE GOING TO TALK ABOUT FAITH.

YOU KNOW? TRUE FAITH IS NOT SOMETHING THAT SHOULD BE USED TO DECEIVE OTHERS.

IT IS NOT A SHROUD THAT MAN CAN WEAR TO HIDE HIS OWN SHORTCOMINGS.

FAITH IS THE BEGINNING AND THE END OF THE SACRED RELATIONSHIP BETWEEN MAN, IN HIS ROLE AS A PILGRIM, AND HIS CREATOR.

THROUGH ALL YOUR INCARNATIONS YOU HAVE SHOWN ME A VERY STRONG FAITH, BUT TODAY, BEING A VERY SPECIAL DAY, I WANT YOU TO SHOW ME YOUR TRUE FAITH, THE UNSHAKABLE FAITH. THE KIND OF FAITH THAT WOULD FORCE GOD TO CHANGE HIS DIVINE RESOLVE.

IF YOU ARE ABLE TO DEMONSTRATE THAT KIND OF FAITH, I WILL GIVE YOU THE KEY THAT OPENS ALL THE DOORS OF ALL THE COFFERS THAT CONTAIN ALL THE TREASURES OF THE UNIVERSE.

WITH THIS KEY, YOU WILL HAVE UNLIMITED ACCESS TO MY GRACE AND THAT WILL ALLOW YOU TO COMPLETE YOUR MISSION BEFORE YOU DISEMBODY FOR THE LAST TIME.”

At that moment, behind my beloved Master, the most magnificent and enormous mountains appeared. They were of the kind of immensity that no man could conceive.

“I WANT YOU TO FIND ME ON THE OTHER SIDE OF THIS MOUNTAIN, AND I’LL GIVE YOU THE KEY,” He said.

“But, Divine Guru, this is huge. It’s going to take me months to climb something so big,” I said.

“I DON’T WANT YOU TO CLIMB, I WANT YOU TO FLY OVER THE MOUNTAIN. YOU KNOW HOW TO FLY; IT WILL ONLY TAKE YOU A FEW MINUTES TO DO IT. I WILL WAIT FOR YOU ON THE OTHER SIDE.”

And He vanished.

Since He had told me that I was able to fly, that I know how to do it, I knew I could do it, and I did it.

But as soon as I was on the other side of the mountain, I could see that He was not going to give me my key. The mischievous look in His Divine Face showed it clearly.

“Give me my key, please my Lord,” I said.

“NO, I HAVE CHANGED MY MIND. I WILL WAIT FOR YOU ON THE OTHER SIDE OF THE MOUNTAIN AND I WILL GIVE YOU YOUR KEY THERE.”

“Venerated Master, I don’t want to fly again at all, the effort was strenuous, and the disappointment was very painful. Please give me my key.”

“IT’S TRUE. THESE ARE THE MIGHTY HIMALAYAS, AND I KNOW YOU’RE TIRED, BUT THIS TIME I WANT YOU TO DISINTEGRATE MOLECULARLY YOUR PHYSICAL BODY AND TO PASS THROUGH THE MOUNTAIN. IN SOME OF YOUR PAST LIVES YOU WERE A GREAT ALCHEMIST, SO THIS SHOULDN’T GIVE YOU MUCH TROUBLE TO DO. I WILL WAIT FOR YOU ON THE OTHER SIDE AND I WILL GIVE YOU YOUR KEY.”

That was what I did. From the very moment He said I could do it, that became my reality and I was able to follow His Divine Command without a hitch. But then, when I got to the other side and saw His cheeky smile, I knew that He wouldn’t give me my key.

“Give it to me, please, Venerated.”

“ALL RIGHT, I WILL GIVE IT TO YOU, BUT FIRST I WANT YOU TO SHOW ME YOUR FAITH.”

“But I just did. You’re cheating on me.”

“NO. WHAT YOU JUST DID WAS TO DISPLAY YOUR MASTERY. CONGRATULATIONS, YOU ARE A MASTER. BUT ANY MAN CAN LEARN HOW TO FLY, OR HOW TO CONTROL THE ELEMENTS. THERE IS NO REAL MERIT IN THAT.

WHAT I WANT IS FOR YOU TO SHOW ME THE KIND OF FAITH THAT MOVES MOUNTAINS AND THAT, WELL, THAT IS NOT AN EASY TASK.

HOWEVER, IF YOU ARE ABLE TO DO IT, YOU WILL RECEIVE YOUR COSMIC KEY, AND THAT KEY IS SOMETHING THAT MILLIONS OF GENERATIONS OF MEN AND WOMEN HAVE EMBODIED COUNTLESS TIMES TO ACHIEVE.

YOU’RE ABOUT TO ATTAIN THE GLORY THAT WOULD MAKE THE GODS OF THE HIGHEST HEAVEN TURN GREEN WITH ENVY, BUT FIRST YOU MUST SHOW ME YOUR FAITH.

TELL THE MOUNTAIN TO MOVE SO YOU CAN WALK ACROSS THE FIELD TO THE OTHER SIDE WHERE I WILL BE WAITING FOR YOU. AND THIS TIME, I WILL GIVE YOU YOUR KEY.”

Five times I tried really hard to convince the mountain that it should move to pave my way to Divine Glory. And five times I failed.

You see, huge mountains don’t understand selfish reasons. They’re stubborn and they are very heavy and powerful. They have no fear, and no silly pretexts would make them move.

So, in desperation, I decided to talk to my Heavenly Father again, but this time I turned to Her Aspect of The Cosmic Mother, The Very Incarnation of Compassion.

“Divine Mother,” I said, “I have failed in my attempt to move the mountain with my faith. I don’t have enough self-confidence, and that hurts me deeply. I humbly appeal to your Infinite Love and Compassion. Please tell me where I have failed.”

“MY BELOVED CHILD, YOU HAVE FAILED BECAUSE YOU WANTED TO MOVE THE MOUNTAIN YOURSELF, AND THAT, NO MAN CAN DO.

ASK IT NICELY TO MOVE AND IT WILL DO IT FOR YOU.

YOU HAVE BEEN THROUGH MILLIONS OF INCARNATIONS; MILLIONS OF BIRTHS, LIVES, DEATHS AND REBIRTHS. AND ALL OF THAT IMMENSE EFFORT HAS BEEN TO PREPARE YOU FOR THIS SACRED MOMENT.

YOU KNOW WHAT TO DO. THINK, MEDITATE, REMEMBER, AND YOU WILL KNOW WHAT TO DO.”

Once again, I had received a Divine Command to do something, and I knew that The Cosmic Mother does not waste a single word. So, I knew, deeply in my heart, that this was my great opportunity.

Then I understood what I had to do.

I went back to the foot of the mountain and I said, “Thank you, sister, for having moved to one side so I could get to the other side of the field, where my Divine Creator was waiting for me to give me something that I have embodied thousands of times to receive.”

And the colossal mountain moved.