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The point of this one is that you need to occupy your time in those weird hours. There's that weird time between a meeting and sleep that you have to fill. It's these idle hours that drove me crazy. Those are the hours that the liquor store seems really close. There are also much less dangerous, but still bad, ideas. Calling up old girlfriends who really don't want to talk to you again is one that comes to mind.

While cable TV may be out of your price range, it's not that hard to get hold of a TV and a DVD player. You probably don't realize how easy these are to come by. A lot of people have spare ones sitting around that they're not using anymore. People don't want to throw away a working TV just because they don't have a room in the house without one. When the new flat screen comes home, the old, fat, bulky TV gets retired to a room they don't use, like a boxer getting a greeting job at a casino. They'd rather give Old Clunky away. But who doesn't have one? You.

New DVD players are only about $40. That even looks weird to type. I remember when they were $800. Used TVs are really cheap at all the thrift stores. So even if you can't find one for free, buying one won't be much.

When I first got sober, I'd go to a meeting and hit the video store afterwards. They had old movies for a dollar or two and two-day rentals.

At night, my mind was not calm in the least. I spun through past circumstances, worried about the future, and generally, freaked out about the state of my existence. I was too scattered to read, I already had a day's worth of program stuff, I didn't really want to talk to anyone, but I needed to focus attention outside of myself. Enter the high school teen movie.