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At one point I owned some pans and some silverware, but I can't remember where they disappeared to. I used to have a coffee grinder and a French press. I had bowls and glasses. Then they all went away.

I've left a lot of things behind. I'm not sure where it all went, but when I did get sober, I had nothing that belonged in a kitchen.

I lived in a series of houses and used whatever was there. During holiday season, I'd pick up the package with the bottle and the two glasses. I was drinking alone, so the second glass was for when I broke the first one or for the second day of drinking, whichever came first.

The point is to live like a normal person. After years of scoring drugs and using, it's really easy to score food in the same way. The natural inclination will be to subsist off food that you can buy somewhere else. You'll get little bags of fast food as a substitute for little bags of drugs.

Maybe you'll never be much of a cook. But you definitely can't cook without pots and pans, and you need things to eat out of. So get them. Even if you're making ramen noodles or mac and cheese, making your own dinner is a further step into normal.