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“Even now I am full of hope, but the end lies in God.”

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Not long ago, when my illnesses seemed to be feeding on each other and I was in constant pain, I became quite depressed. Fearful thoughts began to take root: My cancer is in remission right now, but will it stay that way? My lupus has been getting progressively worse, so what’s it going to be like next year or five years from now? And what about the bypass grafts in my coronary arteries? Will they remain clear?

Those uncertainties plagued me for days. It soon occurred to me that my loved ones could well be tormented by the same unanswerable questions.

And that was exactly the point, I realized one bright morning; those kinds of questions are unanswerable. In order to rise above my depression, I would have to rekindle the hope that had sustained me in the past. I began by contacting friends who had survived the same illnesses. They reminded me that technology moves steadily forward, ever closer to new treatments and cures.

But ultimately it became a very personal matter between God and me. It became, and remains, a reaffirmation of my faith that He will care for me and watch over me always.

THOUGHT FOR TODAY

In all the uncertainty, there is one Great Certainty.