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I even told my mother that if we didn’t change anything now, I could get sick. My mother, of course, listened, but didn’t approve of «changing life». After all, everyone is full and healthy, and everything seems fine…

I lived in this state for a couple of years. And then a mystical story happened. Maybe someone will say it’s not mystical, but I was in a terrible impression.

Our downstairs neighbors moved in – a man and a woman of about our age. The woman got very sick after some time. Her husband spoke very loudly, they often quarreled. He called her a «stupid idiot», and she replied something to him. When they went somewhere together, she was ahead, and he was far behind her. It felt like they were living out of habit, hating each other.

But she was sick. And then she had a stroke. She was paralyzed. And her room was under mine. And his room was under my husband’s room.

And there she lay paralyzed, ringing the bell at night for her husband to come and take her to the bathroom. But she couldn’t walk. And her husband came and took care of her. But he said such words to her – «As you were a fool, so you remained a fool.»

For some reason, I associated it with our family. I decided it was a sign. Although I was never called such words, my husband has one feature of often ironic towards me in an intelligent way. He just has this communication style. I didn’t pay attention before, but lately it has been irritating me more and more.

And we live in a block of flats where every word can be heard. And so I lay at night and listened to all of the horror. But to my surprise, the next night she called him by name – Oleg. (And he was sleeping, didn’t hear her). She shouted – Oleeeg.

My husband’s name is Oleg. I was already shaking with fear, I was literally shaking. And then he finally came, heard her, and called her, you guessed it, by my name.

«Sveta, why didn’t you call me earlier? You’re a fool, and you’ll always be a fool.»

Mystic? A sign?

A huge sign. I should have taken it seriously then. Do you believe in signs? I do and I don’t. How can you tell for sure if it’s a sign or just a coincidence? If you think from an esoteric point of view – then yes, of course, it’s a sign. Simply, it’s SIGNIFICANT!

And if you don’t believe in any of this, then you could say that it’s just a coincidence.

Although…not all coincidences are random!

I wanted to run away. It continued every night.

Then it all went quiet. She wasn’t there anymore. And I heard it at night too. He came to her, talked to her, but she didn’t respond.

I didn’t go into my room for a long time after that. I was scared. But I pulled myself together. Life goes on. The subconscious remembers stress. Nerve cells don’t regenerate, or so they say. But no. We will believe in the best. Many say that they regenerate. So we’ll regenerate. That’s now. But back then…

Three months passed. New Year came. 2023. I made wishes, believed in the best. But in January, I caught a virus. I was very ill. Then immediately caught cold. Just as I recovered, this terrible event happened, which I am writing about in this book.