Читать книгу The Winner Takes It All: Winning Back His Wife / In Her Rival's Arms / Royally Seduced - Melissa McClone - Страница 12

“SOMETHING SMELLS GOOD.”

The sound of Sarah’s voice sent a thunderbolt of awareness through Cullen, jolting him back to reality. For the past two hours he’d relished the solitude of the cabin, pretending she wasn’t asleep in the guest bedroom. He placed the hot pad on the counter, then turned away from the stove. “Dinner.”

She stood where the hallway ended and the living room began with bare feet, tangled hair, looking sleep-rumpled sexy. A half smile formed on her lips. “I didn’t expect to wake up to dinner cooking.”

He glimpsed ivory skin where the hem of her T-shirt rode up over her waistband. The top button on her jeans was undone, making him think of her shimmying out of them.

Appealing idea, yes. Appropriate, no.

Cullen focused on her face. Still a bit roughed-up after the accident, but pretty nonetheless. “You took a long nap.”

“The bed makes the mattress back at the hospital seem like a slab of granite. I felt like I was sleeping on a cloud.”

She’d tended toward the devilish in the past, making it difficult to imagine her as an angel now. “I told you this place would be better than a SNF.”

“Yes, you did.”

Having her around wasn’t turning out to be the best thing for him, though. His gaze strayed to the enticing band of bare skin. The hint of flesh tantalized, reminding him of what had been kept from him. And would never be his again.

He jammed a spoon into the pot of refried beans and stirred.

“I’m glad I listened,” she said.

He realized she was wearing the same clothes as earlier. “You can’t be comfortable in those jeans. Put on pajamas or sweats.”

Shrugging her left shoulder, she studied a photograph of Illumination Rock hanging on the wall.

His stomach dropped. “You can’t undress yourself.”

Damn. The thought of helping her had never crossed his mind. He’d been thinking about his needs, not hers.

“I probably could if I tried. Natalie told me to leave the button on my jeans undone,” Sarah said. “But I didn’t think about changing when we arrived. I hit the mattress and was out.”

Cullen felt like a jerk. He should have checked on her more carefully. But he hadn’t wanted to get too close after the drive.

Good work, Dr. Gray.

The sound of Blaine’s voice mocking Cullen, blaming him with a growing list of transgressions, was almost too much for him to take. He lowered the temperature on the beans, then checked the Spanish rice.

He should have done more for Sarah. But he’d needed a break. He might be a physician, but he was still a man. One who hadn’t kissed or touched a woman in almost a year. In spite of their marriage falling apart and the hard feelings that brought with it, undressing Sarah would have meant his needing a cold shower.

Cullen would have to get past that. He was responsible for her well-being. “I’ll help you after…”

Sarah’s face paled.

His stomach roiled. What the—

She swayed unsteadily.

Adrenaline surged. Cullen ran.

She slumped against the wall.

He wrapped his arms around her before she crumpled to the ground like a house of cards. “I’ve got you.”

Her warmth, softness and smell were like sweet ambrosia. His groin tightened. He recalled parts of the anatomy…in Latin.

“Thanks.” Her breath caressed his neck, sending pleasurable sensations through him. “I was dizzy. I must have gotten out of bed too fast.”

He would gladly take her back to bed. And join her.

Bad idea. “You’ve had a long day. It’s been a while since you ate.”

“The milk shake—”

“Food.”

She straightened. “I feel better now.”

“Good, but let’s not take any chances.” He swept her up into his arms, ignoring her sharp inhalation and how good it felt to hold her. “I don’t want you to fall.”

As if concern explained the acceleration of his pulse or his breathlessness.

Wariness clouded her eyes. “I don’t want you to strain your back.”

“Thanks for the concern, but you hardly weigh anything.” Sarah had always been fit, but never this thin. He carried her to the couch. “We’ll have to put some meat on you.”

Sarah’s gaze narrowed. “That’s not what a woman wants to hear.”

As he walked, her breasts jiggled.

Desire slammed into him, hard and fast like a line drive to third base. A fire ignited low in his gut.

Forget the Latin. Organic chemistry equations might work better. “Men like women with curves. Gives them something to hold on to.”

Awareness flickered in her eyes. Sarah parted her lips.

All he had to do was lower his mouth to hers and…

“Some men,” she said.

If he’d had a thermometer under his tongue, the mercury would have shot out the end and made a real mess. “This man.”

Tension sizzled in the air. The physical chemistry between them remained strong, and, if the past sixty seconds were anything to go by, highly combustible.

Fighting the urge to get the hell away from her before his control slipped any further, he placed her gently on the couch. “Rest while I finish getting dinner ready.”

He strode to the kitchen with one purpose in mind—put distance between him and Sarah, even if it was less than twelve feet. Attraction or not, this had disaster written all over it. She was injured. She was his soon-to-be ex-wife. Thinking of her as anything other than a patient would be…wrong.

Cullen checked the beans and the rice. He glanced at the clock on the microwave. “Time for your meds.”

“I’d rather not take them.” The back of the couch hid all but the top of her head. “They make me loopy.”

“Staying ahead of the pain is important.”

“I’m ahead of it.”

Not for long. Her voice sounded strained. He filled a glass with water and dispensed her pills. “This isn’t up for negotiation.”

She poked her head up. “Whatever you’re cooking smells so good.”

“Enchiladas.”

“One of my favorites.”

Changing the subject wasn’t like Sarah. She must not feel well. He carried the water and medicine to her. “Here you go.”

She stared at the pills as if they were poison. “Your patients must call you Dr. Hardnose.”

He handed her the pills. “They might, but not to my face. Well, except you.”

“I’m not your patient.” She shot him a chilly look, popped the pills into her mouth and drank the water. “Satisfied?”

“Very. It’s not often you do what you’re told.”

“I only took the pills because you made dinner.”

“Then it’s a good thing I didn’t tell you someone else made the meal.”

“Who?”

“Carly Porter.” He placed Sarah’s water glass on the coffee table. “She stopped by while you were sleeping.”

A thoughtful expression crossed Sarah’s face. “That sure is nice of Carly.”

Sarah’s voice sounded tight, almost on edge. A good thing she’d taken her pills. “Carly and her husband are good people. Jake’s the one who owns the brewpub.”

A corner of Sarah’s mouth curved upward in a lopsided smile. “Oh, you mentioned him earlier.”

The timer on the oven dinged.

“Dinner’s ready,” Cullen said. “You can eat on the couch.”

“I’ve been eating in bed. I’d rather sit at the table, if that’s okay?”

His stomach twisted. This would be their first meal together since she’d brought up divorce.

She touched her cast. “If you’d rather I eat here—”

“The table works.” He was being stupid. Just because the last time had ended badly didn’t mean this time would. Hell, he’d wanted to kiss her a few minutes ago. No matter how he looked at this situation, an epic fail seemed imminent. “Give me a sec.”

Cullen set the table. Utensils clattered against the plates. His hands shook. He wasn’t sure what had gotten into him, but he felt clumsy, a way he wasn’t used to feeling.

He placed the hot casserole dish, bowls of rice and refried beans and a bottle of sparkling apple cider on the table. He left the six-pack of Wy’East Brewing Company’s Hogsback Ale, courtesy of Jake, in the refrigerator. Cullen needed his wits about him with Sarah here. “Dinner’s ready.”

He helped her up from the couch, conscious of her every movement and aware of each brush of his skin sparking against hers.

She squeezed his hand. “Thanks.”

A lump formed in his throat. He grumbled, “You’re welcome,” then escorted her to the table. He kept his arm around her in case she became light-headed—yeah, that was the reason, all right—pulled out a chair and helped her sit. His hand lingered on her back.

“Everything looks delicious,” she said.

Her lips sure did. What was he doing? Sarah had an excuse for acting loopy. Cullen didn’t. He looked away and dropped his hand to his side.

“I can’t believe someone made you dinner.” She sounded amazed.

He sat across from her, then dished up chicken enchiladas smothered in a green tomatillo sauce. “Carly and Jake did this for you, too.”

“No one’s ever done something like this for me.”

He dropped a spoonful of refried beans onto her plate and then his. “People are helpful in Hood Hamlet.”

She motioned to the serving spoon in his hand. “You included.”

Cullen added a scoop of the rice. “You’ll serve yourself soon enough.”

Sarah’s shoulders drooped as if someone had let the air out of her. “I’d make a big mess right now, and you’d have to clean up after me.”

That was what she’d done with the divorce. Left him to deal with it. He took a sip of the sparkling cider. The sweetness did nothing to alter the bitter taste in his mouth. Maybe a beer wasn’t such a bad idea. Just one. He never had any more than that.

“You’re smart for serving tonight,” she continued.

A smart man would never have allowed his heart to overrule logic so that he ended up marrying a total stranger in Las Vegas. “Just trying to be helpful.”

“I…appreciate it.”

As they ate, Cullen wondered if she did. She hadn’t appreciated what he’d done when they were together.

Bubbles rose in his glass, making him think of champagne. Marriage was like champagne bubbles, first rising in pairs, then groups of three, then individually. He was thankful he and Sarah had skipped the middle part by not having a baby right away. A divorce was bad enough without having to deal with a custody battle. “It’s a practical decision. I don’t have time for extra chores tonight. I have to work the graveyard shift at the hospital tomorrow night and need to get back into my routine.”

Maybe sleeping in his bed at home would give him a restful night of sleep. He hoped so.

She studied him over the rim of her glass. “Who will be my nursemaid?”

“I found the perfect babysitter.”

Sarah stuck her tongue out at him.

That was more like it. He grinned. “We could go with nanny if you prefer.”

She waved her cast in the air. “I bet this thing could do some damage.”

“To yourself most definitely.”

“Very funny.” She feigned annoyance, but laughter danced in her eyes. “So who’s stuck here with me first?”

“Leanne Thomas,” Cullen said. “I know her from OMSAR. She’s also a paramedic.”

“Sounds capable.”

“I’d trust her with my life. In fact, I have,” he admitted. “You’ll be in good hands.

“I’m in good hands now.”

He appreciated the words, but he’d fallen down on the job this afternoon. “I’m trying to do my best.”

“You are,” she agreed. “I’m not sure how I’ll ever repay you.”

“You don’t have to.” That was the truth. He didn’t want anything from her. Well, except to finalize their divorce. Soon…“I remember what it was like.”

Wrinkles formed on her forehead. “Remember what what was like?”

“To have a broken arm.”

She leaned over the table. “When did you break your arm?”

“I was eleven.” He took another enchilada from the pan. “Want more?”

“No, thanks.” Sarah stared at him. “I had no idea about your arm. How did you break it?”

“A soccer tournament. This big kid shoved me out of bounds after I scored a goal. I landed wrong and fractured my arm in two places.”

“Ouch.”

“That’s all I could say in between grimacing and crying.” She drew back, as if horror. “You cry?”

“Past tense. I was eleven.”

“I’m teasing,” she said. “Nothing wrong with crying, no matter what your age.”

“Only if you’re an emotional, overwrought sissy man.”

“Wouldn’t want someone to take away your man card.”

“Damn straight.”

She sipped her cider. “Tell me more about your broken arm.”

He patted his mouth with a napkin. “Not much more to tell. It happened in early July, so I spent the rest of my summer in a cast. It sucked.”

“You do know how I feel.”

He nodded. “I couldn’t swim or go in the sprinklers. I wasn’t allowed to ride my bike or skateboard. No going on rides at the county fair, either. Casts weren’t allowed.”

“That must have been the worst summer of your life.”

Nope. That was a toss-up between last summer when he was trying to get over her and the summer after his brother died. But her rejection had hurt lots more than his arm fracture. He was relieved he’d moved past that. “It wasn’t fun, but I survived. So will you.”

His tone came out harsh, without an ounce of sympathy or compassion. He needed to try harder. Apologize. Being with Sarah brought out strong feelings and emotions, ones he would rather forget existed. He’d seen what losing control had done to Blaine. Cullen wouldn’t allow the same thing to happen to him.

Forks scraped against plates. Glasses were raised and returned to the table. The lack of conversation was awkward. But Cullen didn’t know what to do about it. He’d never known what to do with Sarah except kiss her and take her to bed.

Not an option. Even if a part of him wished it were.

As Cullen loaded the dishwasher, Sarah sat at the table with a plate of cookies within arm’s reach. Medication dulled the pain, but made her feel as if she’d drunk one beer too many. Maybe that was why dinner with Cullen had seemed so weird. Forget walking on eggshells—the floor was covered in shattered glass and she kept stepping on the shards.

An uncomfortable silence had enveloped them during the meal. The same unsettling quiet had consumed their marriage. If Sarah could have made it to the guest bedroom on her own, she would have bolted after she’d finished eating. But, since she couldn’t, death by chocolate chips sounded like the best alternative.

She bit into a cookie. The sweet flavor exploded in her mouth. “Great cookie.”

Cullen glanced over his shoulder. “Carly is known for her baking skills.”

“I can see why.” Sarah had been surprised about Cullen’s broken arm. She wondered what else she didn’t know about him. Sex had been the way they’d been able to communicate best. But even that hadn’t been enough after a while. Uh-oh. Thinking about sex and Cullen wasn’t going to help matters. “I think I’ll have another cookie.”

“Save me one.”

She held her left hand above the plate. “There are over a dozen.”

Cullen glanced over his shoulder. Amusement—at least that was what she hoped it was—flashed in his eyes. “I know how much you love cookies.”

“You gave me a cookie bouquet for my birthday.” That had been five months into their marriage. He’d also covered their bed with rose petals. A romantic gesture when romance had been nonexistent. “They were tasty.”

“I never got one.”

“That’s because you left for your shift at the hospital and I didn’t hear from you for two days.”

Cullen gave her one of those you-have-to-be-kidding looks. “I had to work.”

By the time he’d returned, the cookies had been eaten and the rose petals had wilted. “You never called or texted. Not even during breaks.”

He tugged at his collar. “I need to concentrate when I’m at the hospital.”

He had never owned up to his behavior in the past. Why had she expected anything different now? Best to forget everything that had happened between them. Good or bad. She pushed the plate of cookies away. “Help yourself. You’ll have to roll me back to my room if I eat any more.”

“Roll you, carry you.” He bent to put something in the dishwasher. “Not much difference.”

Maybe not for him.

A wave of helplessness washed over her, threatening to drown her. She hated not being able to do anything on her own. She hated being at someone else’s mercy. She hated relying on anybody. Oh-so-familiar disappointment pressed down on her. She had finally been getting everything on track when life threw a rock at her. She didn’t want to have to depend on Cullen. She didn’t want to end up needing him.

The tight ball of emotion in her belly unraveled like yarn, sending pent-up feelings rolling through her.

She couldn’t unsnap her bra or button her jeans or be the kind of wife a man would love forever.

Tears stung her eyes.

Oh, no. Sarah didn’t want him to see her like this. She was independent and strong, not needy and emotional. Except, the only thing she felt like doing right now was crying.

She blinked. She looked up. Drops still fell. She dabbed her eyes with the napkin.

Time to get out of here.

Without Cullen’s help.

Using her left hand, she pushed against the table. Mantling had always been a favorite climbing move, but this took more effort than she was used to exerting. Her muscles protested. Her abdomen ached. Still she managed to stand, scooting the chair back in the process.

Cullen looked at her. Forks clattered into the sink. He rushed to her side. “What are you doing?”

“I don’t need to be rolled or carried.” Her voice cracked. “I can do it myself.”

Except she couldn’t. All she wanted to do was sit. Pride kept her standing.

“I was kidding.” He didn’t sound amused. His dark eyes looked annoyed. “Like old times.”

She raised her chin, but that didn’t make up the difference in height. The top of her head came to his nose. She reminded herself that in every other way they were equals. And an underground city of elves lived inside Mount Shasta, too. “The old times weren’t that great.”

He flinched. “They weren’t that bad.”

She shrugged, hoping the gesture hid the hurt she was feeling. “I’m used to taking care of myself. I can do this.”

But if she didn’t get moving she would be flat on her butt in about ten seconds.

“Tomorrow—” he scooped her into his arms “—not tonight. Time to get you into your jammies and into bed.”

Cradled against his strong, wide chest, she struggled to breathe. Her muscles tensed. Her senses reeled.

What was happening to her?

Sarah wanted to be strong, but she also wanted to collapse against him and forget everything in the past and what would happen in the future. But she couldn’t. Not when the feel of his heartbeat sent hers into a frenetic rhythm. Or when the musky scent of him made her want to take another sniff.

“You don’t have to do this.” She tried to keep the panic out of her voice. “I’m okay.”

Or would be once she was out of his arms and into bed.

Alone.

With the door locked.

Sarah’s gaze locked on his lips. Heat exploded inside her. She looked away.

“You’re not okay.” He carried her down the hallway. “It doesn’t take a medical degree to see you’re exhausted.”

She opened her mouth to deny it, but couldn’t. “I’ll feel better in the morning.”

“I’d rather you feel better now.”

Maybe if she had a good cry or if he kissed her…

He kicked open the bathroom door with his foot and flipped on the light with his elbow. He set her on her feet in the bathroom, keeping his hands on her. “Let’s get you ready for bed.”

Her heart beat a rapid tattoo. She leaned against the sink counter for support. “My toiletry kit is in my suitcase.”

A coworker had packed a bag for Sarah and driven it to the hospital yesterday.

Cullen opened a drawer and pulled out a new toothbrush. He unwrapped the plastic covering. “Use this.”

“You have spare toothbrushes?”

“People sack out here if they don’t want to drive home.”

People? Or women? Sarah didn’t want to know.

He squirted toothpaste on it. “Here you go.”

She took the toothbrush. One minute he seemed upset at her, the next he was concerned. The flip-flopping made her dizzy. Or maybe it was the pain medication. That could explain her crying.

“I’ll brush your teeth for you,” he said.

She shoved the toothbrush into her mouth. “Got it.”

“Be right back.”

Sarah took advantage of the moment of privacy. Then after brushing her teeth, she washed her face and combed the tangles out of her hair. The effort wiped her out. She released a frustrated breath.

Cullen stood in the doorway. “Finished?”

Sarah nodded. He followed her to the guest room.

A queen-size bed with a headboard made of twigs dominated the room. He’d straightened the bedding and pulled back the covers for her, something he’d done for her when he worked graveyard shifts. Her chest tightened with memories and regrets.

A full glass of water sat on the knotty-pine nightstand. A cookie lay on a paper towel. Tears returned to her eyes. “I don’t deserve—”

He placed his finger at her lips. “Shhh.”

The slight touch sent chills down her spine. She couldn’t have said anything if she’d wanted to.

Cullen tucked a strand of hair behind her ear. “I didn’t take good care of you earlier.”

Her heart stilled. She knew he meant today, but a part of her wished he’d meant during their marriage.

“I’m making up for this afternoon,” he continued.

Sarah released the breath she hadn’t realized she was holding. Her disappointment was a not-so-subtle reminder of how stupid she became around Cullen. “You’re not my manservant.”

Mischief did the tango in his eyes. “I could be if that’s what you want.”

She wanted…him.

No, that was the pain medication talking. More tears filled her eyes. She wiped her face with the back of her hand.

He embraced her. “It’s going to be okay.”

Not with her breasts pressed against his broad, muscular chest and her heart thudding in her chest. “I’m sorry. I’m all loopy.”

“You’re cute when you’re all loopy.”

He pulled her closer and she sank against him, too tired to keep fighting herself. He felt so good. Warm. And strong. “You’re cute when I’m all loopy.”

Cullen laughed. The deep sound was the best medicine of all. “Where are your pajamas?”

“In my suitcase.”

“Sit.”

She sat on the bed while he opened her suitcase.

He removed a floral-print nightshirt. “This work?”

“Yes.”

Cullen placed the nightie on the bed. He pulled on her bra band through her T-shirt. The strap unhooked.

Heat rushed up her neck. “You’ve, um, always been good at that.”

“A little rusty, but it’s like riding a bike.”

Her pulse quickened. “I haven’t ridden in a while.”

Too long. She missed it. Missed him. No, she missed the idea of him, of what they could have had together if fairy tales existed. This—what was happening right now—wasn’t real.

He brushed his hand over her hair. “You can always hop back on.”

Sarah’s mouth went dry. She opened her mouth to speak, but no words came out.

“Let’s get your shirt off you.”

Let’s not. She crossed her arm and her cast in front of her chest. “I want to see if I can do it.”

“Sure.”

She waited for him to turn around. He didn’t. Frustration grew. “Maybe you could face the other way.”

He turned to the wall.

Self-preservation helped her undress and put on the nightshirt. Thank goodness she’d taken the pain pills, or she’d be really hurting. “You can turn around.”

“I’m impressed.”

She was about to fall asleep. “Thanks.”

“Time for bed.”

Before Sarah could blink, she was horizontal with her head against the pillow. She had no idea how he’d managed to get her in this position so effortlessly, but she was beyond the point of caring.

Cullen arranged the sheet and comforter over her.

“You don’t have to do this,” she said quietly.

He brushed his lips across her forehead with a kiss as light as a feather. “It’s been a long day, an even longer week. The least I can do is tuck you in.”

Emotion overflowed from her heart. She felt so special.

“Sweet dreams, Lavagirl,” he said.

Who needed dreams? Reality was pretty sweet right now. Sarah wanted him to stay, to hold her, until she fell asleep.

“Thank you, Dr. Gray.” She felt dreamy and a tad wistful. “For everything.”

“I’m right across the hall if you need anything.”

He turned off the light, walked out of the room and closed the door behind him.

And then it hit her.

She and Cullen had never spent a night in the same place without sleeping in the same bed. Not until tonight. Her heart panged.

A door closed out in the hallway. She heard water. The shower.

Well, there was always a first time. Sarah touched the empty space next to her. But she had to admit she’d rather there wasn’t.

Even if she knew better.