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Это случилось в первый раз, с тех пор, как они начали общаться, как влюблённые, что Амир не пришёл вечером в скайп, не показался днём на фейсбук и не отправил ей какого-либо сообщения о том, что с ним и где он.

Вечером у неё было время спокойно подумать, и эти раздумья привели Натали к выводу, что она совсем не знает Амира. Да, когда они говорили, он увлекал её потоками своих чувств, энергии и красноречия, но когда его не оказалось рядом, как вчера, и между ними на сутки повисла странная тишина, неприятные сомнения закрались в её душу, Натали решила быть более сдержанной и трезвой в общении со своим новым другом.

Вечером он появился в скайпе в их обычное время и заговорил, как ни в чём ни бывало.

[18.10.201* 19:43:49] Amir: Hi my love! how are you???

[18.10.201* 19:45:31] Natalie: ok and you? what time do you stay at work?

[18.10.201* 19:46:09] Amir: i m fine love, well i just came back and started my laptop; basically i am busy in organizing a fashion show these days so that’s why won’t able to come online

Natalie: ok, that́s not a problem, problem was you didńt say a word, nothing

Amir: i am so sorry for that

Natalie: well tell about your work… or maybe do you want to rest a bit?

Amir: yes, i should at least tell you about it… no, i want to stay with you here at skype. Honey i don’t want you to send your passport to my office

Natalie: well, then just wait a bit.

Amir: just ask Mary to scan it and send through email, no problem if it takes some days

Natalie: ok, Mary simple couldńt do herself, only her husband can and he returns home only today, so in some days we will send

tell me about your work. Do you like it?

Amir: yes, well yes my work, i am designing as well, so i will arrange a fashion show here to show my designed clothes and will try to be a fashion designer

Natalie: nice surprise! it is really interesting. Did I tell you I do the same but mostly only for myself?

Amir: really? that’s great so we can work together on it… it will be a huge event in Dubai – fashion week, me and you both together

Natalie: yes, I have a full collection, always wanted to make photos all of the clothes, but I just can tell you on photos where I am in my own, later, on facebook

Amir: yea, that will be cool! how’s handsome guy? and what did you discuss with him?

Natalie: just have spoken to him! he wants me to do his homework in Estonian and then send to him and I refused

Amir: hahahahahaha well right, he should do own work

Natalie: right, but maybe I will do in the morning if I am in mood, just my head doesńt want to think a lot in the evening

Amir: ok great… honey i missed you a lot, these two days were like i am not alive without you

Natalie: I dońt believe you too much now :) yesterday you didńt even think about me, I know;)

Amir: comeon love, don’t say that, you are with me for every single second

Natalie: do you like to walk by foot?

Amir: yes why? i have GMC truck but still i love to walk by foot

Natalie: just because I love to move a lot and like to walk by foot for long distance… sometimes run

Amir: waoooo that’s nice, that’s why you have such a beautiful physic

Natalie: last Autumn I did one test, it called Wellness test, where they see your body status and problems and give you some advices… and along with other information they told me my biological age is twenty three and it is very rare case when biological age is younger, mostly it is vice versa;) so be ready to move with me a lot!

Amir: yea, i am ready to walk with you… ok, i wana see you

Natalie: not only to walk. I like to play tennis, I use to play with my son, but mostly when he was younger, not now

Amir well i am a tennis champion

Natalie: no, Amir, you won’t see me today!;)

Amir: so don’t worry, we can play together… i want to see you… honey please

Natalie: but I dońt want!

Amir: i will die if i wouldn’t see you… please

Natalie: let’s speak about some other things

Amir: honey please, it’s 48 hours now i haven’t seen you

Natalie: Amir, I am not a toy! Yesterday I even couldńt sleep in normal way. See I dońt know you. I thought… maybe you just a crazy man and made me believe you, but in fact… so it was unpleasant and I dońt want you to do it again… so you will remember :)

Amir: i am sorry, i have already apologized and i already tell you the reason… please

Natalie: ok, I see your reason and you see mine. Just not today, that́s all. What a problem? tell me about your family

Amir: what you wana know?

Natalie: where are your brothers, which one is the first (in other words are you the small one or in the middle or…)

Amir: well my brothers are in Canada, i am the middle one

Natalie: what do you think… how your parents would accept your choice? (me I mean)

Amir: well they don’t have any problem – you are beautiful, educated, and well-mannered so no reason to reject or object

Natalie: about my manners… :) I use to be strange! and behave like a child from time to time! You dońt know me, Amir! dońt be so sure about me before you will really see me

Amir: honey comeon, i know sometimes i also behave like a child, it’s human but you don’t always behave like a child

Natalie: maybe not always but rather often… that’s what my son doesńt like about me especially when his friends can see us

Amir: i don’t have any problem with it, you can always behave like a child

Natalie: ok, we will see… dońt wanna take a rest?

Amir: no, today i am with you whole night

Natalie: oh, no! I cańt sit by comp whole night! And I didńt sleep well… because of you by the way!

Amir: i don’t know, you have to stay with me tonight

Natalie: no, I haven’t :)

Amir: ok

Natalie: so I just think it is enough for today…

Amir: ok

Natalie: bye!.. Amir? will you tell me good bye?

Amir: no, because i don’t want you to go… if you want to go just leave, i will not say bye

Natalie: it is not good, at first… at second I will be on facebook, will put marks for you where there are my dresses or something, but not all my clothes are there, only some part.

Amir: ok

Natalie: i’m tagging you on the photos, so you can easily see it in your profile, but then, if you want, may delete… as you wish

Amir: no problem, i will keep it

Natalie: you at first see photos, and then decide :) you can easily take away which one you want

Amir: ok, i got one, put more

Natalie: i do! :) have you seen my video Summer Wine? here was a skirt I also made myself (and there I was dancing in it) my comp now work very slowly, so cańt wait! maybe will do the next time… are you here?.. and you know what I think about this your show?.. there are a lot of beautiful women as a rule;)

Amir: hahahahahha models!..

Natalie: well, so how about these women?

Amir: good

Natalie: yes, see that́s why you completely forgot about me yesterday! here is the question: are you loyal? it is rather different in Islam and in your world as compare to mine

Amir: honey, what kind of question is this?

Natalie: normal question! just want to know about you more, that́s all

Amir: well you are the last girl in my life

Natalie:;))))))))))))))))))))) that will be really funny!

Amir: so smile if it’s funny

Natalie: I do!

Amir: good for you… i love you, miss you sweetheart

Natalie: Amir… remember about the time, too… if you want to talk then talk about something else… if we meet then we can speak a lot about our feelings whenever we want… now it is just not wise

Amir: ok, what you want to talk about? i wana see you

Natalie: i dońt want! it is evening, I feel tired… next time and look – I also want to see you and to hear you, but you dońt give me the chance

Amir: ok, so what do you want to talk about? you didn’t tell me about your family, your parents, siblings

Natalie: I have one sister, who now lives in America, North Carolina

Amir: waooo good

Natalie: and she doesńt want me to marry again to a Muslim guy but I dońt listen to her much

Amir: so were you married with Muslim before?

Natalie: yes, and he was very good to me, but it happened we parted by destiny, you may say, and my family took it very hard because they all love me a lot

Amir: yea i understand… well i am not a typical person, i am a different kind of person, you are very close to me

Ах, от его слов веяло таким теплом, что никакое расстояние не могло его развеять. Щёки горели, сердце сладко и учащённо билось в груди. Вопреки всем своим усилиям сопротивляться зарождающемуся чувству она не могла.

Natalie: I see that and must say I like you more and more

Amir: thanks my love, you are the precious ever thing for me that i never wana loose, i would rather prefer to lose my life before losing you

Natalie: oh, Amir, dońt be in hurry again.

Amir: :( can you be romantic for some time?

Natalie: I am romantic, but not on i-net! :) I just keep myself; when we meet in reality then you will see if I am romantic or not! then you will ask maybe: dońt be SO romantic, plz!

Amir: really… i am waiting for that moment

Natalie: have I told you I write books? novels? so how can I be not romantic!? :)

Amir: really? That’s nice, i wana read them

Natalie: yes, it is one of my most favorite activities, they are in Russian…

Amir: impressed!.. What was the name of your husband and where he was from?

Natalie: he was from Pakistan, but we met in Kiev, his name was Ajaz

Amir: why did he leave you?

Natalie: he didńt want to leave me… may I not tell you now? Later, when we meet and if you still want to know

Amir: honey i want to know

Natalie: but didńt you tell me just some days ago you dońt want to know anything about my past?

Amir: yes, i just don’t wana do same and loose you

Natalie: he was so nice to me and we loved each other. I was very happy with him, it was the happiest time in my life… but in general it was rather hard time, when Soviet Union collapsed

Amir: yea, i know, so are you originally RUSSIAN?

Natalie: he wanted us to move to Germany… yes, I am half Russian and half Ukraine from my Mother side

Amir: ok then?

Natalie: he wanted us to come to Germany and I didńt want go here at first… it took a lot of time to make my documents, we even couldńt wait and he bought passport with visa for me, but then Germany was closed for Pakistani ppl… so we moved to my parents… and I wanted a baby then, same like now… he told me it was not right time, but I insisted… there was no work for us in Estonia and other problems with visa for him… my parents wanted us to go to Pakistan, they thought we would be fine there… so they made him leave but he didńt want to leave me… cried and told he couldńt live without me.. but I was SO sure in him and in his love. I forced him to go and he promised to come back after three months and take me with a baby… but never came back. His relatives had a bride for him already… so… sad story, you see

Amir: very bad, he should not do that! If his relatives were having bride for him why he did this to you?

Natalie: well, let’s leave the topic; it is still very painful to me, especially because of my son

Amir: i am sorry honey, i will never talk about it again because i wana see you happy forever, smiling

Natalie: you know what is funny here? That he told me the same thing!..

Amir: hahahhahaha waooo… well i mean it, he just told you and i want to prove it, wana meet you as soon as possible

Natalie: no, Amir, he didńt just say… otherwise I couldńt love him for so many years, I didńt want even to marry again… but at last it has stopped… my love for him

Amir: so you wana marry now?

Natalie: I want to have a baby… how can I do it without your help?;)

Amir: yea, you are right;) so now it depends on Mary and her husband, i will receive your passport to do my part then you will come here and we will plan our baby

Natalie: after Christmas… will you come here before? I want to see you first

Amir: i can’t promise that i will come there

Natalie: and before you told you could…

Amir: i would try that’s what i said

Natalie: so if you wońt come I cańt come too, because I have never seen you… Honestly I’m just afraid!

Amir: i am not an animal, so don’t be afraid

Natalie: yes, but in normal way we have to meet at first

Amir: yea, that’s what i am saying: you can come here, i have work here, hard to take leaves, from here, come meet me, and we will have fun here

Natalie: Amir, it is strange for me now. How can I trust you if just some days ago yoúve told: I can come, I have no any problem! And now you are telling me this… no, I cańt come in this way

Amir: honey i am not saying i can’t come but it will take time, you know visa process and everything, whereas i can arrange for you in some days, that’s why i was saying that

Natalie: but we have the time! more than 2 months! I wońt come earlier in any case!

Amir: i can wait 2 months

Natalie: you can wait, OK, but I would like you to come here on Christmas, we will see each other and then we will know if we want and can be together… I am not mad, Amir! I cańt come to unknown person!

Amir: ok i will tell you about it soon

Natalie: not just tell, but try to do, if you are serious… but I doubt it again… you so easily have changed your mind!

Amir: i don’t, i am in love with you, that’s why i am here with you from last one week, sharing everything with you

Natalie: I cańt take your love seriously now, before we see each other… it is not so real for me, so plz if it is really important for you, do as I ask

Amir: yes, i am coming, to prove my love i am coming to you, to prove that whatever i said is true, i want to spend my whole life with you

Natalie: ok, thanks… we will see. Now good night!

Amir: but if i would be having any problem in visa process, you have to help me out

[18.10.201* 22:19:17] Natalie: ok, now tell me good night! :)

Amir: i love you Natalie, take care honey, good night

Выйдя из скайпа и выключив компьютер, Натали какое-то время сидела неподвижно в тишине, прислушиваясь к себе. Да, он быстро меняет решения… но почему-то она не в силах противиться… Пока говорили, и ей удалось высказать все свои сомнения, что поехать к нему вот так, вдруг, казалось невозможным, но теперь в глубине души она чувствовала, что верит ему и готова действовать так, как он просит.

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