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Tain’t worthwhile to wear a day all out before it comes. ∼Sarah Orns Jewett

In recovery we often hear that we must clear away the wreckage of our past. A caveat to this in C.D.A. is that we are told not to clear away the wreckage of our future! Why are we told to deal with the wreckage of our past but leave the future to itself? As addicts, we tend to worry needlessly when planning events because we’re usually attempting to project the outcome as well. Projection of every possible negative result is living in the “wreckage” of that future. The “wreckage” we create in our minds is our imaginary future. The funny thing is, we can never live in that future, for it is always the present. Those who have not learned to stay in today make themselves sick over possible results that seldom come to be. When we remain in today and trust in the process, we can draw on our current strength and guidance. It is always now and always today. We barely have control over the time called “now.” So, let’s try and enjoy it!

I must be present to win.

As far back as I can remember, I always looked for a way to avoid the reality of living in the present moment. Life was scary and unpredictable, and there was nothing solid to hang on to or believe in.

∼Chemically Dependent Anonymous P 299