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I’m trying to free your mind, Neo. I can only open the door. You’re the one who has to walk through it. ~Morpheus, The Matrix

In the midst of our addiction, we told ourselves, “This time it will be different.” But every time it was predictably the same. We thought we could beat our addiction like Wiley Coyote always thought he could catch the Roadrunner. We tried every manner of idiotic behavior to control our use and deny our powerlessness, but we found ourselves getting beaten down like a cartoon character and scrambling back for more. Our minds were closed to the truth. It wasn’t until we “freed our mind” and surrendered to our addiction that we had any chance of catching the Roadrunner in our life. No matter how long we stay substance free, our Wiley Coyote of denial lurks just around the corner. That is, unless we keep the door to C.D.A. open and “walk through it.”

The more I walk through the C.D.A. door,

the fewer Roadrunners I try to catch.

However difficult this admission, it opens the door to a new way of life.

∼Chemically Dependent Anonymous P 40