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Surrender means saying, “Okay, God I’ll do whatever you want.” Faith in the God of our recovery means we trust that, eventually, we’ll like doing that. ∼Melody Beattie

We surrender to win, not to whine. Beginners often find that “God’s will” is not exactly how they thought they wanted to live. In the beginning, many of us were only doing God’s will because we had to, not because we wanted to. Who wanted to put away chairs after a meeting when they could be in the parking lot flirting? Who wanted to 12-step someone at three in the morning when they had to get up early for work? Who wanted to pay back large sums of money when the victim might never find us? The wonderful thing about C.D.A., though, is that eventually we surrender to God’s will because we want to! And let us always remember that the quality of our recovery is proportional to the quality of our surrender.

I have to do God’s will until

I want to do God’s will.

The next step forward is to surrender ourselves to that power. However, most of us find control difficult to surrender.

∼Chemically Dependent Anonymous P 45