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It was the first day of spring and Detective Constable Hat Bowler was lost in a forest.

It wasn’t an uncommon experience. He slept as little as possible these days, knowing that as soon as he closed his eyes he would reawaken among trees crowding so close they admitted only enough light to show him there was no way out.

Dr Pottle had nodded, unsurprised, and said, ‘Ah yes. The primal forest.’

It was Peter Pascoe who’d taken him to meet the psychiatrist.

Not that there was anything wrong with him.

After the death of … after her death … after …

After the woman he loved more than life itself had died in a car accident …

That had been on a Saturday in late January. He had turned up for work on Monday morning, no bother. Pascoe had taken one look at him and insisted he went to see his GP. The idiot recommended complete rest and psychotherapy. Hat passed this on to Pascoe, expecting him to share his exasperation. Instead the DCI had gone all po-faced and said if he didn’t follow his GP’s advice voluntarily, it would be made official and entered on his record, to be read by every member of every promotion board Hat ever applied to.

This was an empty threat to a man with no future. But he had neither the energy nor the will to resist, so he went to see Dr Pottle and answered questions about his dreams for much the same reasons.

The chain-smoking Pottle listened, his head shrouded like Kilimanjaro, then said, ‘If you ever did manage to get out of the forest, what is it you would hope to find?’

He couldn’t even bring himself to say her name which was a mark of how delusional he knew all hope to be.

‘Yes,’ said Pottle as if he had answered. ‘It can be a terrible thing, hope.’

‘Thought that was what you tried to give people,’ said Hat.

‘Oh no. Change is my game. But I never guarantee it will be for the better.’

Today – this morning, this evening, whatever time of dream it was – for the first time there was change. The trees stood far apart, a broad track wound between them and eventually he found himself walking through beams of hazy sunlight laced with birdsong which his ornithologist’s ear told him signalled morning.

At first he advanced rapidly, but soon began to slow, not because of any obstacle in his path but because he was finding out just how terrible hope could be.

So it was at the same time both huge disappointment and huge relief when he emerged from the trees into a sunlit clearing and found the path had led him to …

A gingerbread house!

He knew where he was. And he knew why his poor beleaguered mind had chosen to escape here. This was the land of childhood, a time before love and pain and loss.

Except of course in stories. It was Hansel and Gretel who got lost in the forest and found the gingerbread house. Only it wasn’t just a house, it was a trap, set by the dreaded Crunch Witch. You nibbled away at the gingerbread and she caught you and then you too got turned into gingerbread, ready to be nibbled at.

Well, tough tittie, Witch! He wasn’t hungry. And he didn’t like gingerbread.

With a heart almost as light as his head, he moved forward. Immediately a blackbird skulking under a blackcurrant bush stuttered its alarm call and Hat came to a halt as the Crunch Witch appeared in the house’s open doorway.

She was tall and square-faced with vigorous grey hair neatly coiled in a bun beneath some kind of small feathery hat. A pair of round spectacles, one arm of which had been repaired with sticking plaster, perched on the end of her slightly upturned nose. She was dressed in a sky-blue T-shirt and olive-green slacks tucked into black Wellington boots. No broomstick, though she did carry a rough-hewn walking stick which might serve in an emergency. This apart, she looked most unwitch-like. Indeed, there was something slightly familiar about her appearance …

Then the blackbird flew up and settled on her shoulder, and the little hat stood up on her hair bun and stretched its wings and he saw it was a great tit.

Dreams are like mad people – in the end they always give themselves away.

Reassured, and curious as to where this might lead, he moved forward again.

‘Good morning to you,’ said the Crunch Witch.

‘And to you,’ said Hat. ‘Lovely day.’

The closer he got, the more he realized that he was going to have to watch his step with this one. Spotting he wasn’t mad about gingerbread but loved birds, she’d changed the house into a simple thatched cottage, constructed of a dark orange brick with gingery tiles and birds flying in and out of the windows.

And there was more. Closer, he could identify the source of his feeling of familiarity. It lay in her sky-blue T-shirt, which bore an image of a small soaring bird and the legend Save the Skylark.

She said, ‘Snap,’ looking smilingly at his chest.

He glanced down to confirm that he was wearing exactly the same T-shirt.

‘Oh yes,’ he said.

He focused on the blackbird on her shoulder. It returned his gaze assessingly.

‘Does he talk?’ he asked.

‘Talk?’ she frowned. ‘He’s a blackbird not a bloody parrot.’

As if it too had been offended, the bird spread its wings and sprang straight at Hat’s head. He ducked, felt its beak tug through his hair and then it was gone.

‘Jesus,’ he gasped.

‘Shouldn’t walk around with twigs in your hair,’ said the witch. ‘Crackpot probably thinks you’ve been out scavenging nest materials for him.’

Hat put his hand to his head and realized she was right. There was quite a bit of undergrowth adhering to his hair, but at least he didn’t have a tit nesting there.

‘Crackpot?’ he said.

‘First time he came into the house he tried to perch on the handle of a cream jug. Over it went and broke. So, Crackpot. Now, how can I help you?’

He said, ‘I got a bit lost in the forest …’

‘Forest!’ This seemed to amuse her. ‘Well, if you’d kept on the track which goes around my garden, you’d have arrived at the road in a couple of minutes.’

‘Your garden?’ he said, looking round.

More magic. The clearing was now enclosed by a ragged thorn hedge with a ramshackle osier gate. Most of the ground was covered with rough grass, aglow with tiny daffodils, but alongside a lean-to greenhouse on one side of the cottage were the regular furrows of a small kitchen garden in need of work after the depredations of winter.

The witch said, ‘You don’t look too well, young man. Not had your breakfast, I bet. I’m just having mine. Step inside and let’s see if there’s anything to spare.’

Very cool! Disorientate him with the garden then lure him inside with food.

He said, ‘That would be nice, long as it’s not gingerbread.’

Show her he was on to her game!

She said, ‘Fortunately it’s not my first choice for breakfast either, but if you want a menu, you’d better find yourself another restaurant.’

She turned and went inside, walking rather stiffly and leaning on her stick.

Hat, feeling himself reproved, followed.

He found himself in a shady old-fashioned kitchen entirely free of anachronistic technology. His nose, sensitized by the chill morning air, caught a whiff of something vaguely familiar from his old life, quickly swamped by the delicious odour of new baked bread traceable to a rough-hewn oak table on which three tits were assaulting the dome of a cob loaf while a robin was doing its best to open a marmalade pot.

‘Samson, you little sod, leave that be!’ roared the witch. ‘Impy, Lopside, Scuttle, what do you think you’re playing at?’

The birds fluttered off the table but with little sign of panic. The tits settled on a low beam, the robin perched on the edge of an old pot sink, all casting greedy eyes back at their interrupted feast.

The witch picked up a long thin knife and Hat took a step back. But all she did was trim the pecked dome off the loaf then carve a thick slice from the remainder.

‘Help yourself to butter and marmalade while I mash a new pot of tea,’ she said.

She turned away to place a big blackened kettle on the hotplate of a wood-burning stove. Hat spread the bread thickly with butter and marmalade and sank his teeth into it. God, it was delicious! The best food he’d tasted in weeks. In fact the only food whose taste he’d noticed in weeks. This was a good dream.

One of the tits fluttered down on to the table and eyed him boldly.

‘Sorry, Scuttle,’ he said. ‘I’ve waited a long time for this.’

The witch glanced round at him curiously.

‘How did you know that one was Scuttle?’ she asked.

‘Two blue tits and a coal tit, not hard to guess which one’s Scuttle,’ he said.

‘So, apart from your problem with blackbirds and parrots, you do know something about birds. That what you’re doing out so early? Bird-watching?’

‘Not really,’ said Hat, thinking, You know exactly what I’m doing!

She turned to face him across the table.

‘You’re not an egg collector, are you?’ she demanded.

‘No way!’ he replied indignantly. ‘I’d lock those sods up and throw away the key.’

‘Glad to hear it,’ she said. ‘So if you’re not twitching and you’re not thieving, just what are you doing wandering round my garden so early in the morning? You don’t have to tell me, but unsatisfied curiosity only gets you one slice of bread and marmalade.’

She smiled at him as she spoke and he found himself returning the smile.

He certainly wanted some more bread, but what answer could he give?

He was saved from decision by the sound of a cracked bell.

‘Clearly my morning for dawn raids,’ she said.

The bell rang again.

‘Coming, coming,’ she cried, turning to open a door into a shady corridor that ended at another door, this one with a letter box and an upper panel of frosted glass against which pressed a face.

Hat sliced himself some more bread as she moved away. Even in dreams, a young cop had to take his chances. As he sank his teeth into it, he kept a careful eye on the Crunch Witch to see what reinforcements she may have conjured up.

She opened the front door.

A man stood there. He too carried a walking stick, this one ebony with a silver top in the shape of a hawk’s head, and he wore a black trilby which he removed as he said, ‘Good morning to you, Miss Mac.’

‘And to you, Mr W,’ said the witch. ‘Why so formal? You should just have come round the back.’

‘I’m sorry, it’s so early, I thought I’d better be sure …’

‘That I was decent? How thoughtful. But you know what it’s like at Blacklow Cottage: up with the birds, no choice about it. Come on in, do.’

She led the newcomer into the kitchen. He moved easily enough though with a just perceptible drag of the left leg suggesting that, like the woman’s, his stick was not simply for ornament. He stopped short when he saw Hat.

‘I’m sorry,’ he said again. ‘I didn’t realize you had a guest.’

‘Me neither till five minutes back,’ said the witch. ‘Mr Waverley, meet … sorry, I don’t think I got your name?’

‘Hat,’ said Hat. This little rush of names made him uneasy. Not Waverley, that had no resonance. But Blacklow Cottage set up some kind of vibration …

‘Mr Hat,’ said the witch. ‘Sit yourself down, Mr W. I’m just making a fresh pot of tea.’

She turned back to the stove. Hat studied Waverley openly and without embarrassment. (Pointless letting yourself be embarrassed in a dream.) Waverley returned the gaze with equal composure. He was in his early sixties, medium height, slim build, with a long narrow face, well-groomed hair, still vigorous though silvery, alert bluey-green eyes, and the sympathetic expression of a worldly priest who has seen everything and knows to the nearest farthing the price of forgiveness. He was wearing a beautifully cut grey mohair topcoat, which reminded Hat that despite the sunshine this was a pretty nippy morning.

He shivered, and this intrusion of meteorology bothered him like the name of the cottage. First the taste of food, now weather …

‘Do you live locally, Mr Hat?’ asked Waverley.

He had a gentle well-modulated voice with perhaps a faint Scots accent.

‘No,’ said Hat. ‘I got lost in the forest.’

‘The forest?’ echoed the man in a faintly puzzled tone.

‘I think Mr Hat means Blacklow Wood,’ said the witch with that nice smile.

‘Of course. And you’re quite right, Mr Hat. As you clearly know, this and one or two other little patches of woodland scattered around the area are all that remain of what used to be the great Blacklow Forest when the Plantagenets hunted here.’

Blacklow again. This time the vibration was strong enough to break the film of ice through which he viewed dreams and reality alike.

Now he remembered.

A dank autumn day … but his MG had been full of brightness as he drove deep into the heart of the Yorkshire countryside with the woman he loved by his side.

One of those small surviving patches of Blacklow Forest had been the copse out of which a deer had leapt, forcing him to bring his car to a skidding halt. Then he and she had pushed through the hedge and sat beneath a beech tree and drunk coffee and talked more freely and intimately than ever before. It had been a milestone in what had turned out to be far too short a journey.

Yesterday he’d driven out to the same spot and sat beneath the same tree, indifferent to the fall of darkness and the thickening mist. Nor when finally he rose and set off back to the car did he much care when he realized he’d missed his way. For an indeterminate period of time he’d wandered aimlessly, over rough grass and boggy fields, till he’d flopped down exhausted beneath another tree and slept.

The fog had cleared, the night had passed, the sun had risen, and he, waking under branches, imagined himself still sleeping and dreaming …

The woman placed the teapot on the table and said, ‘So what brings you out so early, Mr W?’

The man glanced at Hat, decided he was out of it for the moment, then said, ‘I’m afraid I’m the bearer of ill news, Miss Mac. I take it you’ve heard nothing?’

‘Heard what? You know I don’t have any truck with phones or wireless.’

‘Yes, I know. But I thought they might have … no, perhaps not … I’m sure that eventually someone will think …’

‘What, for heaven’s sake? Spit it out, man,’ said the woman in exasperation.

‘Perhaps you should sit down … As you will,’ said Waverley as the woman responded with a steely stare that wouldn’t have been out of place on a peregrine. ‘I heard it on the radio this morning, then rang to check details. It’s your nephew, Pal. It’s very bad, I’m afraid. The worst. He’s dead. Like your brother.’

‘Like …? You mean he …?’

‘Yes, I’m truly sorry. He killed himself last night. In Moscow House.’

‘Oh God,’ said the woman. ‘Laurence, you are again my bird of ill omen.’

Now she sat down.

It seemed to Hat, who had emerged from the depths of his introspection just in time to take in the final part of this exchange, that the soft chirruping of the birds, a constant burden since he entered the kitchen, now all at once fell still.

The woman too sat in complete silence for almost a minute.

Finally she said, ‘This is a shock, Laurence. I’m prepared for the shocks of my world, but not for this. Am I needed? Will anyone need me? Please advise me.’

‘I think you should come with me, Lavinia,’ said the man. ‘When you have spoken to people and found out what there is to find out, then you will know if you’re needed.’

The shock of the news had put them on first-name terms, observed Hat. It also underlined his obtrusive presence.

He stood up and said, ‘I think I should be on my way.’

‘Don’t be silly,’ said the woman. ‘Carry on with your breakfast. I think you need it. Laurence, give me five minutes.’

She stood up and went out. The birds resumed their chirruping.

Hat looked at Waverley and said uncertainly, ‘I really think I ought to go.’

‘No need to rush,’ said Waverley. ‘Miss Mac never speaks out of mere politeness. And you do look as if a little nourishment wouldn’t come amiss.’

No argument there, thought Hat.

He sat down and resumed eating his second slice of bread on which he’d spread butter and marmalade to a depth that had the robin tic-ticking in admiration and envy.

Waverley took two mugs from a shelf, and poured the tea.

‘Is there anywhere I can give you a lift to when we go?’ he said.

‘Thank you, I don’t know …’

It occurred to Hat he had no idea where he was in relation to his own vehicle.

To cover his uncertainty, he said, ‘Did you come by car? I didn’t hear it.’

‘I leave it by the roadside. You’ll understand why when you see the state of the track up to the cottage. Miss Mac doesn’t encourage callers.’

Was he being warned off?

Hat said, ‘But she makes them very welcome,’ with just enough stress on she for it to be a counter-blow if the man wanted to take it that way.

Waverley smiled faintly and said, ‘Yes, she has a soft spot for lame ducks, whatever the genus. There you are, my dear.’

Miss Mac had reappeared, having prepared for her outing by pulling a cracked Barbour over her T-shirt and changing her wellies for a pair of stout walking shoes.

‘Shall we be off? Mr Hat, you haven’t finished your tea. No need to rush. Just close the door when you leave.’

Hat caught Waverley’s eye and read nothing there except mild curiosity.

He said, ‘No, I’d better be on my way too. But I’d like to come again some time, if you don’t mind … Sorry, that sounds cheeky, I don’t want to be …’

‘Of course you’ll come again,’ she interrupted as if surprised. ‘Good-looking young man who knows about birds, how should you not be welcome?’

‘Thank you,’ said Hat. ‘Thank you very much.’

He meant it. While he couldn’t say he was feeling well, he was certainly feeling better than he had done for weeks.

They went out of the door he’d come in by. She didn’t bother to lock it. Waste of time anyway with the window left open for the birds.

They went down the side of the cottage, Miss Mac leaning on the stick in her right hand and hanging on to Waverley’s arm with the other as they headed up a rutted track towards a car parked on a narrow country road about fifty yards away.

If Hat had thought of guessing what sort of car Waverley drove, he would probably have opted for something small and reliable, a Peugeot 307 for instance, or maybe a Golf. His enforced absence from work must have dulled his detective powers. Gleaming in the morning sunlight stood a maroon coloured Jaguar S-type.

He said, ‘That lift you offered me, my car’s on the old Stangdale road, if that’s not out of your way.’

‘My pleasure, Mr Hat,’ said Waverley. ‘My pleasure.’