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Many of us have wondered why we find ourselves in such a mess, why we do the things we do, why our thoughts run amuck, why we are judgmental and critical of others, why it's easy to put others down and lift ourselves up. Sometimes we even chatter to ourselves asking, "How could I be so stupid? What in the world was I thinking?" Or we pat ourselves on the back, considering that the thoughts running through our heads are clever paybacks to someone we believe has "done it to us."

Where do these thoughts come from anyway? Is there a reason for them? And what about our behaviors? Do you ever find yourself blowing up at someone and then, later, unable to fathom why you've done it? Do you have some addictive behavior or persistent thoughts that you just can't shake, and wonder why the tug is so powerful? Do you struggle with thinking that you have value or worth, and can quickly manufacture a list of what's wrong with you? Do you cover up the negative way you think of yourself with an air of sophistication—"I've got it all together"—or arrogance, repeated laughter at almost every sentence you utter, or anger that's out of control? Do you long for a close relationship or two, but the minute someone accepts and seems to love you, you push them away?

There are answers; there are reasons for your feelings, thoughts and behaviors. People don't just wake up one morning and "out of the blue" decide that this is the day they will rob a bank or take someone's life or throw a temper tantrum. There is always a beginning, always a set-up, and in most cases the set-up started years before the thoughts and actions began. Mind you, there is never an excuse, because an excuse is simply a cover-up. But there is ALWAYS a reason, and a reason is a set-up. So what is it that sets a person up to be offensive? Could it be some life experience(s)? Many are trapped in the prison houses of their minds, while others wind up behind brick walls because they were caught.

Are the stories of our histories just excuses, cover-ups, for evil people with evil motives to do as they please?