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What would I tell you if you could hear me? If I was able to talk to you one more time? I would want to let you know that I am still here. I would ask you to stay. More than anything, I would want to tell you how much I love you.

That sounds so cliché, but it is so true. I thought I had more time. I didn’t know that my last words were truly the last words you would ever hear me say.

I watched you, Stanley. I watched you as you tried to awaken me, as you tried to revive me. I heard you beg me to come back, heard you scream my name. I was there next to you. I tried to come back. I didn’t want to leave you. And I didn’t. I am still here, Stanley.

I watch you sleep at night. Sometimes, I even think you can hear me. I want so badly to touch you. To feel you again.

I love you so much my darling, Stanley. Can you hear me, my love? Can you feel that I am here with you? I will never leave you…

You smile.

Did you hear me?

Your eyes remain closed. Your smile fades. I lie next to you and watch over you through the night. These times with you are a precious torture. They are all I have left. I watch you day after day and night after night. I see the lines deepen in your face. Your hair fading from gray to white.

You look so lonely. You are not, my love.

God dammit, Stanley, you are not alone!

Your glass falls to the floor and shatters. You look around the room and quickly stand to your feet.

Did I do that? Oh my god, I think I did that!

You are puzzled. You walk to the kitchen to get the broom. I follow you. You turn, looking around the room. You stare right into me. Your eyes soften. “Juliet.”

“Yes, Stanley, it’s me. I am here right in front of you.”

You look down. “Juliet, I miss you so much. The memories in this house…They are all I have left of you.”

“No, Stanley, that’s not true. I am here. I never left you. I am here…”

“The girls miss you so much. Amber is getting married next week. Jenna, she is doing so well in school. You would be so proud of them. Your mother has been there for them. She stepped in after you…after you passed. I don’t know what I would have done without her. I love our girls, Juliet. But I am just not any good to them without you. It was supposed to be us. It was always supposed to be us. What am I without you? I am just alive. I am not living. Living without you…I won’t betray you like that. I just count the days, Juliet. The days until I can be with you again.”

“We are together, Stanley. Please don’t be sad. God, I don’t want you to be sad…”

“The girls need you. You mean more to them than you know.”

“Stanley, I want you to live. I want you to find joy again. I love you so much. I don’t want you to feel this way. Please, Stanley, be happy again. Move on, my love.”

Stanley falls to his knees. I see his tears streaming down his face. I wrap my arms around him, and I cry, but I have no tears.

“Goodbye for now, Stanley.”

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