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Can I control my use of any form of mind or mood altering chemicals? Most addicts will see that control is impossible the moment it is suggested.

∼Narcotics Anonymous P 19

In C.D.A. we acknowledge our weakness with regard to not just our drug of choice, but to all mind-altering and mood-changing chemicals. We have learned that, for us, abusing prescribed medications or the use of any other chemical is considered a relapse. At one time, we were all delusional about our ability to control the use of any mind-altering or mood-changing chemical. Often, coming into recovery, we try to maintain that delusion to some degree. Maybe we think we can join another program that only specifies one chemical so we can keep using others. Maybe we keep our physician in the dark about our addiction so he might prescribe something if we should decide we need it. Fortunately, C.D.A. is our safe haven. C.D.A. is a place where we can explore the delusion that we might be able to use something at some time for some reason.

“Recovery is recovery is recovery” can only be understood if I know a “drug is a drug is a drug.”

{I} stopped taking any mood-altering substance, except for coffee. My "clean time" has just recently entered a phase which I dare call recovery.

∼Chemically Dependent Anonymous P 185