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Our troubles, we think are basically of our own making. ∼Alcoholics Anonymous P 62

Sometimes it’s just easier to make the world seem crazy than it is to just admit to our own insanity or character defects. It’s the snide look on the cashier’s face, not our own impatience. It’s the slow waitress, not the fact that we didn’t give ourselves enough time. It’s the stupid county code, not the fact that we didn’t bring our dog’s pooper scooper to the park. We have a propensity for saying, “My mistake, your craziness,” excusing our own actions while accusing others for the same type of behavior. Unfortunately, we do have the ability to make the world seem unbelievably crazy. We do this because we don’t want to see that it is our own failings that are usually at the base of our annoyances and irritations.

I work Step Ten when things don’t seem

to go right. That way, I don’t go in the

wrong direction for too long.

As I grew increasingly more aware in my recovery—it was around the nine-month mark—I realized that there was a pattern to my life that was the source of my troubles.

∼Chemically Dependent Anonymous P 51