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My whole life, I was in awe of passionate people – passionate about what they doing in this life. Whether it was about what they were studying, what they were doing as a hobby, or choosing to follow as a career.

It seems to me that those people were ‘lucky enough’ to be sure of what they truly wanted in this life. They seemed very happy about their choice and what those choices were bringing into their lives. They had plans around it and paths to follow…

In contrast, for years and years, I took pride in multitasking. Being super-fast with tasks I had in hand seemed like a useful skill that people around me often spoke highly of it.

Absorbing Happy Smile’s insight made me realize that, in my rush to accomplish many things, I wasn’t able share my true attention, with anything I was doing. I was “just doing it” for the sake of being done with it. No patience. No true attention = No true love.

I was a ‘jumper’ from one project to another. I usually became better than the beginner level, collecting future-promising skills within me in many of the things I shared my attention with. After a while, though, I would move on to the next thing.

It became clearer to me that I was creating borders between myself and the outside world, while also doubting my own skills.

For the last few years, I have enjoyed being inside my body, connecting and discovering philosophies to set my mind and heart free.

One thing that was truly fascinating to me was spirituality. Spirituality was filled with messages that ‘everything is possible in this reality.’

Eager to believe in a life larger than what I had been taught or experienced, I delved into various spiritual practices. My journey took me through the realms of Yoga Philosophy, religions, Shamanism, Sufism, astrology, ancient mythology, and even witchcraft and Reiki, among many others.

Each held its own set of systems, rules, beliefs, and books, often discussing the concept of love, and how to be happy and healthy. Yet, none of them provided a clear and simple code that I could incorporate into my daily life, free from the rigid (or soft) rules of their systems.

By sharing my attention with these topics, systems, and beliefs, I was also giving my power and time to them in order to understand life a little better. Understanding myself and truly finding myself inside of this big game, was my goal all along.

What was not clicking inside my soul was how to be sure of myself within a system I hadn’t created.

Am I truly grasping and experiencing the whole philosophy and purpose of these systems, as they were created many years ago? How possible was it for me to speak with sureness about them and all the details they contained?

From experience, I can say: yes, when I believe in them, they work for me somehow. Still, it depended on the level of belief I had in each topic.

Being 100% sure about any of these systems didn’t seem much possible for the near future of mine.

So, thank you to all the beautiful humans who created these systems – and many more – for the betterment of humanity, to support evolution and self-discovery in this reality. I appreciate you, and whoever chooses to follow any systems out there, I want their freedom to do what they want.

For myself, I want to grow my self-belief through the topics I can speak about with sureness.

I am not interested in directly sharing information from a ‘book’ I only read. I want to align with the information that comes my way through beautiful sources and grow rooted feelings toward it through experience – so it feels true within and reflects into my outside world.

From this perspective, I choose to share only my true experiences – information I can speak with 100% certainty – freely, with anyone, at any time.

My goal is to happy smile.

My goal is to grow self-belief.

And being sure supports that growth strongly.