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This was Stacey’s second regression. The first is reported later in the book in Chapter 6 on relationships. In this session she chose to discover the source of her weight issue so that she might change an unhealthy pattern that causes her to be heavier than she desires.

As we began, Stacey quickly found herself back in ancient Italy as a female in her twenties. Some of her first words were, “I am huge, and my family calls me disgusting and gross. They call me horrible names.” Her family shut her in a room by herself and came only to bring her food that was not intended to nourish her but to be a punishment that was an outlet for their anger. Somehow making her big made them feel better.

While they used food as a means of torture, this girl used it to make herself feel better. For some reason they thought she could take abuse. (In this part in the regression I had to ask her subconscious to translate her words as she was thinking them in Italian, a language she does not currently know.) This young woman was the youngest of many children, and her parents did not want her. They did not have much income and blamed her for their money problems; all of them, even her brothers and sisters, blamed her. The oldest sister was “the worst.” Stacey recognized this sister as her maternal grandmother, the one for whom Stacey had been her guardian in the last part of her life. You can see here that in current times these two were playing out a reversal of roles in a way that allowed for a higher learning.

Imprisoned in this room, she felt sad and alone. We used the technique of looking at this situation from above, and she was easily able to understand that it was not her fault that she was born. By learning this, Stacey recognized on a deeper level that food cannot make you feel better. With probing, she acknowledged that she was holding anger in her stomach, just below the heart area and all the way down to the intestines. The color of this energy was black. (Black or gray energy often indicates a dark energy of some kind and is sometimes not our own. Also energetic blockage of the intestines could easily cause an accumulation of weight in the physical body.) We identified it as belonging to her older sister’s/grandmother’s energy and did a clearing to remove it. Stacey also recognized that she was holding her own anger, red in color in her heart. (Red energy held in the body or aura frequently represents anger.) Her energy was sent into the Light for purification so that she will be able to reclaim it in current time.

She was, then, able to understand at a soul level that her family needed this outlet to make them feel better, although she did not condone the way in which they chose to do it. Stacey completed the work by doing the necessary forgiveness—forgiving the members of her family and herself.

As a result of the regression, Stacey said that she no longer needs the weight for protection and plans to make appropriate changes in the amount and type of food that she eats.