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Jigsaw; Cut into various pieces of different shapes that have to be fitted together.

the most confusing moment of my life was when I was lying next to you

I mean you seemed to know what you were doing

talking to me like your arm wasn’t on mine and your face wasn’t inches away from my face and the computer right in front of us was not open to the hulu screen it was not there at all what are you talking about

I mean I just think I imagined it differently, the first time I would have a girl sitting in my bed next to me

she would be quiet or maybe she’d be loud or she would speak her mind in mindful and modest doses but she would speak to me and be just as confused as I was just as confused as to why she was sitting on my bed on a thursday night in the humidity of the summer just returned from a poetry reading that neither of us really enjoyed

but she wasn’t you don’t worry you were headstrong and strong and you sat there like you had a purpose in my life a throne you were waiting to claim

I was still putting the pieces together

Jigsaw; Requires the assembly of oddly shaped interlocking and tessellating pieces.

I don’t know how well we fit together me and you I mean I never quite wanted people to see us together even now I bring you up to my friend on a sweltering afternoon and it takes her a minute to remember we were even together and it’s not just her it’s me too

it’s weird that way how I thought we gelled so well we snapped together but even now I talk to my best friend and remember how she stopped talking to me because she knew just how bad you were for me

even now I try to tell myself I knew just how bad you were

Jigsaw; Must reassemble a picture.

theoretically we should have clicked theoretically you were the one to hold me together in my darkest moments and theoretically you watched me enjoy my best ones

in reality our minds were from very different puzzles I think mine was a tad more complex one of those big 5000 piece ones that I love to do that have some really cool picture with vibrant colors where a ton of shades of blue are used and they’re really goddamn confusing but so rewarding I think you were more a…rustic cabin scene maybe a 500 piece-er I could’ve finished you in a day

I mean theoretically you were the one to make me feel whole but I mean…all my pieces were there in the first place yours just made it a hell of a lot more confusing