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I Choose to L.I.V.E.

a child, I could not comprehend why I was being targeted and could not imagine what I had done to deserve such disgusting and inexcusable treatment. My cry seemed to always fall upon deaf ears, and my grasp for help seemed to always return void. Although my mind was twisted and confused, I was certain that I never wanted other people to develop a similar perception or to echo similar statements about me. I felt confident that wearing a mask was my only way to survive in a life that was such a horrible reality. From that point forward, I knew that makeup would be my solution and allow me to bandage the emotional poverty that had me bound.

The good news is that God could not care less about your social status because His love is truly unconditional. God should never be treated like an acquaintance, and the communication that you have with Him should extend far beyond a casual post to His “spiritual page.” You have to be intentional about having a personal relationship with God. When it comes to your connection with God, it is not about just knowing His name, but you must know God for yourself.

Aesthetic Appeal

I define the bondage of Aesthetic Appeal as when a person allows their personal value to be held hostage to their sense of beauty. I recognize that the classification of beauty can be rather subjective because what is beautiful to one person may not be beautiful to another. With this type of bondage, I am referring to how an individual identifies with beauty, and what makes that individual feel attractive. For example, some people may allow the social definitions and criteria to dictate what is beautiful while other people may establish their own measures. The emphasis of attractiveness is most often on the outward appearance so it is easy for a person to become heavily focused on personal aesthetics.

Out of all of the bondage categories that I described, I was bound to Aesthetic Appeal. From the age of 10-15, I was constantly molested, and physically and verbally abused by my stepfather. I was initially attracted to the attention because my stepfather was spending so much time with me, and I was